I have lived my whole life in this little room.The walls are black and the carpets the same.I have never seen the outside world and probally never will.But I think thats okay...I don't think I would fit in very well.There has only ever been one contact with the outside world.That was when HE came to see me.I miss him deeply.He showed me of what the outside world holds but I still won't go.I am sad to say it but I was to afraid.Even now after he is gone.Now I'm more afraid than before.I think that I might throw up.Just the thought of leaving my room,my sanctuary is devestating.I don't want to go alone.I am scared to go alone.I think I should wait for someone to come for me and reach out there hand to grab mine.To take me away from my room.But they have to be someone I trust and know.I don't want to leave with a total stranger.That would only incrase the fears that I have.That would just make the trip more frightening.Now that I think about it that way I don't even want to leave now.But I now I have to brave.For the memory of him.Also for my existance.I must leave this room,no matter the circomstances.I must be brave.I must be strong.It is a new life that I am soon to see.I don't want them to remember me as the weak one.Nor the fearful one.I must put on the mask that I have worn so many times before.The one that I have created.The one that is my life.The one I go with will be the one who sees through this mask and still comforts me and cherishes me.The one who can save me from my mind and from this life,this existance that I have created through the long years.He will protect me even though I may seem strong,he will be able to see that I am weak.He will be my pride,my safeguard,and my shield.He will not try to harm me in any way.He will protect me with his left arm and hold me with his right.He will be the one to save me when I am trapped in the darkness of my tortured mind.He will be my Guardian and my SAVIOR...