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What am I to you,
A pest,
An annoyance?

Something that's just in the way?
Well, here I am,
Can you see me now?
Did you ever care to wonder,
What I really am thinking?

Well let’s find out.

You really think I don't care?
All I have ever been taught was to hide emotion
Be strong,
And obey.

So what if it doesn't look like I remorse.
I hide it,
Why?
Nobody likes a cry baby.

You never really supported me unless it benefited you.
Well I stopped caring.
Oh, don't look at me like that.
You know what I'm talking about.
When I wanted to write
You said no.
When I still wrote,
You threw away my finished book
Before I could final draft it.
When I wanted to draw,
You said that it wasn't the right job for me,
You only kept one piece of my art,
And it wasn't even the important one.

I said I wanted to be a Crime Scene Investigator,
You said I'd be better off in an office.
Grandma said the same thing.
You're a lot like her, you know.

It's sad,
Some of the things you say,
Like I'm not even your daughter,
Just some unpaid employee,

Everything I do...
It'll never be good enough for you, will it?
Everything you take,
I feel hurt, too,
When I take things,
It's because you do the same.

Because I'm still like you,
Just hidden away by the pain I feel.
If you really wanted a man in the house,
Why'd you kick him out?
You're always out with some guy;
How am I suppose to trust you?
When you're always lying to me, too,
Making promises then forgetting them.

I'll never be good enough;
I'll never get to be your friend;
I'll never get to know who you are,
And you'll never know me.

I guess it's just how life works,
Isn't it.
I remember one thing,
You remember another;
I hide things,
Things you'll never know,
Because you'll never care to know.

Oh, don't worry, I'm not the all-time sinner,
That would be the spoiled child at the end of the hall.
She steals from you, too,
She destroys your stuff too,
So start looking in the other direction.
I tell more in a written format then in words,
Because I'm afraid of you.

This is it;
It's the end.
I have no life left;
I have no hope.
I am nothing.
I have nothing.
Here I lay in my final hour.
It's not much,
Just the blood flowing from the gaping wound in my neck.
No tear touches my cheek;
No tears from the others.
No one cares;
No one dares,
So here I lay,
Accepting death.
Here I die.

He plays his song,
The song that kills me every time,
The song that reminds me of who I really am.
I cannot breathe
When I hear his song.
So please, please, save me from this fate.
Please don't let me kill another soul,
For this song hurts so deep,
I fall from my sanity,
To give death,
Save me,

Please save me.

Crows ravage the remains
Of what used to be.
So hopeless her cause.
Tearing at flesh like a feast
From hell.
Creatures demised by their own hand,
Scattered like a rocky beach.
Crows ravage what used to be
So precious to me.