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 Posted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 10:54 pm
Crenn I've suddenly starting feeling down again. But I've noticed one thing now... just before I go to bed... I'm majorly depressed.... and this is happening every night... I don't think bipolar follows a pattern sweatdrop At night there's less to distract you and keep you occupied. Especially in bed. Your mind can start thinking about all the problems you have to deal with and the stress you're under. You'll feel upset 'cause it's kinda all hitting you at once. I know it happens to me a lot, maybe it's the same in your case? I'd need to talk to you more to understand, and I'm willing to listen if you wanna let sometihng out. ^_^
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Posted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 12:46 am
And the fight to keep Siren alive continues. I say fight, even though there is really nothing I can do. I've been giving her lots of water in hopes some of it will get in her system. She keeps spitting it back up, all brown and nasty, and I'm hoping that eventually she will clear out her system. Thankfully, she is still pooping, so I know her internal systems are working to a certain degree. I think I might have finally gotten some water down her, but I'm not sure how much. I guess all I can do is to continue to pray and give her as much support as possible. She is just too young to die. =(
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Posted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 1:47 am
Aww, Kris...I wish your poor little mantis the best of luck! I hope she regains good health soon.... crying
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Posted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 8:50 am
I will pray to the Mantis God for you, Krissim.
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Posted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 4:18 pm
Well... this morning has been eventful. First off, I try to find my mini laptop to backup my notes. Can't find it. Then I go change the batteries on my mini mini laptop... it's dead.
Can't stay long, But I will say that it's working again... I'll talk later, got an outcome now
EDIT: Ok, only have about 13 minutes until my next outcome.
My mini mini laptop this morning wouldn't turn on at all, even after I put new batteries into it. I thought it had died and I had lost all of my notes (about 4 months worth) so I got stressed out and eventually burst into tears, basically telling my parents that I was . I gave it to my mother to try to get it working, and while I was halfway to school on the train, she phoned to say that she got it working and that all the pixels were black. She phoned back about 3 minutes later saying she found the contrast slider and it was working fine. I asked if she could check the "My Documents" folder and she said all my work was there. So once I finally get home(I have a practice english exam xp ), I'll be finding my mini laptop and transfering everything off. Then I get to have the fun of pulling it all apart and seeing how it works.
So I've had a cry, so I'm feeling good now.
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Posted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 9:03 pm
to tell you the truth..I'm not excatly totally happy with my life right now. In that thread someone posted about what keeps you going I said friends were keeping me going..Yet at the same time they also seem to be what also drags me down.
Right now, as we speak, once again I'm forced be quiet and forbidden to speak with one of my friends because her mother hates my guts. Right now I'm wondering if it's worth it to stay friends. After 4 years nothing has changed between her mother and I. I don't know if I can take it anymore. She won't ever listen to me no matter what I say or do.. I don't know if this friendship is worth it anymore.. It feels like a waste of time...I don't know if risking my health and well-being is worth it to stay friends...As it's hard being friends with someone who won't help make it better and allows the s**t to contuine..
Don't give me the stay strong and hope speeches.. I'm well beyond that..
I really don't know what to do anymore.....
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Posted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 9:25 pm
HOSHITS DOOMIE'S TEMPORARILY BACK WITH WORDS OF WANNABE WISDOM! O:
Manda_Tifa Wow, Doomie...good luck!! heart I'm happy for ya though...You could always go to a local library or something for internet so you can at least check in with us here at the AFG!!! Much love! heart heart (Howl's Moving Castle...OMGLOVEIT!!! except the ending, I hated the ending the ending was so horrible and disappointing...it SUCKED!)
Awww, but in the ending everything gets better and... well, I don't wnt to ruin it for anyone else. XD
Oh well, the ending is still less sucky than most movies I've seen. XD
rei_the_ancient I made a thread about this, Cause im wasnt really sure where I shoudl post this. Im kinda embarised about it. http://www.gaiaonline.com/guilds/viewtopic.php?t=5631379Well there is the thread I made. If it gets locked sorry *sigh* I really did'nt know where I shoudl place this. If you rather have my post it here isntead of teh link, I will do that instead.
If anything, I'll say that the more you're afraid of other people's judgement, the more likely it's gonna open up the opportunity for them to open the wound and play in it.
