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 Posted: Thu Jul 10, 2008 8:41 pm
Yea my poems and stories will be posted here. I hope you like them. I know that my writing can be dark but please look past that.
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Posted: Thu Jul 10, 2008 8:43 pm
Vampire
Far away from here there once was a very happy pair. They thought that nothing could ever possibly end their happiness until one day a stranger came to town and fell in love with the young women and sadly she had fallen in love with the stranger. Her first love didn’t know until he saw her one day flirting with the stranger. No matter how much she said that she felt nothing towards the stranger she knew she was lying to herself and that he too somehow knew she was lying. She knew that for both of their sake she should end it with one of the young men but she found it hard to choose so she decided to end both. She wandered around alone, feeling lost and unloved for three weeks. She finally made her decision to date one of the men; furthermore, she felt like she should give the stranger a chance, and she felt like she needed a change of pace.
When her former love found out he became a vampire and now lives by the vampiric ways. She found this out one night when he appeared at her house. She was alone at the time and they stood there and spoke. She tried to read his eyes and was scared of what she had found. His eyes had become ice cold and emotionless, for he felt nothing towards her. She was so upset that she wrapped her arms around him. He told her that if she whished she could bite his neck so she did. He then turned and left her standing there, the last thing he said that night was that she was now his queen.
She carried on with her life the next day waking later then she normally did and was still tired and felt strangely weak. What had happened the night before was stuck in her mind. She felt alone in the world and wanted for everything to go away. She felt like no matter what she did she would never find true happiness ever again. Then she began to question if she was truly ever happy or in love. Her emotions enjoyed playing tricks on her. She fell asleep and found it difficult to fall asleep peacefully. She felt wide awake even though the lights where out and her eyes where open. Her mind was racing again like it did the night before.
The early morning came and she was still was awake and felt like she wasn’t going to be able to move. She closed her eyes finally and drifted to sleep.
She woke up the next night in time to see the sun set. She looked around and her first love was standing in her door way. He asked her if she had a nice sleep. She turned from him and asked him what he did to her. He told her that she was his queen and that he did nothing but let her bite him. She turned to face him and felt thirsty suddenly. She wasn’t thirsty for water or any other drink, she was thirsty for blood. She followed him and watched him feed off of people’s energy. She didn’t feel like that would satisfy her so she walked into a dark alley where she saw a dark stranger. It turned out to be the young man she had chosen to date. She walked over to him and kissed his neck gently before sinking her teeth into his throat and tasting his blood. This satisfied her thirst finally. She drained him of all of his blood.
She didn’t notice she had killed him until she looked down and saw his pale dead face and felt his body go completely limp in her arms. What have I done was all she could think of. Why does this have to happen to me, she thought. She felt someone behind her and turned around. Her first love was standing there smiling. He told her then that if he couldn’t have her then no one could. He then grabbed her and bit her neck taking some of her blood. He told her that they had to now protect each other and that they where now also blood bonded to each other and if he dies then she dies and vice versa.
They then left the alley and to this day they live together hunting by night, living in the darkness never to be seen by their families ever again. This is the end of this tale so don’t play around with someone’s heart because they may turn on you and make it so you can only love them.
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Posted: Thu Jul 10, 2008 8:45 pm
How long is forever...
Is it just until you die
Or does it go beyond that
I promise to write forever
Until the words stop flowing
Or the world comes to an end
Dieing... Does it hurt
Or does it
Liberate your soul
Is that the only time
You are truly free
Or are you forever trapped
Forever in eternity...
What exactly does this mean
And how long is it
Nana, I will see you again
I miss you...
Your once tight family
Has fallen to pieces
I will keep my promise to you
Even if it costs me my life
I wont break this promise to you.
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Posted: Fri Jul 11, 2008 10:15 am
Remember
Remember all of the good times,
Remember all the bad times,
Remember all of the times,
We laughed,
Cried and sang together,
Remember the happiness,
And all of the sadness,
Throughout the years.
Most of all though,
Remember who we are,
And those who have died,
Remember your goals in life,
And cherish everything,
You are forever in our hearts,
Even if you are not there,
Never forget these words,
Keep them in mind,
And in heart,
Always remember,
We loved you,
And still love you.
Remember to be strong,
It is okay to cry,
We all feel the same way.
We will miss you dearly,
And we will never forget,
Your big heart,
What you have told us,
How much you cared,
And how you treated us.
Mostly we will never,
Forget what you have told us,
I will forever miss you,
Cause you inspired me to write,
Even when I am upset,
For this I will never forget,
You and what you have told me.
This is how I say goodbye,
And how much the family,
Will miss you.
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 11:25 am
These Tears
Why do these tears come,
On a night where sleep comes so rare,
Why do tears stream from my eyes,
When there is nothing to cry about,
Is it due to my parting with my family,
Is it due to being three years since she died,
Could it also be my failures?
