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"Take a bath with me?" He spoke softly, a bit embarrassed to be asking such a thing in his current state.
"I don't want to be left alone.." He admitted before moving to look down at the floor.

"I'm not leavig you..." Sirius slowly started to take off his own shirt. "Remember Master I'm your loyal guard dog,I'll always fin dmy way back to you."

Remus gave the other a sad smile, before moving to strip off his robe. There wasnt much left of his clothing underneath it. He averted his gaze from the other as he continued to take off what was left on his body.

Remus moved towards the tub, sighing softly as he stepped into it. Sinking deep into the water, he felt sickend by the fluids that washed off his body.

Sirius was about to join him when he saw the liquids coming off of the boy, he swollowed and closed his eyes. He didn't want to think about all that was washing off him. Remus' first time wasn't with him... the reminder just kept screaming at him no matter how he looked at it and he wanted to die for failing so miserably

"C-can we change the water Sirius..." Remus said with a trembling voice. He looked on the verge of tears once more, horrified at the mixture of blood and...he didn't want to even think about it.

Sirius nodded and his eyes opened long enough for him to flick his wand at the drain so that the water drained, then he let the water run for a few minutes to wrince out the bath before he let it refill, he sat on the edge of the tub and waited to make sure no more would wash off

Remus scrubbed his skin roughly, rubbing off the caked blood and semen off his body before letting the other refill the tub once more. His limbs were red from being rubbed at, and every once in a while he would pick up the sponge again and continue to clean his skin raw.

Sirius waited till he was sure there was no more to come off, before he sunk in the water behind him, and took the sponge away from him. "Enough Remus or you won't have any skin left on your body..." He said softly, wrapping his arms around the others waist

Remus looked up, his eyes had clouded over slightly when he was scrubbing. "I still feel disgusting Sirius..." he mumbled before resting against the other. "I still have to get clean.."

"there's nothing left on your body to clean..." Sirius said sternly before resting back against the wall and holding the red boy in his arms. "I love you..."

I can feel it though..." Remus mumbled, "I can still smell it on me..." he burried his head against the others chest. "I love you too."

"Let your skin heal Remus... we have a full Moon in a few days... We'll get to spend some time with each other then... How's that sound?"

Remus was reluctant to listen but nodded, giveng the other more freedom to touch him.

Sirius tucked him into bed when they got upstairs and gave him a peice of chocolate, kissing his forehead gently. "You sleepy?"

"I'm not going to be able to sleep tonight..." Remus mumbled before moving to look up towards the cieling. "I don't want to close my eyes."

"Remus... Marcus can't get you here... No ones gonna get you while I'm around You know that..."

Remus nodded before moving to hold his arms up towards the other. "come here?" He asked softly, trying not to let touch bother him. With him he was safe...with Sirius everything would be ok.

Sirius moved to lay down in the others arms as he reached for him. "I'm right here... I'm not going anywhere... though I don't think I can stay with you as a human all night."

"I don't mind you being a dog..." Remus closed his eyes, wrapping his arms around the others body, ignoring the pain from the small wounds littering his torso. "Just...don't leave me tonight Sirius..."

Sirius looked up at the other and Kissed him gently. "I'm staying here with you... You just find trouble when I leave you to your own resources."

"That seems to be the case." Remus agreed with the other boy, kissing him back. His lips trembled agaisnt the others due to the still split lip.

Sirius paused his kiss and kissed his cheek gently. "I'm sorry..." He said softly as he felt the others trembling lip... Figuring he was pushing him too far.

"It's ok... Its just my lip hurts."

Sirius stroked a thumb over the others lip lightly before he rested his head against the others shoulder. "Mmm guess no kissing for a while..."

Remus shook his head. "Just a few more kisses Sirius...please..." He mumbled. "Its just a sore lip thats all." He wanted Sirius's kisses to cover the others, to make him Sirius's again. In his mind it seemed like the only way to make things better again. perhaps he was just losing it or something

The dark haired boy tilted his head at the other boy before he nodded his head slowly and hovered over the other boy, he kissed him gently, from his forehead to his chin and back again, then back to his lips for a loving kiss. "That better Moony?"

Remus shivered at the sensation, yet gave the other a small nod. "Yes... thank you.." He tried to give the other boy a smile before moving to hug him once again.

Remus nuzzled his face into the others fur, sleeping till the early hours of the morning. Around 3 am the nightmares began though. Soft whimpers slipped past the shuddering boy's lips as he began to toss and turn.

Remus gasped, opening his eyes in a flash while trying to catch his breath. Looking up to the dark ceiling, he let the scent of Sirius's shampoo wash over him. Clinging to the other boy in the dark, he shuddered as the thoughts from his dream continued to consume him.

"Marcus..." Remus mumbled in a pitiful voice. he wanted to just curl up into a ball and die he was so shaken. Looking towards the other male, his body began to settle down, reducing its shaking.

Remus's hands clung to the other boy's arms. "Please dont leave me"He mumbled softly as he regained control of his breathing once more. " I dont want to be alone just yet.

"Sorry I wasn't strong enough to stop him." he muttered dejectedly before closing his eyes. "Why would you still want a used mate is baffling to me." He sighed before moving to rub his eyes.