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I'm constantly thinking about My life I'm a deep thinker I guess you would say I try my best to stop but once I start i think about a lot and I think about life In general and emotions start to flow through me here's one I wrote hope you guys Like it

I Walk Alone



I listen to her voice and dream of a better future. She makes me see how life can truly be. So much I've been through so much pain I've faced in my 18 years. It feels like nothing when i hear her i just get lost in her voice. What is it with me? Am I ready for what the future holds? Who is here to protect me from the horrors I'll one day face? Who will be there to shield me from the hurt? I'll someday walk the path by myself No one to save me no one to be there for me like I was for them. I feel empty like I have worked so hard for nothing like all this love I give all this love I show each and everyday won't be returned one day. Instead I'll be pushed aside and all that will remain is my memories of the life I once had. I don't know what happens but I know I'm crushed under the weight of my emotions. everything rushs at me at once and I just can't take it. I'm overwhelmed by the change and I just cry. Theres nothing else I can do. Crying is not going to bring my past back but I just can't help it. I know one day I'm going to get older and wish I was back in this moment with them. I know one day I'm going to wish I could give anything to see her smile again but I know I can't so I just cry another battle I can't win. Life defeats me. I know it seems selfish but I wish life was always easier on me. Life wouldn't treat me as bad. Broken Dreams of happiness thats all thats left. I know one day I won't be able to help anyone else and it hurts me to my soul because I love them. I love her I love myself but I'm oblivious to the fact that I'm destined to fail. All I can do is cherish what I have now because i know I won't have this one day. I might have more I might have less but I won't have this. I won't be able to rewind to this moment this hour this minute where we laugh and we play. One day I will die and the people around me will perish as well. And I fear I will have to watch them die and not be able to save them. I don't want that I don't want to watch them I want to be the first to go so I don't have to live with that heartbreak. I don't want to live on and they're gone if shes gone. I'll have to Walk Alone and that's my greatest fear. Everyone around me perishing and me surviving. If I have to watch her go one day in a hospital I will die inside I can't do it. I can't live on like that I have to go first no matter what. Protect them until I go. I have to make it easier for them. I wouldn't call it it burden. Call it a mission I cannot afford to fail.

Once again I'm glad you liked this piece of work from me conrinue to support my other works and I'll keep em coming