I'm very, VERY sorry for being gone for so long without posting. It's really hard for me to tell you all this, but I know I should explain. Please read this.
A few months ago, I was diagnosed with a terminal cancer. I really don't like talking about it, because it's really really scary, but it's only fair for me to let you know about this--after all, you guys are my friends. (Unfortunately, basically my only friends...but you still mean a lot to me!!) I don't know how long I've got left, and Jesus Christ, I'm only 15. Supposedly, it's anywhere from a month to several years. I've already lasted more than a month, so hopefully it'll be longer than that, but I really don't know.
In any case, it's really screwed up my life, and I've been thinking a lot and trying to get out and do things, because this is kinda the last chance I'll get. My family's ******** up because of this, even more than it already was. You guys don't know HOW scary it is to know you're gonna die. I've spent a lot of time thinking about whether it's better to just kill myself to get it over with, but I can't do that. I want to live for as long as possible. I don't want to give up what I have left.
I'm shaking as I write this, and I can only hope you guys will read it and understand. I want to keep managing this guild and RPing with you all, cause it's really fun. But I don't know how long I'll be able to keep doing it, or how often. Let's hope it's a long time. But anyways, I just really wanted you guys to know this...thanks so much for reading, and I hope you'll understand.
A few months ago, I was diagnosed with a terminal cancer. I really don't like talking about it, because it's really really scary, but it's only fair for me to let you know about this--after all, you guys are my friends. (Unfortunately, basically my only friends...but you still mean a lot to me!!) I don't know how long I've got left, and Jesus Christ, I'm only 15. Supposedly, it's anywhere from a month to several years. I've already lasted more than a month, so hopefully it'll be longer than that, but I really don't know.
In any case, it's really screwed up my life, and I've been thinking a lot and trying to get out and do things, because this is kinda the last chance I'll get. My family's ******** up because of this, even more than it already was. You guys don't know HOW scary it is to know you're gonna die. I've spent a lot of time thinking about whether it's better to just kill myself to get it over with, but I can't do that. I want to live for as long as possible. I don't want to give up what I have left.
I'm shaking as I write this, and I can only hope you guys will read it and understand. I want to keep managing this guild and RPing with you all, cause it's really fun. But I don't know how long I'll be able to keep doing it, or how often. Let's hope it's a long time. But anyways, I just really wanted you guys to know this...thanks so much for reading, and I hope you'll understand.
