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Posted: Sat Nov 24, 2007 8:48 pm

I wrote this this evening. No, im not depressed. No, im not suicidal. Im just..sad. Why cant i just be sad, and not have something life threatining?

Anyway, I wrote this on my myspace so when i say you, i usually just mean all of the friends i have on there.

I just hope that you read this and can understand what im saying, and maybe even apply it to your own life.

Make an impression on the world my friends, because thats the only way we are remembered.

Well, i just made myself sad. Think about it, i will probably never see most of you people in my life. Ever. I'll forget your names and faces and just continue on like nothings wrong. And you will do the same. Some of us will be doctors or lawyers, and some will be bums or working at mcdonalds. Some will struggle, some will have it easy. Some will be beautiful, some wont. Some will be nice, some will be mean. But we will all forget eachother.
Some of us will outlive our parents and bury them. Some wont. Some of us might have kids, and some will be lonely their whole lives. We might grow old, we might die tomorrow. We have all said hello, but have we truly said goodbye? I dont think so. Has anyone really had the best day of their life? or the worst?

Think back to elementary. Did you all the people you know now? Was anyone diffrent? Is anyone the same? Things have changed alot for my friends, and i've noticed this. Good things like dating, good grades, happy lifestyles. and the bad things like death, rape, and heartbroken goodbyes. Why do we go through with this? We all walk into classes on the first day, and hope to god theres someone we know. And on the last day of school, you leave there hoping that the person you once prayed for to be there, will dissappear. We all have replaced friends, but are we all so disposable? And do we all allow it? I miss my elementary...I miss all my old friends. Everyone is into all their new friends and family, and i feel like im the only one looking back. But in 10 years, i will forget everyone's name and face. And i will walk around like its alright.

I dont want to forget.

I think this song fits my situation: http://youtube.com/watch?v=4N3N1MlvVc4

Posted: Sun Nov 25, 2007 4:58 am

I am not good at making friends, anyone that knows me in real life knows it. I'm shy, insecure, living doormat and I demand a lot from the friends I make. Sometimes too much.

I am currently 23, and there has been a long time since I was in the school. There I had about three people I called friends; one of those people is Lunaticat. The two other I still call my friends and even if we don't hang out much anymore, we still talk in the phone and I am not afraid of them completely dissappearing.

I have been in two different art schools (each one-year-schools), Liminka and Orivesi. I was in Liminka twice, in two different occations, studying comic-drawing twice and studied drama-writing in Orivesi for one year.

The first time I studied in Liminka, for one year, I didn't make any friends. None what so ever. That was not a good year.

After that I went to Orivesi and didn't make any friends there either. That year was even worse.

All I can say about those two years, that both of the schools were nice places and that the certain teachers I had the pleasure of studying under, were absolutely the best.

That is why I gave Liminka another shot, this time bringing Lunie with me. And even though I was sceptical at first, it made all the difference. In my one year in Liminka, I made a bunch of friends.

The one I am personally most fond of and proud, is the one I actually had the courage of approaching myself, all alone (no backing up from Lunie who was unpacking our stuff in the dorms) and in the first day. She even physically looked like a person I would have not approached normally; piercings and dreadlocks, smoking a cig. But I did, and I'm glad, since now I call that person a close friend. And you call her auntie-Swifty.

After my year in Liminka was over, I was really afraid that I'd just forget all these people. Yes, I've distanced from most of them. And there are few that I doubt I'll ever see in person again.

I've been thinking a lot about that. Growing apart from them; most likely, in time. Forgetting them; I thought so, but now I' not so sure anymore. I still remember them clearly, all the little perks and twisted things. Some of the weird sayings live on and are promoted to inside jokes; like Clark's gay-stamp and the phrase "It doesn't make any sense!", screaming while you brush your hair... Many things.

But even though those inside jokes and the people would dissappear, I don't think I'll ever forget them. Just for the reason that if you hurt yourself really badly, maybe even get cripled for a life, you don't forget it. I believe that it's the same thing with good things. Those people have made such a huge impact in me, emotionally, that I cannot forget. They taught me that even though I'm weird, shy, awkward in social events, non-drinker, non-smoker and sometimes stupid and verbally malfunctional, I can still have friends. Good friends.

I'm ranting but what I really wanted to say is that some people don't dissappear. Some people you just don't forget. Even if you never see them again.

And thank you.

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Posted: Tue Nov 27, 2007 4:49 pm

Wow... >.>

Time to say my very short, boring bit.

XD

I'm not afraid of losing my friends. Yes, the thought of never talking to my super-uber best friend Tim [Kira] is sad, but I know that it's not something you should be afraid of. If the connections are lost, don't think of it as a bad thing. Think of it as a new beginning. You have the memories of those who you called friends, maybe even a few pictures. But to be afraid.. You should find new friends.

Maybe you did completely forget your best friend from years past. What does it matter? If you have forgotten, then what is there to worry about? Nothing. Just enjoy your time with the friends you have now. Make memories with them. You can always enjoy time with them, because, if you remember having forgotten that friend, then you will undoubtedly remember the times you spent with them. Don't be afraid to lose the current when you have the next to enjoy.

There. ^^ I feel complete.. not really but.. yeah.

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