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Here (an illusion in my head)
darkness surrounds me
is it night here?
i ask only a shadow
it nods
never day here
i see a light
strong, glowing
red
is it blood?
no one bleeds here
confused by this i conitue looking
suddenly i realize i am not breathing
how do i talk if i am not breathing?
no one breathes here
i shake my head hoping it will all go away
what is here? where are people?
no one exists here
where is here?
here is he illusion of your mind.

i dont know what the name is but its very new. i wrote this after i lost a friend.
Why am i crying?
If i know i've made someone better off without me
memories come and go
a tide of tears
a tide of sorrow
Why do i cry if i've stopped something bad?
Why do i cry if i know that i've saved
someone?
i've lost so many people yet i know they are saved
i cry so many tears when we part but yet i dont know why
misery is upon me now
these bitter tears wont stop
the only question that still clouds
my mind is
Did i really save them or lead them to doom?
-i lost a friend but now i think they are better off without me hanging around maybe this will make them happier then they were when they were with me.

woot lol i read them again 4 fun! but now i'm bored.....

If I could

if i could run i would only go so
far
if i could stay i would only stay
so long
if i could scream i would only scream
so loud
if i could cry i would only cry so
much
if i could tell you the truth then only
i would be free...

i wrote this 1 year ago along with all these others i'm about to post

why isnt the sun out today?
why isnt the sun out today?
is it trying to hide itself?
but from what?
the world is so cold with
the suns touch
no one will come out today
so please sun show yourself
to me
show us that you are still here
are you trying to hide from the clouds?
why arent you out today....
to give light onto us, to let us live
to set us free from this dark world
without you
why isnt the sun out yet?
will you ever come out again?

ty

how pissed off and bored i was on october 24,2007 during math class

once i died. i arose. yet im not.
shut the hell up. not hearing you.
lost. cant ever return. no soul.
shut the hell up. not hearing you.
wings. Growing painfully. hurt..
shut the hell up. not hearing you.
now broken i fall. deeper down.
shut the hell up. not hearing you.
hell is waiting for me to come...
shut the hell up. not hearing you.
reborn i fly away from death