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 Posted: Sat Sep 15, 2007 8:51 pm
Okay, there is no way i can possibly explain my problem in one sentence until i tell you how it happened, so here are 4 short stories featuring
me- Mia
my best friend- Luna
the boy i like- lets just call him... Matt
Part 1- 7th grade, 2 years ago
Okay, so i've been best friends with Luna for a couple of months, and theres this guy i like. Matt. he's actually a lot shorter than me (im taller than most boys already ^^"), he talks a lot, his voice is kind of high-pitched (ad no, hes not gay), he has brown curly hair, and hes really smart and loves to read (and i guess he was sorta cute)
For some reason, i like him. a lot. i even followed him around sometimes (yes, i know i had a problem back then).
one day, i decided i confess my love for him. so after school, i met him in the library and told him straight out that i liked him. which i think is one of the worst ideas i had in my whole life. because i forgot that he wasnt exactly the nicest person in the world.
"You're crazy," Matt said, "I dont like you."
"but-but you were always really nice to me..." I said.
"i just did that cuz i overheard Luna say you liked me. I dont like you. youre annoying and im not gonna pretend any more."
Later i cried (i waited until i got home) and i talked to Luna.
"I'm sorry," Luna said, i didnt mean for you to get hurt, its just... he overheard me talking to you one day and i... when he asked me if it was true i said it was. and then i told him to please not hurt your feelings. so, he pretended to like you... i guess i should have said something... i'm sorry..."
"It's OK," I told her, "i forgive you."
Then, throughout the seventh grade year i still liked him (still didnt know why) and i blamed myself for making him hate me because i was stupid and confessed. but Matt didnt want me to like him, so he tried to get me to stop. he took my journal, he made fun of me, and he ignored me the rest of the time. so i quit liking him.
at least, i tried. because i knew that the sweet caring boy i thought i liked was really mean and a liar. but, i couldnt stop liking him! in my heart i truely liked him, and i had no clue why.
Part 2- Eighth Grade, Last year
at the beginning of eightn grade everything was normal. Matt altogether just ignored me this time.
one day i got really sick. I mean REALLY sick. my cold was so bad i missed school for almost 2 weeks.
when i got back, he was gone. not that i couldnt find him, he was no longer at the school. Luna told me while i was sick what happened: Matt actually was on the waiting list to go to a private middle school, but since there were no open pots he came to our public school instead. just after the grade started, someone at the private school dropped out, so he became eligible for the spot. so his parents had Matt transfer to the private school right away.
i was shocked and when i got home i cried (again). after that i gave up on him. i just tried to forget everything that happened and i quit thinking about him altogether. and i never saw him again.
Part 3- 9th grade, present day
My parents had me apply to go to the best high school in the state (not 'one of the best', i mean THE BEST), and i actually made it in!! during orientation, the whloe freshman class was there, and i was so excited! Afterward, when we were walking back to our classrooms, i heard someone call me from behind me.
"Mia!"
I didnt recognize the voice. I turned around, and there was some guy coming toward me. it took me a second to realize it was Matt. apparently, he got in too.
and he looked... different. his hair was a little longer (and i think he actually had gel in it), he was taller (but im stil taller than him though, but hey, im taller than 90% of people i know), his voice was now normal, and i later found out he still is really smart and he shows off in class.
we ended up talking, and he apoligized. i mean SINCERELY apoligized. he said he was sorry and that he couldnt even remember why he was so mean to me.
and we sort of became friends. kinda unofficially, somewhat friends.
ad ive noticed how... nice he is. its hard to explain but, hes different. hes nice, and i know hes not acting, and not just to me, to everybody. hes nice. and he helped me to find a book to read for english since he likes to go to the library.
and we like a lot of the same things. we like the libary, anime, manga, reading, computers... and the only two things i dont like are that he still talks a lot (but i live with it) and he doesnt like naruto (i dont know why!).
but... i think i like him again. oh gosh. i cant, he was mean to me. but now hes sorry, and hes nice, and still sort of cute...
ACK!!!!
oh, and last night at the school football game-
I went with Luna, and after we walked around the stadium a bit (yes. thats how good my school is. football is at a small stadium) we sat down, talked with some of my classmates (Luna goes to a different school btw) and we got hungry so we were walking to buy dinner from the ice cream and noodle stands outside, and she saw him sitting with his family. aw man! i didnt even know he came to the games! also, i was suddenly very concerned with what i was wearing and if my hair was messed up.
THen Luna told me to go over to say hi, because she just wanted to see if he really was different like how i told her.
but i was embarassed, so she suggested we walk past him together and just 'happen to notice him'
So we casually walked past and i pretended to just glance in his direction, and his gaze met mine. and i waved hi. he waved hi. i tapped Luna on the shoulder and pointed over to where he was sitting and sh called 'hi! remember me?'. nd he just waved again.
then she got all mad cuz she thinks he didnt remember her and she called him an idiot under her breath.
and i said 'dont call him that!' and she said, 'why not?'
and i dont know why, it just bothers me.
then we went to sit back down. and Luna said he kept staring in our direction. and i told her we were sitting near the front so he was probably watching the game. but the players were on the other side of the field. and i did see him staring.
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i need help. i need to know if i like him. do i? if i do, can we even go on being friends? should i tell him? what if he likes me too? what should i do? im so confused!
