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Gatorade vomit sounds delicious. gonk

Etooo...I have nothing to rant about. xd

-loves your strange ways- 8D

Wait...how did it eat your underwear? I know you said not to ask, but that just makes me want to know even more. xd And what disturbing things have you seen? o 3o;; I can probably top it. xD

YAHZ I HAVE GOTZ THE 1000th POST OF THE GUILD! ALL BOW!!! WAHAHAHAHAHA


Dear Guild Members,

A great calamity has befallen me. Somehow, I managed to catch the flu this week. At first, I thought my constant sneezing was due to my allergies( I have hayfever... baaad). However, that speculation was quickly wiped out of my mind when I started to cough yesterday. It's funny how one little cough can forshadow weeks of incessant lung hacking and impaired breathing abilities. What's worse is that I've always been weak when it comes to coughs. I must say, more than the sneezing, the fevers, and the ability to do just about absolutely nothing, I absolutely detest coughing. I hate being sick.




Sincerely,

Anurila


*goes off to sulk in corner all the while coughing out blood*

I wanna go to your MacDonalds... and then flip the "m" upside down, and BOMB it. biggrin

REAL WORLD HISTERRIER, BETCH!

I hate, hate, hate, hate, HATE when people come up to me and are all "WTH are you EATING?!" or "That looks disgusting!" in my face. Excuse me. I'm Asian. I LIKE Calpico, Supau, Pocky, Wu Xian Do Gan(I couldn't get my computer to write chinese, so bear with me), Dried Fish/Squid, Onigiri, Rice Noodles, Lo Mien, Odon and Soba. I DON'T like pizzas, hamburgers, or all that greasy stuff you Americans like to shove your face with. If you don't like that I have different tastes, take that complaint, shove it up your a**, cough it up, then repeat until you finally get it thorugh your thick as hell HEADS that people DON'T ALWAYS EAT THE SAME THING AS YOU DO, JACKWADS. People are DIFFERENT. Foods are DIFFERENT. Tastes are DIFFERENT. What I might think is good, you might think is disgusting. What YOU think is good, I might detest. But at least I'm nice enough NOT to SAY anything!!


Rant over. Sorry if you like Pizzas and 'Burgers. I personally don't like them. D:

-waves a bag of chips in your face-

Want it? -pulls it away- Too bad. Mine. >:3

I shall insert mai rant nao :3

Today was my friend's Birthday. So when she came to school, we showered her with the regular "OMFG HAPPY B-DAY! YEAH! VOOT! WTF! FTW! MEOW!" But she seemed really bland about it. Then when we asked her what she's doing for her birthday with her family, she said "Uh? Oh, I'm going to Red Lobster..." but in a solid, monotonous voice. Then when we were doing Cologuard at the end of the day, I took a peek at her arm, and found she's been cutting herself AGAIN.

I found out during Homecoming when we were alone and she was crying and spilling her guts out to me because my cousin rejected her. She said she used to cut, but she doesn't anymore. So, I believed her because I TRUSTED her. Then during this one assembly, I found out she was doing it again. I grabbed her wrist and she just covered it with a smile. I got pissed and ignored her the rest of the day. I didn't do that today because it was her birthday and I finally got the idea that if I pushed her away, she'd do it more.

What I don't understand is WHY she does it. She has her friends, sure her family isn't so great, as I know, but MINE isn't the best in the universe either, and you don't see me slicin' up my wrists. I HATE when people, like my friend, just cut when they have nothing to be depressed about. She's pretty, I'm not. But that doesn't make any difference to how I act and feel around others. I'm not as smart, she's one of the top of the class and that doesn't bother me because I know I try. We both are somewhat looked over and looked down upon in our families but that doesn't stop me from enjoying their company and, when I'm mad at them, the company of others.

I know so many people think differently then me and I'm sorry if you cut or used to and are slightly offended by what I'm going to say next but...I think cutting is the stupidest thing someone can do to "try and make themselves feel better". I think that people should live their life, without having to resort to pain when they feel the need to. I think people who cut need attention. They need someone to talk to them, to stop them because it's stupid. Not all cutters are like that, I know. Alot are cutting because they're abused, mentally unstable, or other things but in times like those, you need to be there to help them. Give them medical attention if need be. But stupid, idiotic people who cut JUST because they think their "life sucks" is stupid. Or people who cut because "it's cool" is stupid. At my school, cutting is a pretty big thing. Only because they think it's a thing they can do to find solace. But I don't...I believe finding peace isn't in bringing pain to yourself...but sharing your present pain with other's. Opening up, making friends, sharing things with people you can trust.