I haven't a clue but to me they feel like tears of,
Emptiness, loneliness, depression,
They stream for no reason,
They don't seem to cease,
Why is sleep evading me,
Why do these tears come,
Do they come for all things lost,
Or for things left undone,
Do they come for all the evil in this world,
Or for long lost dreams,
They don't want to let me rest,
For rest comes to those of eased minds and hearts,
My heart feels heavy,
How much longer will this weight bare down on me?
Please let me sleep,
Please let me go,
Please don't try to follow me,
For the places I go are not welcome for you to enter.
My mind is a maze,
I have three guards,
They protect my heart,
But are they really protecting me?
Are they really there at all,
Are they letting the long lost hopes spill over,
Making me emotionally unstable,
Please just let me go,
I do not belong to this world,
Nor will I ever.
So my tears will never cease to flow,
They come from fear of the unknown,
They come from long lost dreams,
They come because of failure...
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 11:27 am
Can't
I can't sleep,
I can't stop thinking,
About you and me,
And what we can become.
I can't stop imagining,
What I would do,
If I ever lost you.
I can't stop caring,
About my friends,
And you.
I can't help but miss,
Seeing you every day.
I can't help it if I,
Miss my best friend,
But he is gone,
You have stolen my heart from him,
And made it your own.
You can't have my heart,
All to yourself forever.
my heart belongs to,
You, my pets and family who are not alive,
And my friends.
You can't have,
Me all of the time.
You can't show,
Me what it is like to be angry.
You can't get me angry,
Or upset enough to leave you,
You have made me,
Feel; see and taste,
What true love is like.
You and I can't do everything,
We want to do.
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 11:28 am
Birds
Singing through the trees
Eating the fallen seeds
The morning birds softly awaken
On a morning that is filled with sorrow
To the death of a close one
Someone who didn’t care about how long she lived
But cared about if her family was around
She died surrounded by family
Comforted and loved
Her spirit can rest for eternity now
And return to her long lost love
For the times did get rough
But she was there to help move things along
We will miss her dearly
And always remember her smiles
So remember the birds singing
Their lovely song
On a morning of deep sorrow
For all to come
The birds she loved
They where her favorite animals
I wonder why they where though
Is it because they are so free
And now she is free to fly by their sides
Who will ever know
Because it could be because of their beautiful songs
The night comes and the birds sleep
The owls and night predators are awakened
They move so silently
But the owl every once in a while
Hoots its mournful song.
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 11:29 am
This was written my junior year in high school... Confusion
I see myself,
In between three guys,
One is my best friend,
One is a freshman,
And the last is my boyfriend.
My best friend,
I am confused about,
Should I tell him that,
If I ever give up on my boyfriend,
That he would have a chance,
Or tell him that I want to,
Only be friends with him?
The freshman,
Has me more confused,
He told me that,
He doesn't like me,
Because I have a boyfriend.
My boyfriend,
I love him so much,
Yet can't fully be in love with him,
Until I settle this confusion.
I don't want to leave him,
I want to fully love him,
I want this confusion to be gone.
But it stays,
And that just sucks.
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 11:30 am
Bottled Up
I keep my anger inside,
Till it feels like I'm about to split,
Everyone around me knows,
That my feelings are hard for me to let show,
I wish I didn't keep my:
Sadness bottled up,
Happiness bottled up,
Anger bottled up,
I try to show that,
I have control.
But when anger hits anger,
I lose my self control,
I let my feelings show,
I let my fighting spirit surface.
I change for the worst,
Or do I change for the best?
This I wish to know,
Because I hate to,
Keep myself all bottled up inside.
Why this is,
I do not know.
Who am I to allow this to happen,
I do not know.
Why do I,
Bottle all of my feelings up?
I do not know.
When anger hits anger,
Why do I snap?
Why do I yell?
Why do I fight?
All of these I do not know,
But wish I did.
I keep my,
Anger,
Sadness,
Depression,
Happiness,
All bottled up inside,
And I don't know why.
All I do know is,
You don't want to get on my bad side,
You will almost never see me cry,
You will never see me depressed,
And you will never see me truly happy.
I don't know why I chose this way of life,
But I did,
And now it will never change.
I wish I were my old self at times,
And I wish I told my best friend how I felt,
Before he moved,
But now I have myself,
And maybe that is who I am with for the rest of my life,
Lonely,
Angry,
Sad,
The person I have become,
Is a lonely, feelings stay bottled up, girl.
