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 Posted: Sun Apr 12, 2009 2:48 pm
♥xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxT O F U M A N I A ! if you were dead or still alive; I don't care, I don't care.
just go and leave this all behind; 'cause I swear, I don't care.
you have now entered the mind of tofupirate.
feel free to comment on whatever I end up throwing down to write here.
in fact, I encourage comments.
they make me feel important.
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Posted: Sun Apr 12, 2009 2:56 pm
♥xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxsunday, april 12, 2009 if you were dead or still alive; I don't care, I don't care.
just go and leave this all behind; 'cause I swear, I don't care.
so, I woke up this morning to snow.
I wasn't impressed in the least.
It's SUPPOSED to be spring, but that's atlantic canada for you -- you never friggin know what you're going to get weather-wise.
I wish I had more to say -- but I've had a rather uneventful day.
So I'll leave you with a link to something nifty as a consolation, and perhaps you'll actually be back when I have something better to talk about.
[treats!]
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Posted: Mon Apr 13, 2009 11:13 am
♥xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxmonday, april 13, 2009 if you were dead or still alive; I don't care, I don't care.
just go and leave this all behind; 'cause I swear, I don't care.
today has been... interesting, so far.
this chicka from my class, apologized to me today, and said she was really sorry for how she used me. (about a month ago, she asked me if she could use my Legal Theory review for the upcoming test -- knowing that I put a TON of work into the review, because I won't accept anything less than 100% on my tests, and ended up using it to cheat). I'm shocked she apologized, but frankly, it stopped bothering me long ago, I guess I can't hold onto a grudge anymore.
still snowing, still unimpressed.
I've been really surprised with the lack of panic attacks that I have been experiencing. It's lovely, because when I have an attack now, there isn't anything that I can do about it.
A while back, I was put on ativan, like, just given the prescription to use whenever I had an attack, to calm myself down so that I could get through it. But holy s**t. My body did not react well to the stuff, like, it was ridiculous. At first, it was fine. But then I started getting sick, like, REALLY sick when I would take it. It would first just knock me out completely, and I'd be like a zombie, and when I'd snap out of that, I'd start vomiting and would feel like crap for at least two days after.
and then after about a month or two, I like... started freakin' hallucinating, and since I've NEVER had that issue before, I knew it had to be the ativan, so I was like, "******** this bullshit, I'm not taking it anymore".
So hopefully this hardly any panic attacks keeps up, because I'm liking not having to deal with them. : )
And that'd be about all -- mmkay, next entry, I'll have something better to say, promise. So again, to compensate for lack of entry, I'll leave you with another treat and hope that tides you over until I've got something better to say.
laura ♥
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Posted: Fri Apr 17, 2009 9:01 am
♥xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxfriday, april 17, 2009 see me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin
so pull me from that pedestal, I don't belong there.
So I'm pretty much pissed off today.
A little background story - the Canada Revenue Agency claims that I owe them 200 bucks, because of a bursary for 2,000 I "received" in 2007 that I didn't claim on my tax return.
I was supposed to go to Saint Mary's University in 2007 - but I withdrew all my s**t before the course even started.
I never received ANY money, from ANY institution for a bursary that year.
So I was pretty baffled, and have been trying to figure out who made the mistake, because I don't have the money to pay back something that was never given to me in the first place.
So I've been on the phone with the CRA, all morning. First they told me to try Nova Scotia Student Assistance, because it was probably from them. So, I call them, and they check, my application was withdrawn in September of '07, so there was no way I'd have been given a bursary. I had them double check to ensure they didn't file the paperwork for it anyway, they said that there wasn't anything there.
So I call back the CRA and the chick I get this time digs deeper into the file and gets me the address that the "bursary" came from. So I look that up, and it's from the Nova Scotia Community College.
A school I never applied to, never wanted to go to, and never had any contact with.
So now I get to contact them and find out what the hell is going on.
Oh, and I found out that back home, my younger brother is selling coke now. Yeah, that was great to hear. Like I can really do anything about it living the next province over.
Ick.
And to top it off, things have been messed up in my relationship -- because I'm flipping stupid. My boyfriend has been so wound up in starting his business, and working with the company he's already at, and all of this other stuff -- that I've kind of been put on a backburner. And I've been in need of *SOMEONE* to be there for me.
... and the person who happened to stand up and be there for me, was a guy that I used to be crazy for. Things would never have worked out between us, but before I met my boyfriend, I wanted to be with this guy more than anything. I don't think my boyfriend is too much of a fan of this guy, because I've almost left him and gone with this other guy once before.
So... you can just guess how that shook stuff up. But I talked with my boyfriend about it, and told him that there's obviously an issue in our relationship if I keep looking to other people for things that I wish I could get from him. Surely, I take full responsibility for my actions, but... I told him I wanted to fix things.