I'll end this here. There's so much I'd love to say and add to this little okay...not so little rant of mine, but I'm running out of time on the computer, so bu-bye~for now...


kufufu~

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OMG, scarlett, I feel the SAME WAY. But y'know what? I'm NOT sorry if people are offended that I feel that way. Why the hell would you want to mutilate yourself? Is it some sort of punishment? What is there to punish yourself for? It's not like you did anything...or maybe that's why? My friend's CONSTANTLY brag that they're so emo and stuff, and I'm like, "I'm the happiest damn thing that ever entered your life. Shut the ******** up and get over it." It's like they want attention, but they don't want to be like the preps they so despise in their way of getting attention...then again...I'm on anti-depressants, so...I'm not one to talk am I? Heehee...actually, they're ADD pills that pretty much act like anti-depressants, provided the right amount of sleep, which I won't be getting tonight. It's 11:30 now (as I edit this post) and I have to wake up at 4. xd Ah, well...I don't mind it too much. n__n;;

Another thing that burns my biscuits: emo people who hate preps. Let me say something now: I'm pretty preppy myself on the inside. I'm all for fashion and being happy and living life, as most preps do. HOWEVER, I'm not a b***h like some of them. ((Not to people's faces anyway...only when they're about a mile away. e we)) The select few preps that are mean make the whole lot of them mean. My view on the matter is this: we overlook people every day. I can honestly say that when I walk through the halls I don't remember the people that just pass me by. I DO remember the ones that are mean to me. Because of that, I think I can say for sure that's why I thought ALL preps were bitches: most of the ones I encountered were that way. But what about those off in the sidelines that I didn't run into? Anyway, I digress. Now, seeing that I look like an emo, I attract emo people as friends. ((Except mine are so cool they pluck their eyelashes out. confused Ooh...and one of them is convinced that she's telekinetic. I don't believe it for a SECOND. I'm tempted to tell her that I'm pyrokinetic and to go look it up. Pyrokinesis=the ability to raise the temperature of atoms in the atmosphere, sometimes to the point of ignition. Just in case you guys didn't know or didn't want to look it up. 3nodding Thank you, Parasite Eve, for being the most interesting game I've played in my life...I heard of pyrokinesis through there and just remembered it when I was looking for the type of telekinesis she mentioned. I'm gonna try to schmooze a story that involves me setting s**t on fire because I was so pissed off. She'd probably believe it. She might ask me to do something right there, but I'd tell her that I'd have to be SERIOUSLY pissed, and it takes a LOT to do that. I'm so mean~ <33)) ALL OF THEM ARE MEAN. Except for one. The rest are horrible! There's this other guy that I like--name's David, sweet kid--and NO ONE LIKES HIM. So naturally, I'm nice to him. Is it wrong to be nice to people out of pity? Maybe, but usually when I do that, I end up liking the person for who they are anyway, which is the case now. Anyway, while I'm being nice, my little introverted friends show their true colors and call him ugly and gay and blah blah blah. God I want to yell at them SO BAD but CAN'T. I'm not good at making friends and like to keep what I have...it hasn't been so bad lately, but it's starting to get to that point again...And here on Gaia, too. Another girl that I used to like I discovered was a WHORRRE~ personality-wise. ((I couldn't give two shits if you're promiscuous or not, honestly. Just don't spread anything to me and I'll be fine.)) In a three-way chat between her boyfriend and me, she posted a link to a picture of this girl. Not the best looking of girls, mind you; very oily skin, little bit of acne, oddly shaped nose, squinty eyes, and a bit overweight. She's like "xDDDD". And I'm like, "what?" And she goes "fattyyyyyyy." That was so uncalled for. People that are overweight have feelings too, Ms. Perfect. I'M overweight. Then when I asked why she didn't like fat people, she says that they're the scum of America. WHAT? At least we have emotions and act like human beings. So, let's look at that again: WHO'S the scum of America, now, b***h? It's like fat is just this outter shell no one can see through. It's not fair. Some of us have trouble getting the weight off, even with exercise. I have to take metabolism pills every day to help with mine. If I didn't have those, I'd diet and exercise so much that I'd lose 10 pounds in the amount of time it'd take for someone to lose 30. It's pretty bad. ((Thyroid problems run in my family.)) Admittedly, that's still no excuse; my indolence is to blame for my obesity, tbh. Still...you shouldn't be mean to overweight people...they can be nice too...((Although I've met my share of fatties that I wanted to kill.)) It's a major blow to one's self esteem.

