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I just found out tonight that my grandfather has bladder cancer and has been peeing out blood for three weeks now. I don't know what this world is coming to when the world rather see a person die than scan a person to find out how far it has spread in his body. When it comes down to money it will rule us all. Now my grand mother has to pay $3,000 out her a** and all she gits is a little retirement check each month. Medicade won't pay for it because they say it is not life threatning enough. What a bunch of dumb asses, I have more brains in my a** than the hole health system in that hospital and medicade put together.

Well I don't know what is going to happen and it sucks that he is all the way in New York and I live in Florida. I don't make enough money to go and see him or if any thing happens to him I won't be able to go to his funeral any way. I figure if me going up their would bring back his good health or bring him back from the dead I see no reason going up there. It is the only way to keep my mind at ease or I will just cry and dwell apon it all day every day.

I try but the stress is so over welming and with this emptyness inside it eats me alive.