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Posted: Sun Sep 16, 2007 2:51 pm
Well, here's what I think.
First, let me say this. Seventh graders are still kids. While I think middle school is way too early to have a relationship with someone, it still happens. I guess he just matured during those two years. Girls are still scary to guys at age 11 and 12, so that's why they tend to like the small girls, because they aren't as much as a threat. As they get older, they feel confident enough to be interested in taller girls, girls with louder personalities, or any other girl they would've been intimidated to date. Girls are the same; they tend to like the more feminine looking boys first.
Now that I got that out of the way...
I think you should hold off on confessing again. What he did was awful, but he might have matured enough to not have that same reaction. But what I'd do if I were you would be to wait. Wait until you guys become closer friends. Either he'll think of you as a friend and reject you in a kind, more gentle way because he wants to keep your friendship, or he might even confess first. But I'd give it time.
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Posted: Sun Sep 16, 2007 6:34 pm
fire_wolf_13 Well, here's what I think.
First, let me say this. Seventh graders are still kids. While I think middle school is way too early to have a relationship with someone, it still happens. I guess he just matured during those two years. Girls are still scary to guys at age 11 and 12, so that's why they tend to like the small girls, because they aren't as much as a threat. As they get older, they feel confident enough to be interested in taller girls, girls with louder personalities, or any other girl they would've been intimidated to date. Girls are the same; they tend to like the more feminine looking boys first.
Now that I got that out of the way...
I think you should hold off on confessing again. What he did was awful, but he might have matured enough to not have that same reaction. But what I'd do if I were you would be to wait. Wait until you guys become closer friends. Either he'll think of you as a friend and reject you in a kind, more gentle way because he wants to keep your friendship, or he might even confess first. But I'd give it time. thanks. i tried talking to Luna but all she did was laugh and say i have weird taste in guys. im not even sure if i like him though... i just feel embarassed around him. i dont know why.
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Posted: Tue Sep 18, 2007 7:12 pm
Ah, my friends have told me that, too.
Maybe you're just anxious because of what happened in middle school. It could be because you like him, or perhaps it's some completely different reason.
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Posted: Thu Sep 20, 2007 10:29 pm
i have a bigger problem now. i think. i dont know.
i like another guy. lets call him.... um, his screenname is skye.
anyways, skye is a computer-ish kinda guy and hes really funny and nice and a good artist... so i sorta like him...
and matt...
at the same time...
which i thought wouldnt be a problem. and so far it isnt.
but then i realized this was because skye is like matt (except for the way they look and skyes not a jerk).
but i thought it might not be a problem.
but... the other day i found out...
skye and matt are friends (which would be obvious if i had thought about it more, considering they like the same things) which is making hard to decide between them.
so i asked one of my friends at school whos really good with boys, and she told me its okay, just go out with whichever one says yes first. or try going out with both of them.
which i dont think was good advice at all. dont get me wrong, shes nice, but the boys she likes are WAY different than boys i like.
im so confused! i dont even know if this is a problem at all! i just feel like i have to decide for some reason! do i? im so confused!
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Posted: Tue Sep 25, 2007 4:57 pm
If you like them both, then you don't like either of them A LOT. If you did have a big crush on one, then you'd know who to choose.
I'd still stay put if I were you. Skye seems like a great guy, so you may want to give him a chance. Or, your feelings for Matt are even stronger, so you may want to wait to see if he feels the same. Whatever you choose, don't act just wait. Step back and observe. ^-^
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Posted: Tue Sep 25, 2007 10:15 pm
fire_wolf_13 If you like them both, then you don't like either of them A LOT. If you did have a big crush on one, then you'd know who to choose.
I'd still stay put if I were you. Skye seems like a great guy, so you may want to give him a chance. Or, your feelings for Matt are even stronger, so you may want to wait to see if he feels the same. Whatever you choose, don't act just wait. Step back and observe. ^-^ i... i think i like skye... cuz im not feeling so embarassed around matt anymore, and whenever skye talks to me i feel reeeally happy. like today after school we both had to wait 45 minutes to be picked up and we talked the whole time and im so happy -^^- that and... matt said naruto sucks right to my face even though he knows i love naruto a lot... and i found out skye has some things i like that matt doesnt have: this is what i learned from our 45 minutes together today -^^- : - hes not a naruto fanatic, but he doesnt make fun of the series either - he does like other kinds of anime and manga - he is not afraid to stand up and start singing (because someone asked him to) - and he is much better at singing than matt, who literally sounds like a dying animal. - he cosplays - he is the same height as me (okay, not VERY important, but i feel weird when all the boys are shorter than me so this makes me very comfortable around him) - hes not a show off (maybe a little, but not as much as matt) - he does not cuss (which i like) so... yep. i like skye. and i told my friend. and she said she knew who he was because he did the singing thing in her PE class. and people think he is crazy. and he made me realize how unlike-myself i am acting. i've been trying way too hard to fit in, and i have not been myself. and he reminded me not to be afriad of what other people think. so that makes me like him even more, to the point where i used my camera phone to secretly take a picture of him. which i am staring at now. ^^ but... i think im ok...
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Posted: Thu Oct 18, 2007 2:04 am
i just found out today Skye cant date until hes 18! mrgreen i am slowly dying on the inside. so much that i am laughing hysterically. which is probably bad! xd gonk
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