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Hun, you don't need to loose anymore weight.... 85 is waaaaaay too low. But trust me, I know exactly how you are feeling. Really, I do.

Your only option is, to go into treatment. I know, it sounds scary, and sounds like it will suck. But if you continue at this rate, you will die. You've lost all control. Do you REALLY feel like you need to change? If you really do, you know you need to make the phone call, or tell your parent. Even just tell the school councilor, they will do all the work for you. Whatever way you decide to get help, I'm telling you, from an outsiders perspective who has had an eating disorder, you need to get help before it's too late.

I cannot stress it much more than that. I don't want you to suffer anymore, I don't want you to die. You know that you are suffering, you know that if you continue at this rate you will die. Help yourself.

It sounds like I don't need to tell you that you're going to die. If I told you to eat more, get help or whatever, I'd probably sound like a broken record, now wouldn't I~? It seems to me that you wouldn't know HOW to get help, now would you~?

Your best bet is to go to a free clinic, I do believe. Your school councilor can direct you to one, or you can just tell me your city, state and county so I can find you one. They're probably going to set you up with a psychiatric appointment and a therapist appointment after assessing you and they won't charge you more than your family can afford, even if that means that they won't charge you a cent.

If you can't wait for your appointments, they're going to call an ambulance and have you sent to the funny farm. Again, if you tell me your state, even if you only feel comfortable doing so in a private message, I can look up patients' rights for your area. If you live in the Florida, for instance, it's going to be worse than a jail sentence, while California funny farms are like health spas.