He pretty much wouldn't hear it. I told him he needed to let me know that I still mattered to him, that he wanted to be there for me when times got hard, and that he loves me. He told me that he was busy and didn't want to talk about it.
Lovely.
Anyway, maybe a treat for the both of us today. Since this song is ridiculously amazing. : )
Haley Scott flavoured treat!
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Posted: Mon Apr 20, 2009 1:19 pm
♥xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxhappy 4/20! see me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin
so pull me from that pedestal, I don't belong there.
so this morning I had a panic attack right downtown on main street on my way to school. It was somewhat different than the others, as in it wasn't so severe, but that happens to me sometimes. I'm glad it was like... 8:00 in the morning, or else I'd be terrified that the entire city saw me or something.
I just sort of.. flopped down onto the sidewalk and sat there until it passed. My boyfriend was with me, because he rides the bus with me in the morning, since he goes to work near where I go to school. So he stayed with me until it passed, which I was really grateful for, because he was already late for work, and made himself even more late by waiting for me.
But I'm sure if anyone gave him s**t for it, he'd just explain what happened and I'm sure they wouldn't make a big deal out of it. He would have only been five or ten minutes late anyway.
It just sucked, I'm not going to lie.
No news on Tofu's Tax Troubles, heh, but I am sure I'll keep you posted on that one when I get some answers from the college that apparently sent me the bursary.
I'm just scared someone freakin' impersonated me again. 'Cause I had someone pretend to be me, call the Kids Help Line with this crazy story about an abusive boyfriend that I was living with, and that I just wanted to go home, etc, etc. (You know, back when I was younger, living at home, and not even dating anyone at the time it happened.) So that was fun to have the cops looking for me, thinking I was in some crazy situation. *sigh*
Oh well. I can't let myself stress too much about this, because I know what the result of too much stress is.
well s**t, I almost forgot your treat for reading, haha.
uhm, something good this time, eh? let's see. how about something with a hint of Repo! The Genetic Opera?
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Posted: Thu Apr 23, 2009 1:22 pm
♥xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxthursday, april 23, 2009 you could be the final straw that brings me back to earth;
ever waiting airports full of the love that you deserve;
wishing I could find a way to wash away the past;
knowing that my heart will break; but at least the pain will last.
love song requiem - trading yesterday
listen to it, you know you want to.
anyway, entry. right. that's what this whole thing is for. xD
so, I've got an update on Tofu's Tax Trouble.
I got a reply from that college, and they were like, "Well... after an initial search, we think we may have inputted the wrong SIN when we were sending information to the Canada Revenue Agency, call this toll free number (since I can't call long distance, or rather, refused to), and we'll try and sort this out for you."
So their offices are closed after 4, and I don't get home until 5, so I'm calling them tomorrow since I don't have school on Fridays. So yeah, stay tuned for what happens there!
Other than that, there really isn't a whole lot to say.
Other than you know, I've met someone that I actually *hate*. Like, I usually just strongly dislike people, but man, I HATED this chicka. Essentially, I met her at a cranium party, and found out she was a racist (...because someone the fact my dad is black came up in the conversation), yep. I wasn't too impressed, because I hate racist people. And I mean, it's one thing to THINK racist thoughts, but when you're a downright b***h to someone after you find out that they're part black, that's just crossing a line for me.
...Oh well, apparently I found out that she filmed some 16 year old running topless down the street one night after playing drunken truth or dare. Yeah, I heard it through someone else, so I don't know if it's true or not, but I swear, if it was, I'd be tempted to call the cops, a) to be spiteful b) because that's just kind of sick to do that --- considering this girl is like... way older than I am, and I'm 19.
So yeah, c'est la vie.
No treats today, since I can't seem to find anything treat-worthy. =(
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Posted: Thu Apr 23, 2009 2:30 pm
Awww...treats are awesome! I hope you get your Tax Trouble sorted out. I'm not going to have to worry about that stuff until next year when I turn 18, and let me tell you, not looking forward to it. I hope there are treats next time biggrin
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Posted: Wed Jul 01, 2009 9:02 am
»»xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxJuly 1, 2oo9 ♥ I'm crazy, crazy tonight; baby hold me tonight
Capture my heart
Happy Canada Day to any fellow Canadians! <3
So, just a quick update of the journal, since I'm never here anymore. (*looks around* Although it seems like no one else is... is that tumbleweed?) I'm working full time at the law firm, like, an actual real, 9 to 5 job. Except it's 8:30 to 5, but whatever, haha. And on top of that, I still have my job at the Bay for extra odd hours and extra cash. That eats up most of my time, so don't be surprised if you don't see me around for a while.
I'm going home at the end of the month for a visit -- kinda nervous, but should be fun.
And that's pretty much it for me.
Hold me til morning
Love me right now
Catch me, I'm falling
Never let go♥
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