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 11:32 am
Change
Never try to change me
For it will never work
I changed once before
For a man I thought I loved
Now I do not love him
He changed me for the worst
My friends noticed the change
I hadn’t noticed it until now
My world seems to want to crash
But is being put back together
As I return to being my true self
The relaxed and calm me
The side no one has seen for a very long time
A side of me that I even missed
A world of quiet and calm
With the sparks of anger when provoked
A me that didn’t care what people think
This is the change I am going through
And it will be the last I ever go through
The pieces of the world
Are falling nicely into place once more
The calm peace I once had
Is returning to my side finally
The rest and quiet that my spirit has longed for so long
Is finally returning to me
The world, spirit’s, minds and bodies
Are all becoming nicely one
Everything feels correctly in balance once more
And it had best stay that way
I will not change for anyone ever again
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 11:34 am
Written after I was in a slight crash in February of 2007. Hajima was the one driving the car. Crash
Leave the house,
Getting into his car,
We head out to Walmart
All is fine,
It is hailing outside,
But we don’t worry.
We get to Walmart,
The trip had no problems,
We buy some things and leave,
Heading home wasn’t that great,
The car starts to fish tail,
He thinks he can regain control,
The car swerves until
It hit’s the guard rail
I screamed and closed my eyes
When I saw it coming at us
He veered some so the damage to the car
Wasn’t too bad,
I felt myself during the impact hit the door,
My shoulder and right leg in pain,
He got out to check the damage,
I stretched out my leg,
In the end I got away with three bruises,
The car needs work before it can be driven again,
He got away with worrying about me,
We reach home shaking like crazy,
Barely able to eat,
We were that shaky,
It is painful to walk up stairs with my bruises,
I feel like a failure,
But am I really?
We did survive,
But I can’t stop thinking,
What if…
The guardrail wasn’t there…
The car went through the rail…
Where would he and I be?
It scares me to think,
How close to death we were.
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 11:35 am
Crazy World
What crazy world is this
When one’s own heart can’t be trusted
Why is my heart so fickle
To chose two at once
This doesn’t make sense
I love one and forever will
The other is just a thing that is now
The other I think wont be forever
But how can I trust my heart
My overly fickle and unreasonably heart
My body says one
But my soul calls to the other
Why must this be
Why can’t I just be me?
Why is this so difficult
I need to hide one side of me
But how will I know which side to hide
This world is crazy
My heart is splitting
My world is collapsing
I want to run
I want to hide
I want this to settle
But I know it wont
Both desire me
But only one can have me in the end
I don’t know who that will be in the end.
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 11:36 am
Darkness
The darkness within thy heart,
Threatens to tear one apart.
Anger and pain make me mad,
While loneliness and death make me sad.
Whatever in my heart once light,
Is now far from sight.
Loneliness And pain make me cry,
As love and happiness make me sigh.
My dreams will never be real,
And this is how I feel.
My heart is dark,
And my soul has a mark.
Little light shows,
And the darkness only grows.
No one cares,
As long as they live in dares.
It is ok to cry,
Even at times I wish to die.
So leave me be,
Let me be me.
As I sigh,
With my last breath I say goodbye.
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 11:37 am
Death
Do you know what every one fears?
I do its death.
Do you know why?
I do, it is the end of your life.
Why is it hard to commit suicide?
You don't want to feel the pain,
Yet, you are too afraid to.
Dieing probably hurts any ways,
It hurts your friends and family,
It hurts the one you love,
It hurts yourself.
Therefore, I ask again, why is everyone afraid of death?
When you're young,
It hurts to leave loved ones,
When old,
It hurts those, friends and family, still alive.
Like I said,
It hurts your friends, family, the one you love, and yourself.
What good comes from it?
I haven't the slightest idea.
All I know is a loved one dies,
It hurts,
And the hurt will never leaver.
This I do know,
Having experienced the loss of many loved ones.
Everyday I carry the pain,
I think of death a lot.
Those who have died,
And those who would be hurt if I died.
I never want them to go through,
What I went through.
I don't want them to feel the pain,
I don't want them to be hurt,
This is what keeps me alive,
Is knowing the pain,
That follows death,
Of a loved one.
I wish nobody had to feel that,
Awful hurt and pain,
I wish to live in this world,
For a long time.
What is death really?
No one knows except those who have died.
Will anyone ever know what comes after death?
Or will it be a mystery forever?
Will anyone find a way to stop ageing?
To stop death,
To clear it from our minds,
To keep us from it,
No one knows.
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 11:38 am
Water Spirit
Water wistfully washes water lilies,
Showers have the power to destroy the flower.
A wave can save,
And also misbehave.
Water may give us life,
But it takes lives too,
It is a force to be reckoned with.
Spirit Guides
My cousin the wolf,
My friend the fox,
You both guide me thru life,
And death.
You are there when I need you,
And even when I don't.
I thank you for this,
Even if I don't show it.
My Favorite Saying
Don't give in,
Never give up,
And you will be anything,
You want to be.
But if you give up,
It would be like giving up part of your soul.
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