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Hello there.I am Victoria one of the newer members of this guild.
I too have had a long history of saddness.
I would like to explain it.
It all started in elementry school wherein I was bullied and used by many other children.I had a huge imagination(and I still do)but I also saw things.
I was easy to push around and I did not have any friends, they all left me after a time.I would tell the other children of these things I saw and I was laughed at.When I was about nine, a girl tried to drown me in a lake near the town I live in.I now have a terrible fear of the water.A few years later a started middle school, it was hell.I had done homeschool for half of the year and I was admitted late into the tri-mester.I knew no one.But I gained one friend.I grew more and more depressed.I wore black all of the time and was constantly crying at night before I went to sleep.I had severe problems with my father.We fought a lot and I felt verbally abused. 6th grade passed and I was still depressed.I started cutting myself.I stopped for awhile because a friend told me to stop.Then I lost that friend, because my father stopped her from entering the house.7th grade passed and I was in 8th grade.My brother got diagnosed with Leukimia and I told my father that I was not a christian.Things got even worse.Anf I cut the bottom of my left arm with glass, permenently etching my skin with the word Death.I even considered commiting suicide.But I found a person I knew from a long time ago and we became close like sisters.Life held more meaning for me after that.I became better.Before I met her, I was distant, cold and I thought I had no heart.There was no moonlight for me.
Now I am getting so happy and I can help people with their deppresion problems.
(I'am sorry that, that story was so long.It would of been longer but I could really explain the events by just mearly typing them.)

Sometimes verbal and emotional abuse can be worse than physical. I used to have issues with cutting and self injury as well - for me it was like replacing emotional pain with the physical. I'm thankful to say that I worked past that with the help of some great friends (which I lost contact with a few months back sad ).

I'm glad to hear you're doing well, and I hope you're brothers doing Ok.