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 Posted: Tue Apr 22, 2008 5:55 pm
Samantha stood outside, this almost lifeless street as machines rode along it's concrete roads and the smell of petroleum filled the air. Her soul wasn't shining as brightly...Her aura deepened to a light baby blue and her eyes were completely empty. "I live in such a world of lies and betrayal...Yet I'm just as bad as the blackened souls who roam these streets. Still I hear the faint echo of who and what I once was before I became the monster I am today.." The nightmare that tortured her as a child was exactly this...Looking at herself now she was the exact women from the nightmares, a cruel, empty women who showed no sign of a soul through her eyes. Yet somehow they said she was pure...
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Posted: Tue Apr 22, 2008 7:19 pm
Giles walked up to the store front slowly, he looked tired and strangely old. "Hello Samantha." he said slowly.
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Fred Burkle-Super Genius Crew
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Posted: Wed Apr 23, 2008 3:16 pm
"What shall we start with first Giles? Spike, That slayer slut, the ruined life I lived, the fact that I learned so few spells in the last 10 years? I'll let you choose, I can say something about every one of them...I leave for a year in collage, you think I want to stay in that god damned town my whole life? No...I would have left at 18 anyways with you or without you I wanted out since the day we got there...." She had been sitting on a bench where she stayed through her words. She kept her eyes on a child and a mother who were sitting in a cake shop.
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Posted: Wed Apr 23, 2008 3:58 pm
"I'd like to start by apologizing for the deception, by the time I knew about it the phone was already in my hand." Giles sighed heavily. "I'm not surprised you want out of Sunnydale, I know it hasn't been a good place to grow up, I'm sorry for that. However calling Buffy a slut is uncalled for, you were raised with more manners that that. I'm disappointed in you Sam, however I am more disappointed in myself."
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Fred Burkle-Super Genius Crew
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Posted: Wed Apr 23, 2008 4:22 pm
"Yes I was raised to be a young lady." She curtsied and said it sarcastically. "I am a young lady, but even I know where people draw the line." She looked over at him now standing her eyes showed absolutely no emotion what so ever....She was like a blank canvas at this moment, and for each word he said she could either paint a master piece of joy and love...or a dark painting of despair and tragedy. "Disappointed....In me? Please! I did what anyone would have done and the fact that you took me straight to the hell mouth for me to grow up is just an idiotic move! That wasn't a bad place that was actual living hell, and you took an 8 year old girl there! What kind of parent is that much of a fool to take them to the entrance of hell?"
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Posted: Wed Apr 23, 2008 4:51 pm
"One whose responsibilities extend far beyond just his family. You know that. The world comes first... no matter how often I wished I could be a normal father to you, I had responsibilities that out weighed any of my desires. I thought you understood what that meant... I was wrong." Giles looked so very very tired. A shell of his normal confidant self.
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Fred Burkle-Super Genius Crew
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Posted: Wed Apr 23, 2008 4:57 pm
"Oh so obviously because you couldn't get a normal job I had to suffer as well?" She shook her head. "Thats absolutely not fair. If I wanted to suffer I'd go to one of those boarding schools where they hit you every time drop your posture." She looked at him directly. "You were the one making the sacrifice...Yet I'm the only one who really suffers here...I suffered for 10 years without complaints and now I'm fed up with being quiet. You sacrificed your life along with mine for her and I want mine back...I'm tired of not being able to do anything normally...Having to wait months after my birthday till things get quiet and I can have a party...Having to miss events at school that you were supposed to show up at and I ended up going with a friends parent..."
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Posted: Wed Apr 23, 2008 5:49 pm
"I'm so sorry Samantha, I never knew just how badly I failed you until today. I raised a selfish child with no heart." A single tear rolled down his cheek. "I'm sure you'll do fine in L.A." He turned to walk back to his car. His heart shattered into a million pieces.
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Fred Burkle-Super Genius Crew
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Posted: Wed Apr 23, 2008 6:45 pm
The girl chased after him sitting in the passengers seat with the door open so he couldn't go anywhere. "You didn't raise a selfish child I've given up so much in my life for her and everyone of my friends but the fact is even the most giving want something in return for once. I give my life everyday for those around me even those I don't know. You don't even know how many times I've almost died or had things happen to me. I'm not the selfish one...A selfish girl would have gone to Wolfram & Hart to get her killed. Yes now I have an evil law firm full of assassins who want to have me sell my soul to them. Yet I'm to good of a person for that. I couldn't kill anyone, even having someone else do it I could never do." She was so angry and upset. "You say I'm a failure but you know what I may be a failure but that's probably because you don't even look at me! This is the first time in a month we're even awake at the same time! Your more like a dad to Buffy then to me now how am I supposed to feel?" She had to try to make him understand why she even felt this way. "Tell me that Giles put yourself in this position. Your a 7 year old who is discarded from your family and are taken in by a single male. Your dragged across the world and back until your finally sent to a living hell. You are forced to hid in a room and stay there until late at night when your guardian gets home. You get few happy moments with this parent as he's always away and you don't know why, you feel so lost and think it's your fault. So as you grow older you start to find out why and you start to learn a new feeling...Loneliness, like the quiet house as you cook for yourself and the almost invisible man. Despair, when you find out he didn't trust you enough to tell you the actual truth and decided to keep you away from things a girl not even close to your personality or IQ level failed at. Betrayal, like when he forgets about the father daughter dance he promised to go to after missing your birthday 6 years in a row. Darkness, like what your soul should have become a long time ago...So you finally get old enough that you finally find out how love truly feels. But this male happens to be a vampire...yet he seems to really care for you. You trust this parent to make this choice and not judge him by species. But instead he starts yelling at you telling you he doesn't even know how you made that choice. So you look for acceptance elsewhere. You find a friend in LA who accepts your choice and says he's happy for you. So you try to go on without feeling like a complete disgrace to them... But everything you do seems to make you look like a failure to him. He seems to always act as if you did everything wrong." She finally stopped. "Tell me how you feel in that position, if you can't then I'll just have to show you how I felt."
