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 Posted: Tue Dec 30, 2008 10:44 pm
tttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt .x. κιşş τнз ѕтаяѕ ωιτн мз .x. All your twisted thoughts free flow
To ever lasting memories
Show soul
Kiss the stars with me
And dread the wait for
Stupid calls returning us to life
We say to those who are in love
It can't be true 'cause we're too young
I know that's true because
So long I was so in love with you
So I thought
A year goes by
And I can't talk about it
On my knees dim lighted room
Thoughts free flow
Try to consume myself in this
I'm not faithless
Just paranoid
Of getting lost or that I might lose
Ignorance is bliss cherish it
Pretty neighborhoods
You learn too much to hold
Believe it not
And fight the tears
With pretty smiles and lies about the times
A year goes by
And I can't talk about it
The times weren't right
And I couldn't talk about it
Chorus romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first the last time
Chorus romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first the last time
And I'm praying that we will see
Something there
In between
Then and there
That exceeds all we can dream
So we can talk about it
Chorus romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first the last time
Chorus romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first the last time
And I'm praying that we will see
Something there
In between
Then and there
That exceeds all we can dream
Song: So I Thought
Artist: Flyleaf
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Posted: Wed Dec 31, 2008 1:56 pm
c4LL m3 G0rg30uS
Ima take it off slowly, Peel you like a bananaBiiRTHc3rTiiFiiC4t3 S@ys [Clark. Gregory. McCullough.]bUT d03sN'T Clark, Clark Kent, or Superman s0uND b3tt3r?ii Bl0W th3s3 m4NY c4nDl3S Eighteen: Legal and Lethalii'M kn0WN @s The bad-boy with the beach house.iiT's so Cr4ZY 'cUz ii'M s0Blunt, curt, and maybe opinionated. That sums half of me up pretty well. I don't lie; I get my point across, and quick. It's more painful for things to be dragged out on, and on, and on. Especially if the thing being dragged on is a lie. It's better to just throw it out there. And don't expect me to take anything back, because every word that comes out of my mouth is staying there.
You could say that I've slept around with my share of the girls. Lots of one night stands, but nothing as extreme as what the Journal said. If I were to have slept with every girl at school, I would have had to have at least one threesome per week, and a couple of foursomes a semester. And I've never had a threesome. ...Although it's something I'd like to try sometime. Sure, it's crossed my mind that the girls might just be sleeping with me because of my money and my amazingly good looks (I know, I look at myself in the mirror every morning at least twice). However, I don't just let any girl into the sack with me. That only happened that one time when Jake and I got crazy drunk... I think I ended up getting a tattoo that night, too. But that was a long time ago. It doesn't matter now.
I guess I'm really cool to hang out with, too. It's probably why I'm cool with everyone except Lena and Jake. It's obvious why, though. They're the only ones that said anything about me. The anonymous things about me in the Journal was obviously Lena's writing... But I guess if I had to, I'd be okay with both of them again, because I don't really care what people say about me. It still sucks balls, though. But seriously, I'm a pretty amazing guy. I live to have fun, and I have fun to live. It's so boring otherwise. I think I'd shoot myself before I allow a dull moment to waste a moment that could have been filled with something great. I'm always cracking jokes just so the air isn't wasted by breathing in dull breaths, but rather being being breathed in because of laughter. I'm a kid at heart; I love to have fun. You can always depend on Clark Kent, Superman, to turn that frown upside-down!tHr0Ugh0ut th3 y3ArS ii'V3 l34rN3DTime shouldn't be wasted. That's the sole reason why I can't stand doing something that's not entertaining or amusing for even a second. And that's been really tough these past couple of years without all of my so-called friends there. Especially without Jake. It's odd, I never thought it would be that hard... But I guess it's alright, seeing as how Tobi is still around. I think she was one of the first that I met, way back when we were little munchkins that still took naps in the afternoon as a school curriculum. So then we closed off our group shortly afterwards.
And that's when my life really started. No, I didn't have some miraculous personality make over that made me the person I am today. No, I didn't go through some emotionally traumatic experience that changed me for life. Although, I can say I was there to experience watching that happen to people that I loved (did I just say the L word? Past tense.) dearly. Whenever something bad happened to any of the other five, I didn't pity them. It made me feel awkward, so I tried to make things better the way I knew how to: by doing something completely off topic and silly to get everyone's minds off of everything. Like going into Tobi's tampons and pulling out a Super sized tampon and seeing how much water it could suck up from her carpet. It's really amazing how much liquid that little thing can hold... I think she's used the same brand since.
And then that day when she found the Journal and showed all of us, I felt like everything just went upside-down. Something that even Clark Kent, Superman, couldn't turn right-side up. There was nothing that I could avert everyone to. This was serious s**t. Manwhore? Please. More like sexy beast. Obviously someone was jealous. Resenting my life-style? What the ******** is that supposed to mean, anyway? Who the hell cares. I'm glad Tobi found what everyone thought of each other. And I'm glad that Jake knows what I think of him. He's way too friendly to be straight. Like those male hairdressers. They're always so nice and wondering about what's going on in your life and whatever. And guess what? They're all gay!!
So ever since this all came popping out of no where in the middle of our Freshman year, and because I haven't had a party buddy, I've been going out on my own and trying new things. New sports, new people, new ideas. Although, I think I still liked the way things were...ii LiiK3 GiifTS+Girls, girls, girls!
+Girls, girls, girls in lingerie!
+Girls, girls, girls that love me. <3
+Getting those girls whenever I want.
