Vampress-NE-
Recently I havent been going to school on a regular basis because I felt weak and sick all the time... The most I could go was three days in a row. In the mornings I feel like s**t and at night im fine, and when im around alot of my frends I feel great, happy, and perfectly normal. Alot of times I like "feeding" as the phcyso's say (phycristys SP?) off of drama. Could that be a form of getting enegry off of people? And what do you think I can do to possibly help my weekness which is now becoming an illness. Its funny, my parents dont understand so they think I just keep ditching school, but hey what can I do...
I had this problem when I was awakening (13 yrs.)
First off.. the fuggin' lights in the school will give you a headache, yes you'll feel like s**t.. because most of us HATE getting up early in the morning. Dragging your heavy limbs through school. You'll be lethargic most of the day. Feeding is the solution.
Secondly.. yes, it's called AMBIENT feeding. You're absorbing the excess energy people emit when they feel any strong emotion.. Be it anger, jealousy, Excitement.. whatever. I'll warn you though.. try consciously NEVER to feed off fear. It can cause a person (if it's done often).. mental illness.
My advice to you would be primarily to ground and center yourself. Create a filter, and well.. feed. Schools a great place to get alot of energy. You can have alot of fun with it too.. ******** with your classmates, try throwing energy at them when they're not paying attention. You can train, too. I learned how to BLINK in the halls, between classes. That's getting from one spot to the other in a fraction of the time it would normally take.. just by walking. You can pop up really fast, it's fun to freak ppl. out like that. It's easy once you learn. Anyhow.. I'm rambling.
If there's anything else you'd like to chat about, feel free to PM or Im me.
AIM- DespondantDream
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