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Posted: Wed Apr 23, 2008 7:03 pm
"I never forgot, any of them, not a birthday, not a dance, not moment." Giles' voice is cold, "If you want to kill me, just do it Samantha. You think your life has been so hard, that I was never there, that I was cruel. Obviously this will never change, because you need that, otherwise your just a spoiled selfish little girl who can't deal with her daddy disapproving of her boyfriend. I took you in, when flesh and blood abandoned you, I kept you as safe as I could, because I knew the world of demon hunting would only aggravate your curse, and a 10 year old girl who already sufferers from nightmares didn't need to know they were real. I gave up every moment of time I had to you, I gave up relationships, hobbies, friends, all because I loved you more. I left Sunnydale, where Drusilla is back, with nothing but a phone message to Buffy because I believed you could be in danger, that you might need me. But what you need I can't give you. And I won't give you what you want, soulless devotion without thought to the consequences. Perhaps you and Spike truly are perfect for each other." Giles sat, he didn't look at her as he said this, there was no emotion in his voice as he spoke, none, he looked worn out, tired and old. Just a man who knew too much about sacrifice and whose whole life had been left hallow because of it.
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Fred Burkle-Super Genius Crew
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Posted: Thu Apr 24, 2008 12:46 pm
"I'm am in danger...You know how cruel they are, they don't care for anyone. You betray them once they give you leeway but keep you on a tight leash. Betray them twice and your dead...If a child runs away...Then they die...Your not the one going to die now, I am...I'm now a disgrace to the Cromwell family name and the punishment for smearing it is death. They will spare me no mercy." She looked to the side of the car. "I don't care if you disapprove of Spike. I don't want soulless devotion, what I want is atleast one day where you can actually spend a moment instead of Buffy barging through the door and dragging you away again. I never said you couldn't have a life of your own. I just wanted a dad of my own. You treated me well, you were there for a few moments when I needed it most. I'm not spoiled I'm lonely. It's not even like those single parents my friends have, you never stop working."
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Posted: Thu Apr 24, 2008 1:33 pm
"Your a pathetic liar Samantha," there was no sympathy in Giles' voice, "I didn't tell your parents what happened, and I'm not going to, now get out of my car."
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Fred Burkle-Super Genius Crew
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Posted: Thu Apr 24, 2008 2:20 pm
"Yeah well one of us has to tell them and when Mannequin and them go there to find me they'll report it to my parents that you didn't call and we'll both be dead so one of us has to call!" She was just telling how she actually felt and he calls her a liar. "You wanna see a liar look in the mirror! You lie to me every time it's something I need to hear. So what if I'm a complete failure! I'm sick of being your failure I'm not a project dad I have feelings! I need human family interaction every now and then."
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Posted: Thu Apr 24, 2008 3:03 pm
"I'll lie, say your visiting Angel." Giles continued not to look at her. He slipped the key into the ignition. "You lack empathy, dignity, and even the barest sense of right and wrong. You can't understand sacrifices made for the greater good, and think love is selfish. I'm ashamed to have raised you, and I'm ashamed that I still love you as much as I do." He looked at her then meeting eye to eye, there is nothing of the Giles you have known in his face. "Get out of my car." she said ever so slowly as he turned on the ignition, and the car jumped to life.
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Fred Burkle-Super Genius Crew
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Posted: Thu Apr 24, 2008 3:34 pm
"I have an understanding of the situation, I have dignity. I have the intellectual identification with vicarious experiencing of the feelings, thoughts, or attitudes of another, I have empathy. I know what's right and what's wrong, I'm not a moron. I lack common sense, when to keep my mouth shut, and a choice in character such as Mr.McDonald. I lack nothing more." She said still not moving. "I'm still a kid as you keep saying, no matter how much I want to grow up I'll always be a kid. Wither it's that piano playing girl you've always known or the one I am now I'll never know. Ok I don't know what I feel and this isn't helping much to know I'm being abandoned by another dad."
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