+Getting anything whenever I want.
+All the money I have in the bank.
+All the money my parents have in the bank.
+Melons
+Sour candy.
+Sleeping in, especially with an attractive girl in lingerie (or nothing!) by my side.
+Things that even Superman can't top.
s0 D0n'T g3T m3
M4SqU3r4D3
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Posted: Wed Dec 31, 2008 1:59 pm
c4LL m3 G0rg30uS  You won't be seventeen forever, and we can get away with this tonight.BiiRTHc3rTiiFiiC4t3 S@ys Lena Marie AndersonbUT d03sN'T Lee s0uND b3tt3r?ii Bl0W th3s3 m4NY c4nDl3S Seventeenii'M kn0WN @s "The journal writer"iiT's so Cr4ZY 'cUz ii'M s0 A total good girl. I know it might be hard to believe but it's true! I follow the rules, and I was always the voice of the reason with my friends. They came to me for advice, and I gave it to them as objectively as I could. I like to make people happy, but there are just some people who aren't ever satisfied. If I'm not appreciated I won't be nice to you. I mean, why should I bother? I'm a huge believer in karma, so I know that Tobi is going to get hers one day. I'm really friendly, and I like meeting new people. So, come talk to me, and we'll see how things go. I can't make any promises though. If the people I trusted most in this world could betray me, I doubt I could trust anyone ever again.tHr0Ugh0ut th3 y3ArS ii'V3 l34rN3D I was born and raised in this little town. I've never known anything but it, and my friends or should I say ex-friends. Anyways, I'm an only child of divorced parents. Don't pity me, it's not half bad a deal. My parents had that summer love thing, and it ended in a baby and marriage. They toughed it out for about ten years, but then decided to call it quits. They knew it wasn't fair to me to be living under the same roof when all they had in common anymore was me. I love them both to death, but sometimes they get under my skin. My mom's a fashion designer and about as responsible as a teenage girl. (I'm the exception to that rule, I'm very responsible).
My dad decided to move down the street so he could still live near by me, and be able to do his plays. He's an actor, and amazing. I totally admire him. Both my parents are my heroes, and I hate it when people say bad things about them. Throughout the divorce, my (ex)friends were there for me completely. The girls would sleep over often, or let me sleepover at their houses. The guys would beat up anyone who would tease me about my parents divorce, and Derek was just at my side 24/7. I will always be thankful for that. I know what you're thinking. If we were all so close, why don't we talk anymore?
During freshman year, Tobi took my journal with all my secrets in it and showed it to everyone. That was never ever meant to get out. It's just hard to be the bearer of everyone's secrets so I wrote them down. She just ruined everything. Now they all hate me. When they confronted me I stayed quiet and they yelled at me. I mean, what was I supposed to say? "No, I didn't write that!" "That's bullshit!" I wasn't going to lie to them. I still love them all...well almost all of them. It's just easier for me to ignore them when I know they're just going to b***h at me. They all hate me and its all Tobi's fault. Ugh....well maybe not all of them hate me. Derek's still my friend, and I thank god everyday for that. He might still be in drugs, but he's been my friend the longest. I don't know what I'd do if he wasn't there. Nowadays, I hangout with the bookworms. They keep quiet, and they're really boring most of the time but at least they don't try to get into my business. They really dislike Tobi because she's popular. I think that's stupid, but they have every right to dislike that no good lying back-stabbing girl.
Anyways, its summertime, and guess what I'm doing? My mom and the other parents decided that me and the "gang" haven't talked or hung out in way too long and that we're going to settle our differences this summer. So, I'm going to be spending my summer hanging out with people that hate me....great. At least Derek is going to be there, I would go crazy not being able to rant or cry to anyone about how much this sucks. But, hey, I'll be in California, (at Clark's awesome summer house) and who says I have to hang out with them? I think I'll be spending my days at the beach a lot.ii LiiK3 GiifTS ♥ i like books. my nose is almost always stuck in one. you got a problem with that?? call 1-800-kiss-my-a**.
♥ there's not much i'm afraid of, i'm a very realistic person and i believe there's an answer for everything.
♥ i am however afraid of lizards. unexplainable fear, i just hate them. phobia hate them.
♥ music is one of my greatest passions, i always have my iPod with me 24/7.
♥ i know how to play guitar (Jake taught me years ago) and i do pretty good with song writing. i'm trying to put a band together.
♥ my artistic skills are way beyond anything you'll ever comprehend.
♥ i'm a dork, and i like it.
♥ i'm so clumsy it kills me.
♥ i'm willing to try anything at least once.
♥ my mom is a fashion designer...which is where i get my drawing skills. she's a little too girly for my taste, but i love her to death anyway. my dad and her divorced when i was ten. he lives in the neighborhood though, so he drops by every once in a while. he's an actor in plays. go dad!
♥ i tend to be very competitive and i see almost everything as a competition.
♥ i have the ability to hold a grudge for a very long time.
♥ one last thing, i'm planning on becoming a photographer when i grow up.
s0 D0n'T g3T m3 [x]heights[x]
[x]getting shot[x]
[x]blood[x]
[x]lizards[x]
[x]stress[x]
[x]assholes[x]
[x]ignorance[x]
[x]politics[x]
[x]people who think i'm perfect[x]
[x]death[x]
[x]fake friends[x]
[x]Tobi[x]
[x]if you can't carry on a conversation that doesn't have to do with which pair of shoes matches better with your lipgloss, i will light you on fire...[x]M4SqU3r4D3 iLurk
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