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 Posted: Tue Feb 12, 2008 10:30 am
I wanted to wait until someone different happened in my life before making one. Well not much has happened or changed so this will probably be a boring journal but here we go.
Last night I had a dream that I was dancing in the bar with my brother's girlfriend. It was pretty crowded and I got the feeling in the dream that he wasn't there. Anyway, at some point she moved up close to me and wrapped her arms around my neck and looked up at me. I knew what was coming and I started blushing and my heart was beating fast. But when she tip-toed to try to kiss me I turned my head away and pushed her away from me. Then she looked hurt and embarrassed in the dream and I felt really bad but then I woke up.
I feel so dumb because I've always had a crush on her even when her and my brother weren't together so you'd think that I'd at least take advantage of the fact that it was a dream to kiss her. But no... I kept thinking that I can't because of my brother. gonk
That stupid dream makes me feel so awkward when I think about it. emo
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Posted: Thu Feb 14, 2008 7:43 pm
Weird thing happened. My brother's girlfriend broke up with him yesterday. I haven't been there in person but he had emo status messages on his msn all day and I asked our other younger brother what was wrong and he told me that they broke up.
It's crazy but I feel guilty because of the dream I had. I wasn't wishing for something like that to happen. Not like it would make a difference because she's straight. I can't help but feel guilty though. I already felt guilty for even having such a dream about her and now.. Blah. This sucks.
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