Hold your head up high, and wether a girl or a guy be your love, the only thing you need to remember is just that : two people in love. It's stupid, it's simple. Make it sound like it's common sense if you're asked about it.
If you're under 18 and depend on your parents for a roof over your head, then there's a risk of being kicked out if they're REALLY against same-sex relationships, but anytime afterwards, if you have your own place, a regular paycheck to rely on and such, then you shouldn't be afraid of anything.
This applies also to people who are afraid of parents/relatives/friends learning you're furry. Hey people, you like the art and concept of human-animal hybrids; big deal? Not really.
It's like people who like spy movies. Except anthros can also be spies.
It's not a fetish, it's not an obsession, it's not a perverse trend either.
It's something you like. End of story. :3
Kakarotto-san Nekoyaki Leyla Giselle Can't help but feel down about my own art as of late. I've been comparing myself to better artists, and i know I shouldn't, but I can't help it. I just feel like I should give up on drawing furry art. On another note, I've been working on a manga idea I hate that phase. I'm still going through it. I'm going through it too..x_x.. I think I have too much fun dressing my avatar.
Been going through it since day 1. The jealousy I get from seeing people draw better than me is one of the things that keeps me going. xp
Kakarotto-san to tell you the truth..I'm not excatly totally happy with my life right now. In that thread someone posted about what keeps you going I said friends were keeping me going..Yet at the same time they also seem to be what also drags me down. Right now, as we speak, once again I'm forced be quiet and forbidden to speak with one of my friends because her mother hates my guts. Right now I'm wondering if it's worth it to stay friends. After 4 years nothing has changed between her mother and I. I don't know if I can take it anymore. She won't ever listen to me no matter what I say or do.. I don't know if this friendship is worth it anymore.. It feels like a waste of time...I don't know if risking my health and well-being is worth it to stay friends...As it's hard being friends with someone who won't help make it better and allows the s**t to contuine.. Don't give me the stay strong and hope speeches.. I'm well beyond that.. I really don't know what to do anymore.....
If this is about the same friend that's been giving you trouble that I've been hearing you say has been giving you trouble for about as long as I know you, (Vap or somesuch, was it?) I think I'm just about ready to slap some sense into you :
Stop feeling bad about it.
If you two agree on playing a game at 2pm over the net, or OC or whatever, and she doesn't show up because of her mom, it's HER problem, not yours. If her mom gives her s**t, it's HER problem. You tried reasoning with the woman, and nothing's worked, in FOUR YEARS. Just stop making it your problem.
If things go wrong, then unhook from her and just do something for yourself for a change. Don't just wait for her, or try to solve the problems wiht her mom for her.
I may not know you personally, but please, listen to me for once, and stop trying to put up with this. This isn't a friendship, it's a hardship, and it's tearing you down, since, well, four years ago. That's too long to be any good to anyone's system.
If your friend really IS your friend, then she'll do what she can to get her mom off her case and still keep in contact.
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Posted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 9:39 pm
I'll figure it out..somehow..even if I really don't know.. Right now I have to hope I don't get bitched at by the people I owe art to as well. Commissions can be both good and bad.. x_x..
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Posted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 11:13 pm
So...I really want to get my ear pierced on my birthday...
One major problem...it's a $70 piercing, and I may not be able to wear it at work. Its the industrial piercing (for those who don't know, that's the bar that goes through the cartiledge in the top of the ear.
I'm going to talk to the piercing studio this afternoon to see if wearing spacers for about 4 to 5 hours a day, 3 days out of the week, will really affect the healing process much. I know I can't wear them too often because there is a chance the hole could heal differently and then the bar wouldn't pass through correctly. I don't think it'll affect it a whole lot, but I want to double check. I also have to find out how visible the spacers are so that I might be able to wear them at work.
My assistant manager suggests finding out the details, then talking with my manager Sunday night when he returns to work from his vacation....but I really want to get this done Thursday to celebrate my birthday, since I don't have many people down here to celebrate with....and well, I have been wanting this piercing for about 3 years now.
I've decided now that if the spacers aren't too visible, then I'll just go ahead and get it, then discuss options with my manager along the lines of if I have to wear the spacers or if he'll allow me to wear the bar. Either way...I will find a way I can get this piercing. >.<
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Posted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 11:23 pm
So yeah, like, hi everyone! Update time =D
And no, I don't have internet yet, I'm back with the rents for the night so I can go to an orthodontist appointment tomorrow. XP
Soon though, soon.
