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 Posted: Tue Mar 24, 2009 7:38 pm
I'm just a disaster lately. I've been sick for what will be a week, tomorrow. Tomorrow will have been a week, since I've seen Michael. And I'm just so sick. And so tired. I have so much congestion it makes my head ache, and my teeth hurt. My throat hurts, and I can't help but cough. It's one of those deep, wet coughs. And it makes my head hurt even more. I went to the doctor, and I'm on MORE antibiotics. The second antibiotic this year. And I'm so tired. I'm working myself to death, and I just feel like it's for nothing.
And I miss Michael so much. A week away from him, and I feel so weak. So listless. And sometimes I just don't think he loves me anymore. But I know that's just me. And my own head. My own faults. And sometimes I just don't think I can ******** do this anymore. Like I just don't have the strength. And I just want to cry. And I feel awful. I just want him here. Making me feel better. And I don't want to worry about whether or not he'll come home from overseas. I don't want him to have to go. And I don't want to have to be without him. I know I shouldn't listen to these stupid, sad songs. But I do anyway. And I end up crying more.
I just feel alone tonight. If ever there were a night, when I needed his arms the most. And it just hurts so bad right now. And the more I cry, the more my head hurts.
He's suppose to call when he gets done with his shower... he got off the phone with me... 1/2 hour ago? I guess I'll just hope he calls.
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Posted: Tue Mar 24, 2009 7:41 pm
I hope that he calls soon as well heart It sucks that you're sick, I feel like I'm coming down with something myself and when I'm sick he usually takes care of me as I do for him. We just need to be strong and concentrate on the many blessings we have in our lives.
Sometimes its good to just let it all out heart
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Posted: Tue Mar 24, 2009 7:58 pm
Michael called. Even two minutes on the phone with him makes me feel that much better. heart heart Thank you for your kind words, Twilight. I think a lot of this is just because I feel so sick, and I haven't been THIS sick in a long time.
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Posted: Wed Mar 25, 2009 4:27 am
XD Just a letter can always make my week. Now I just wish he didn't spend his base liberty eating chocolate. >:
It is great he called though. x3 It probably helped you out of this slump.
I have had a headache and dizzy-ness and chills on and off this week. >.<; Being sick sucks. I hope you get well soon. =]
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Posted: Tue Mar 31, 2009 10:47 am
So. Michael graduated from some medic classes last night. He's still stuck up where he's at, because they aren't flying him to the next camp yet. Instead, all of the men get free time. But, they're stuck up there, instead of sending them home. To Georgia. Last night, they go to a bar. They all get drunk. Michael calls, he's mad, because he's the one who hadn't drank, and he felt like he was babysitting 8 of them. All 8 of them, being higher ranking than him. He gets off the phone, saying he'll call later on that night. He never ended up calling. Which upsets me. A, If you SAY you're going to do something, DO IT. B, I know when he's overseas he can't always do that, which is understandable. But, right now, HE HAS FREAKING FREE TIME! HE IS NOT DOING ANYTHING.
He calls me, today. Finally. At 1:20ish. He ended up drinking last night. He's hungoverish. They may go out to ANOTHER BAR TONIGHT, but he refuses to drink tonight. scream He gets off the phone after telling me, he wishes I was there, and 3 minutes. I was so irritated. So, friggin' upset. I sent him a text. And, Wicked I apologize, because I know you would not approve of this text, but, I just couldn't help myself.
I text... So, you didn't call me back last night, because you were drinking?
He's texted me back. But, I refuse to answer, or even look at it, right now.
I have another text message. Just got it. I don't know who it's from, because I didn't look at my first one from Michael. This could be a second one from him. If it's from you, Wicked, I apologize. Cus I just can't bring myself to look at his text right now.
*edit* I just looked at his text. All it said was "Yeah."
*Editedit* All is forgiven. All is forgotten. "I'm sorry I made you cry... I didn't mean to... I'm sorry for being an a*****e." "Baby, you're not an a*****e."
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Posted: Tue Mar 31, 2009 1:03 pm
aww.
Reggie and I went through phases like that while he was in AIT. He'd have free time, say he would call me, go out to a bar and then not call me.
I'd get pissed.
While he was in AK by himself he'd be out and about and not call me all day until it was like 1 a.m. my time. I'd just be like, what the hell baby?
Mind you, I'm not very easy to piss off. I understand that he wants to go out and have fun. Hell, a guy friend that me and Reggie both hung out with would say things like. "We'd be out all day and you wouldn't call. It just amazed me b/c my wife calls like 15 times if I'm gone for an hour." Its just not a super big deal. Just don't say your going to call if you're not. Ya know?
I don't ever care what he's doing as long as he's not being stupid. lol.
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Posted: Tue Mar 31, 2009 6:40 pm
mhm. I agree. It's not that I don't want Michael to go out with friends and have his own time, but if you SAY you're gonna do something... DO IT. That is what pissed me off most. An then he's all, "I made you cry...?" "Yes. You did." "I'm sorry, baby... I didn't mean to..." I don't demand he call me constantly, or be on the phone with me all the time, but, again. DO WHAT YOU SAY YOU ARE GOING TO DO.
