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 Posted: Fri Sep 07, 2007 6:17 pm
This is a poem i wrote about me and my gaian boy freind and i just feel like i should share it.
its called The key to my heart
You've had the key to my heart since the day we meet
You've had the key to my heart since you cought me in you're love net
You've had the key to my heart this very whole time
You've had it since the beginning of time
And i want you to know that you just mean so much to me
Because your the very first person thats ever said that you loved me
So I want you so much
I want you so bad
But the thing is im something you can't have
And i say that becuase we live so far away
So how would you ever get here by the end of this day
So i want you to know that i love you so much
So please don't leave me until i can feel you're touch
Becasue if you did i would'nt know what to do
I just may have to kill myself becasue my love would still burn for you
So please don't ever leave me just stay by my side becasue i'll always love you until the end of time
So please just love me and don't ever hate becasue i may just have to shut this emotinal gate
So please don't leave me just stay by my side becasue i'll alwasy have love for you till the day i die.
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Posted: Fri Sep 21, 2007 6:03 pm
this is a poem i jsut sent to my gaian boy friend just a few minutes ago but it had alot of other stuff said along wiht it but i dont want to post enything but the poem wel alot of you may not know me and the ones that do truly have no clue whats really going on wiht me and i just want to post this and maybe some people would acctually understand what im going threw well enyways ill just shut up so you can read it already!!!
I lay here and cry
I lay here and sream
I lay here upset over dam thing
I cant help but feel sad
I cant help but feel hated
I've lived my hole life feeling sad, neglected, hated, feard, upset, and mad
And finally i feel happie instead of sad
But every night i lay and cry over this happieness
Because i fear that its juts simpethy
I fear that you really dont love me
I fear that you secretly hate me
I fear that your going to eventually hurt me
And wiht these fears come something that i havent felt befor
With these fears come love
But your love cant save me
your love may help me but truly it kills me
It kills me because i've never felt loved and ultamently i dont think you do love me because i havent experenced love
But i do love you
I love you wiht my heart
I love you wiht my soul
I love you wiht my life
I love you wiht everything i have
But i dont think i can be saved
I dont think you can save me
I fear death
But i fear liveing even more
Because if i live i have to deal wiht stress
I have to deal wiht feeling lonely
I have to deal wiht feeling hated
But wiht death i dont have to deal wiht enything
I may lose you
but i know dieing is better then liveing
And i talk about death
Because its truly the only way i can get ride of 18 years of stress
Stress that i keep inside of me
Stress that i hide from everyone
Stress thats been under my skin sence the day i was born
and i know i made you a promise
And im trying to keep it
But you and i both know eather way im going to die
I can die by comiting suiside
Or i can die from misserie and unhappieness eating away inside
So is it worth it
Is it worth it to live a couple more years feeling a little happieness but eventually dieing
Or should i just kill myself now and die wiht a smile on my face
Or should should i wait and die wiht you by my side
Because i know you care for me and you say you love me
But i still deal wiht misserie
So whats the point in writeing this sily little poem if all that its going to get me is simpethy
Simpethy from others who feel bad for me
But ultamently dont give a s**t about me
So whats the point in stiing here getting yelled at by people to go to bed when all i want it to talk to you
So i hope you understand everything befor your eyes
Because i just want to die
I just cant live another second like this
When all i truly want it to get a kiss
A kiss from you
A kiss from me
A kiss from all that give me simpethy
But whats the point in a kiss if im juts going to die
I mean why should i bother
Im just going to die
And i keep talking of death
Because im so upset
I just dont think i can live another milli sec
I just dont think i can do it unless im wiht you
I just want to hold you and tell you how much i love you
But im so shy and scared of you
So will it work out between me and you
Or am i just another love for you
I just dont know
Im just so lost
I just want to know if im worth the plot
Because i dont think i am
I dont think im worth the time
And i dont even know why im wasteing my time
Im sitting here writeing this just to ask you one silly little question
But i want you to know how i truly feel
So here it is the question i shall reveal....
Do you actually love me and how do you truly feel about me???
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