...hopefully. ANYWAYS.
McD's is awesome. Seriously.
Maybe it's just the place I got hired at, but the people are nice, they're active, they still find time to goof off while being productive, the managers are understanding, the schedules are flexible, I get priviliges for a whole bunch of stores, free sodas, and later on after working there for a while, chances at getting syudent financial aid and even dental. Freakin' dental.
So it's minimum wage...
Bah, I don't drink or smoke, there goes half the money problems of modern people. Living on minimum wage is easy if you have enough hours. =D
But yeah, I work in the kitchen. Nametag and uniforms and everything.
The hair nets are silly looking but it's for sanitary reasons XO
Like OMG, two days and I'm already making the big macs. Granted they're not that hard to make, but apparently they say I've been learning really fast. XD But yeah, I work the grills, make the nuggets, carry boxes around, wash the stuff, etc... pretty much anything but counters, which is GRAND! I hate dealing with customers. Apparently from the old videostore job it seems customers -love- to interact with me, but I hate counter work. Sorry peeps!
But yeah, apartment-wise?
My toilet wasn't working. Called the building's janitor. Half an hour later, the toilet's working like it's brand new; apparently the last renter before me had loosened the bolts. D: My electric outlers are also pushed into the walls and have frames that don't allow me to plug anything that has three pins, so the janitor's gonna come back and fix that for me later this week, as well asget me a new plug for my oven. The guy's awesome, the building is awesome, and now the room I have looks awesome too with my map of Cyrodil, paintings, drawings and all sorts of stuff hanging on my walls. =D
Also had some problems wiht my computer screen, but fixed that soon enough.
Brought meh kitty with me too. DIdn't eat at all the first day.
Then the second day when I came back from work I sharpened a pencil and poked him (gently) with it, over and over again, making small cute noises at the same time(he seems to love when I do that XD), and petting or scritching him every so often. Eventually I got him to stop hiding behind the couch and actually come out and eat, and use his litter. I'm proud of him, he didn't defecate or piss on the floor ANYWHERE, not even once. Nada. All in the litterbox. Tonight before leaving I rewarded him with some tuna for dinner. ^^
I'm betting soon enough he'll be comfortable with the place and sleeping on my comp like he used to, though he's taken an odd liking to sleeping on my suitcase at my feet, under my desk, when I'm using the computer. XD
Anywhoot, other than that, I need to call up the various insurances to take care of getting my stuff (and myself) insured in case something happens, and for any medication. After that I need to contact Bell Sympatico so I can get internet installed at the place. I saw one of their deals which offers highspeed for about 19$/month, so I'm going for that. heart
And so on so forth.
Also drew a funny pic about McD's, it's up in the Art and Chatter thread.
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Posted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 11:29 pm
Glad to hear things are going well for the most part there Doomie. 3nodding
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Posted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 11:39 pm
Diana Vulpes Glad to hear things are going well for the most part there Doomie. 3nodding
When you're all the way down, the only place left to go is back up. XD
But yeah, I'm glad things are going well too, but I'm especially happy with the boost in confidence this is giving me. For once, I actually feel like I'm taking care of my life.
I mean I wake up in the morning, and sure, I have to go to work... but that just means I'm gonna go make a killing on the grills, get to talk with people, earn my wage, then come home and be just as freaking lazy as I damn well want and nobody can tell me otherwise! XP
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Posted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 11:40 pm
DoomNeko Diana Vulpes Glad to hear things are going well for the most part there Doomie. 3nodding
But yeah, I'm glad things are going well too, but I'm especially happy with the boost in confidence this is giving me. For once, I actually feel like I'm taking care of my life.
I mean I wake up in the morning, and sure, I have to go to work... but that just means I'm gonna go make a killing on the grills, get to talk with people, earn my wage, then come home and be just as freaking lazy as I damn well want and nobody can tell me otherwise! XP
Hmm, yeah, aint it grand?
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Posted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 11:45 pm
Diana Vulpes Hmm, yeah, aint it grand?
Totally. =D
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Posted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 11:51 pm
heart Just gotta say it makes me so full of happiness myself to see Doomie happy again ^-^; Sorry to to anyone who has noticed me a bit untalkitive as of late, I'm back to my chatty self. XD
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