I believe all of you should know what has been happening in my life...Why I couldn't get on...And why I didn't reply in the guild{s}. What I am about to tell you all, I hope you all can forgive me dearly, and comment or say everything you wish to me here...I believe that even we're over the computer, I consider you all a sort of family..And as a family, I believe we shouldn't have to hide anything.
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As you know, or most of you, to all of you all I'm mostly known as Winter...Others, Raven. Whatever you know me as, the REAL me isn't as beautiful or unique as my characters that I create. I don't wish to go into detail about HOW I got started with what I'm about to tell you, but I will give some reason so you all have some understanding.
Because back in Middle School something didn't go how I planned, I became addicted to Drugs...For four years, my life has rotated around the traditional rock phrase
'Sex, Drugs, and Rock N Roll'
Literally....I'm not a slut, don't worry, I've stayed with the guy and it was only a few months ago...The rock, well, the Rock is what saved my life...And the Drugs...I've been addicted to drugs...
When My computer crashed months ago as well, my addiction became worse...I began popping pills as if they were candy...Eight-teen pills in under five minutes, sometimes five times a day..Mixing Advil, Ibuprofen, Talynol {sp?}, Amoxxiccilion {sp?}, and others. How I didn't end up on my death bed, its a miracle, especially with my heart conditions.
For years I've never known how to sleep, only pass out...And since the addiction had been getting worse with no computer, I couldn't function with typing or focusing to even reply to anything when I did get a computer that worked while mine was down.
It was getting bad...And it was either now or never..If I didn't stop, I wouldn't be here....
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All-in-all, I started to quit...Its been 15 days now since I've even taken anything, and my body is going into a major withdrawl...I don't know If I have stomach bleeding, I don't know how bad everything is screwed up...And I'm just now learning how to sleep...
I want you all to forgive me...This is actually the first time I've typed WITHOUT being on anything...And.....I'm sorry...The Winter you knew and the Winter now may be different...
If I snap, I'm sorry. If I can't reply as good as I used too, I'm sorry...I'm getting used to everything..And I didn't want to keep anything from you guys...
I screwed up my life, and I'm trying to make things right again....And I believe it should start by apologizing to the people whom I talk to whenever I can....You all....
♥
I'm Sorry....
♥
As you know, or most of you, to all of you all I'm mostly known as Winter...Others, Raven. Whatever you know me as, the REAL me isn't as beautiful or unique as my characters that I create. I don't wish to go into detail about HOW I got started with what I'm about to tell you, but I will give some reason so you all have some understanding.
Because back in Middle School something didn't go how I planned, I became addicted to Drugs...For four years, my life has rotated around the traditional rock phrase
'Sex, Drugs, and Rock N Roll'
Literally....I'm not a slut, don't worry, I've stayed with the guy and it was only a few months ago...The rock, well, the Rock is what saved my life...And the Drugs...I've been addicted to drugs...
When My computer crashed months ago as well, my addiction became worse...I began popping pills as if they were candy...Eight-teen pills in under five minutes, sometimes five times a day..Mixing Advil, Ibuprofen, Talynol {sp?}, Amoxxiccilion {sp?}, and others. How I didn't end up on my death bed, its a miracle, especially with my heart conditions.
For years I've never known how to sleep, only pass out...And since the addiction had been getting worse with no computer, I couldn't function with typing or focusing to even reply to anything when I did get a computer that worked while mine was down.
It was getting bad...And it was either now or never..If I didn't stop, I wouldn't be here....
♥
All-in-all, I started to quit...Its been 15 days now since I've even taken anything, and my body is going into a major withdrawl...I don't know If I have stomach bleeding, I don't know how bad everything is screwed up...And I'm just now learning how to sleep...
I want you all to forgive me...This is actually the first time I've typed WITHOUT being on anything...And.....I'm sorry...The Winter you knew and the Winter now may be different...
If I snap, I'm sorry. If I can't reply as good as I used too, I'm sorry...I'm getting used to everything..And I didn't want to keep anything from you guys...
I screwed up my life, and I'm trying to make things right again....And I believe it should start by apologizing to the people whom I talk to whenever I can....You all....
♥
I'm Sorry....
