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So I have a boyfriend, and to say the least, he's pretty fantastic.
We've been dating since very late December, but I've been in love with him since late October/early November.

The problem here is definitely not him, it's me gonk

Whenever we're together it's not as bad. I am really, REALLY clingy. But he always tells me that he doesn't mind it, so idk.
I just get really... needy when I'm around him. Like, I pretend to be upset even though we're only "play-arguing" just so he'll pay attention to me sometimes.
And I hate myself for doing that. But it's like, second-nature to me.
It probably bothers me more than it does him.

And when we're not together
and we're talking on MSN, I just get upset a lot for absolutely no reason.
Like, I set my expectations way too high and when he doesn't say what I wish he would, I get hurt.


I really hate that I'm this way.
Because I'm so scared of losing him.
I really do love him. cry

Help?

Ives is right, plus rationalise what goes on. For example when my paranoia was out of control - mental days those were - I had to constantly tell myself that it was in my head. Which was about the only way I didn't freak the ******** out of everyone and got away with seeming normal.
So you've got to hold yourself back sometimes and reassure yourself that your emotions are just on overload.

Nah I understood what you meant. At least I think I did.