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Yeah, I know the feeling. Been on the upswing lately, but things are balanced pretty precariously and I'm struggling to fortify positions and resources before anything crumbles.

Gogo angst thread wink

Well, they are the ones ruling the world and making life miserable for the masses.

^ lolololol.

if you're ever on aim and want to talk or anything, i'm there. i'm almost always depressed about something. s**t sucks. i can't think of what to actually say right now for support, though. hang in there?

I'm probably the biggest emo kid in the whole world. I've had too many shrinks try to fatten me up with their Zoloft and Lexapro and ******** else they can try to feed me. I'm just glad my dad was sensible enough to not send 30bucks+ a moth down the drain. I'm never taking that s**t. I think excercising has helped me out alot, but that doesn't make all of the shitty things in life go away. I guess I just get too much time to think, and then I realize that things are shitty and they start to affect me... so SOMETIMES I try not to think too much. Or just be thankful that you have enough of a brain to realize what's really going on, and that you're not some naiive piece of s**t like over half the population is, thinking everything is groovy because they have no idea what's really going on.

Let's go burn a Nike factory biggrin

i hate that s**t about being too cool for medication. i'm on 40mg/day of Prozac, and I haven't been taking it for the past few weeks, but it really helps me sometimes. I'm starting to get consistently down a lot now, so I'm thinking it's all out of my system and I should start taking it again. But I've been on a lot of stuff that hasn't done anything, has made it worse, including St. John's Wort, which is natural and I have friends that swear by it. If medication makes you feel better and doesn't ******** you up, then I don't see what's wrong with taking it.

I'm too depressed to exercise most of the time, even when I'm on prozac. I don't feel like that's a viable solution for anyone who is seriously depressed. It's impossible to find the motivation to jog when you don't even want to be alive.

same. you should see me try to quit smoking. i bit my nails down to the cuticles.

Is it just me or does it seem like a lot of anarchists struggle w/ depression? confused

I was horribly depressed in college. I was diagnosed as manic depressive/bipolar. I ended up on meds but stopped taking them after about a month. They just made me emotionally numb and I didn't really feel alive anymore. Not sad, but not happy, not anything really. And extremely tired all the time, and loopy. I remember I started sleeping all the time and missing class a lot.

I guess it was a combination of things that triggered it, the culture shock of moving from Miami to Iowa, loneliness, alienation, homesickness, an abusive relationship and another break-up after that, money problems, the pressure to succeed in school, etc. (although I had struggled w/ depression on and off since I was a child).

I still get down sometimes (mostly due to worrying about money, worrying about the environment, worrying about my family, remembering my grandma who passed away last year). But I've learned to deal and since I dropped outta UI and moved back home I've never been as depressed as I was back in those days.

Things get better by themselves sometimes. It just comes with time, with taking yourself outta triggering situations, and with balancing your life. biggrin