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I wrote this on Thursday and i have no idea where it's going but i want to know what you think.

"Set narcolepsy fumes on high!" someone shouted in my head and I set upon a smile to the stupidly of it. Not that it really mattered why I thought it. Class...what a bore...yet somehow I can't bring myself to sleep. Dang coffee. I had a huge mug of it before class and now I pay the price for my caffeine addiction. I have many addictions when I think about it. I pulled out my notebook and ignored the teacher’s ramblings and set down to writing it out.
1. Coffee (obviously)
2. Happy thoughts (don't know why)
3. Chocolate (who isn't addicted?)
4. Bunnies (their so cute)
5. Caramel (it so fun to eat XD)
6. Sugar in general
7. Ethan......being near Ethan...talking to Ethan...saying Ethan....touching Ethan.... (I’m obsessed with Ethan)
8. Obsessing over Ethan.
I should probably say who Ethan is; he's a dark almost caramel skin colored boy I see everyday. He has black rimmed glasses, but not the fish blow kind. He has black hair that falls over his glasses hiding his deep green eyes. He a gothic kind of person with his tight, but not girl pants tight jeans and black t-shirt with a huge black jacket (he wears it in the winter and makes him disappear into it). He has a choker always over his neck with black and purple arm warmers or sometimes wristbands. I sigh, just thinking about him. He doesn't talk much, but when he does, everyone shuts up to hear him. Normally though he's insulting someone who can't seem to shut up.

He play the violin and writes poetry in the corner. He a deep and mysterious person or can be loud and funny if he feels like it. We talk a lot or sometimes he lets me sit near him and watch him write or play his violin. We’re together...not yet anyway, but in my notebook we're soul mates. I have mention I’m somewhat of a stalker? Well I am if you couldn't tell by now. Anyway, what was I talking about? Oh about Ethan; he's my special friend I have to rely on when no one else cares. Last night he came over to my house after sneaking out of his house. We talk for hours in my room. It was about nothing really, but I liked it...I like him...I love Ethan....I hope he doesn't read this. Maybe I should erase it...crap I wrote it in pen....oh well. The notebook write in is a light blue one with metal rings to hold it together. On the front it says 'bite me' then I put random pictures and stickers. Some are happy faces, others are roses and evil looking faces, and some are ninja bunnies with little swords and knives. If you were to open it you would find neatly save wrappers of candy from different parts of the world all glue in. Ethan got them for me when he skipped going to school for a year and went traveling with his parents. I missed him a lot, but loved him even more when he came back; especially with the candy. I write all my thoughts in here and love to see who high I seem when I reread them. But I’m not on drugs only insanity. Funny huh...? Or maybe not, I’m weird you know. I talk to my notebook when I draw and see things that aren't real save for in my imagination. Class isn't even over and I feel like I’ve been here for hours. Ethan is staring out of a window at something. I look at him and he notices me watching him and looks back at me. I smile and he just gives me a hint of one before turning away to the object outside the window. I throw a note at him asking him what he is looking at. He writes back it's an old tree. He wants to sit under it with me. I think he likes me, but who knows maybe I’m just dreaming.

Sometimes I dream I’m in a whole world of chocolate and I get to eat all of it till I’m sick. I try to think of my other dreams, but the teacher calls me back to attention and wants me to read aloud to the class the next chapter of the book. I sigh and get up not wanting to leave my own little world. I find the chapter and start to read. We have to stand up and read so everyone can hear us. I read slowly so not to screw up the wording, but not to slow to put everyone to sleep. The book is about a man going to war. He leaves behind his lucky button and is now sitting in his fox hole trying to remember where on the dresser it was. After I read the chapter I sit back down and see Ethan watching me with an unreadable expression. Once he told me he liked to hear me read or even speak. It was something about the sound being calming to him. I look at him and he looks back at me. For a while I feel close to him and that there is nothing else around us. But the bell for the fire alarm rings and people get up blocking my view. I let out a small whimper. I liked how it was.

I get up and follow the others out of the classroom. Ethan comes up behind me and smiles. It was a rare real smile and it was rare for me to see it and as far as I knew, no one else gets to see it. we walk with the other outside the building and to the field where the class is suppose to wait until it’s safe to go back in. other classes crowed around ours and I barely notice until someone bumped into me and I got push close to Ethan. I saw the rare smile again and my heart seemed to stop or at least skip a beat. His eyes looked better up close. They seemed to spark with an imaginary flame. I wanted to stay this close forever, but like in class the bell signaling we can come back in sounded and it was off to class again. Next class Ethan and I didn’t have a class. And I couldn’t wait until then. Today seemed different for any other; I only had to wait until next class to see why…

xd xd xd

eek ninja bunneh...