And today I discovered how low my self-esteem was. e we Like it just hit me. I'm convinced that no one wants to be my friend unless there's something emotionally or mentally wrong with them. xd Since I hang around the slower kids and help them out a lot ((I love them! They're so sweet! <333)), I think I can pick out when something's wrong with someone easier. Usually, my hunches are right, but now I'm starting to get these hunches that are like, "I think there's something mentally wrong with you." There's one that I'm 90% sure there is; her name's Chelsea, the nice emo from before. Seriously, all she talks about is herself all the time. She has to be a hypochondriac. She says she got dehydrated at a concert. I'm not gonna jump the gun on anything, but is it even possible to become dehydrated within a five hour period? Or however long concerts are...She missed school after the concert because she was dehydrated. I'm like BULLSHIT. THERE'S NO F'KIN' WAY. She comes to school the day after though, and she looks fine. I don't think you'd recover from something that serious that quickly. Just like you can't get minor cases of ********' food poisioning. ((What idiot said that, you ask? Chelsea, of course!)) And then she lies to make herself seem great. She told me her father wrote "Love me Tender" ((by Elvis Presley)) for her...okay. I believed that when I was in 6th grade, but don't pull that on me now.

...Now I feel like a hypocrite. I'm such a bad person. ; 3; So two faced...I should be a gemini. Sigh...-snuggles with her pillow- I just needed to get that off my chest...Pardon the long rant. I don't use journals and never get stuff off my chest. e we;;;

ONE LAST THING TO RANT ABOUT:

WHY DON'T I GET TO SEE NEURO'S ********' BARE CHEST? I SEE TSUKUSHI'S CHEST, I SEE DAVID RICE'S CHEST, BUT I DON'T SEE NEURO'S. NEURO IS THE MAIN CHARACTER, AMIRITE? YEAH. I NEED NEURO-CHEST. D: Nothing else on a man is attractive. ; 3; Besides their arms and face of course. <333 And being hairless. >:3 ((Mm, bald men. <3 -pets Rude from FFVII, specifically the Advent Children version of him-))

-drop kicks Yako's post-

Fetch. biggrin

... you DO realize I'm STILL mad at you for putting that autistic-looking (no offensive to anyone) Higuchi icon up in the bump thread. D:

-sniffles- ... I LOVE Higuchi...

WHICH BRING ME TO MY RANT.

I desppppiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiise people who are all "Narutarded" and are all "Lyk, 0mfg, B1tch, 1'm S4suk3's Wife3, lyk, LoL!!!1111!!11oneoneone!11"

... that wasn't the rant... my rant is more of an entry in a diary... xD LAWLS >:3


but yeah. As I enter in this sentence at 11:26, no 11:27 PM on Tuesday, May 13, 2008, I hear thunder rolling in the distance. My eyelids feel heavy from the weight of a whole semester project being piled into a bite-sized, two day done-at-the-last-minute project on them. But, I must remain awake and finish this horrendous ordeal, else wise my a** will get beat by my insane language arts teacher whom I love so much, but doesn't share the same love of flying pigs and cactuses (cactusi?) with me. The low hum of the speakers keep me barely awake as I type this, fingers aching from the pain of the five page essay I worked not-so-very-hard on, but I must go on and provide a rant, or at least a story for my fellow guild members, who depend oh so deeply in my providing of entertainment. Thunder again, this time father away. Is the storm moving? Oh dear, it's louder now. Maybe my ears are becoming obsolete. I just knocked over my gluestick. Oh well. I'll leave it there. Probably will trip over it in the morning, but I'm used to it by now. Gluesticks hate me. My printer is gathering dust, the bright green "power" light gazing longingly in my direction. I shrug it off. It'll still be another hour or so before I finish my project. Edgar Allan Poe. How can someone who writes such beautiful poems bring me so much pain? Oh. Right. Project. Curse you, Poe. Is this revenge for using your book as a footrest? I'm sorry.