Men are so clueless sometimes. rolleyes
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Posted: Wed Apr 01, 2009 2:39 pm
I'm lucky my husband doesn't drink. Neither of us do, which is pretty rare for the Infantry.
Really, I'm pretty lucky, if he has the time to call or text he will. Cept when he's being stupid and not wanting to talk cause he is in a bad mood.
He and I recently had a discussion that he really shouldn't tell me he is going to call me on a specific date cause he rarely calls me that day, it makes me worry when he doesn't call then. So he is to tell me he will call me in a few days or when he gets the chance versus - I will call you tomorrow.
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Posted: Wed Apr 01, 2009 3:55 pm
Eee...you just reminded me. D: I just remembered my bf recently turned 21, he drank in the past, but kept it all hush-hush to me. So hopefully he is more honest and open about it because I don't want him doing stuff behind my back. sweatdrop He thought I'd hate him, but I got mad at him more for lying. >.<; So hopefully he learned his lesson and such. x3 -crosses fingers-
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Posted: Wed Apr 01, 2009 3:58 pm
RabenKrahe mhm. I agree. It's not that I don't want Michael to go out with friends and have his own time, but if you SAY you're gonna do something... DO IT. That is what pissed me off most. An then he's all, "I made you cry...?" "Yes. You did." "I'm sorry, baby... I didn't mean to..." I don't demand he call me constantly, or be on the phone with me all the time, but, again. DO WHAT YOU SAY YOU ARE GOING TO DO. Men are so clueless sometimes. rolleyes They are. :/ I know what you mean, if you say you're going to call, then freaking call. a**. lol. I didn't mean you were crazy, psycho, call 84 times in an hour. lol. It came off wrong. xp Oh e_m you and your husband are just Mormon. lol
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Posted: Wed Apr 01, 2009 6:39 pm
-old cupcake- RabenKrahe mhm. I agree. It's not that I don't want Michael to go out with friends and have his own time, but if you SAY you're gonna do something... DO IT. That is what pissed me off most. An then he's all, "I made you cry...?" "Yes. You did." "I'm sorry, baby... I didn't mean to..." I don't demand he call me constantly, or be on the phone with me all the time, but, again. DO WHAT YOU SAY YOU ARE GOING TO DO. Men are so clueless sometimes. rolleyes They are. :/ I know what you mean, if you say you're going to call, then freaking call. a**. lol. I didn't mean you were crazy, psycho, call 84 times in an hour. lol. It came off wrong. xp Oh e_m you and your husband are just Mormon. lol Oh no no! You're fine. Frankly, there ARE women who call 84 times an hour. It's kind of scary. I AM crazy thought. ninja biggrin
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Posted: Wed Apr 01, 2009 6:41 pm
Exotic_Memories I'm lucky my husband doesn't drink. Neither of us do, which is pretty rare for the Infantry. Really, I'm pretty lucky, if he has the time to call or text he will. Cept when he's being stupid and not wanting to talk cause he is in a bad mood. He and I recently had a discussion that he really shouldn't tell me he is going to call me on a specific date cause he rarely calls me that day, it makes me worry when he doesn't call then. So he is to tell me he will call me in a few days or when he gets the chance versus - I will call you tomorrow. I don't drink. Michael isn't a heavy drinker. I'm really thinking he's only drinking a bit right now, because he isn't going to get to, for a while. I agree. I'm pretty lucky, too. Michael's pretty good about calling me and texting me. His big thing is, he's forgetful, and he loses track of time. So, "I'll call you in 15 minutes" turns into an hour and 1/2.
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Posted: Wed Apr 01, 2009 6:43 pm
Mia Takahashi Eee...you just reminded me. D: I just remembered my bf recently turned 21, he drank in the past, but kept it all hush-hush to me. So hopefully he is more honest and open about it because I don't want him doing stuff behind my back. sweatdrop He thought I'd hate him, but I got mad at him more for lying. >.<; So hopefully he learned his lesson and such. x3 -crosses fingers- Michael's 27. Drinking isn't anything new to him. He doesn't keep much from me, and what he does keep from me, he does, because he thinks it will drastically upset me. I'm still not sure if I like that. It's nothing serious. But, he had a phone number on my cell plan, and someone was sending him harassing text messages, and he wouldn't tell me what they said, he just had me change the number. Men are clueless. I hope he's learned his lesson, too.
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Posted: Thu Apr 02, 2009 3:56 pm
Men can be a bit clueless sometimes. I mean I'm not super obsessed and like 'omg -stalks-' or anything, but it would be nice to just know some things. o-o;
If only they would just be all -tells right away- "Okay I feel better now, I'm not super pissed off and annoyed."
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2009 9:50 am
UGH my husband unit is making me angry!! We were supposed to move to our house on post this week but he has been working late and today we were going to go to the zoo since he didn't have to work and then move tomorrow and sunday but NO his higher ups want to send him to the freaking field! How in the hell am I supposed to pack our whole apartment into a truck and move out big heavy furnature! This pisses me off and on top of that we have a counseling appt tomorrow at 1 in between moving out of and cleaning our apartment!! Its not like our friends can get off work to help me. UGH stress now my stomach and back are hurting for stress
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