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i'm sorry..even though you forgive me I still feel like s**t. I wish I could do something for you but sadly..I can't. For once in my life I actually feel sorry. I wish I could go back in time and fix everything I ever did to you. I want to make it up to you so I can get on with my life but I can't..not anymore. I can't do anything right it seems, unless its screwing things up! I know its been a while but I still feel this way. until I can make it up to you. these cuts on my wrist will stay. These scars on my legs will stay. The feeling of nothingness will stay. These pains will be a reminder of what I should have never done. its been a while and you have moved on. i did move on for a bit until if found out that I hurt you. you say you don't care, i'm fine with that. The reason i still hold you near me, is cause you are my savior. if it wasn't for you i'd be still be doing things to hurt my body. you stopped me smoking, drinking, and actually brighten up my life for a while. which im thankful for, i want to repay you for what you did, and the only thing i can think of is to protect you at all cost. no matter how far away from you i am. i will always try and see that you live another day.. i just want things to go back to the way they were before everything happend. i want to be friends with you again. i know you say your fine with it. you said you were to chicken s**t to ask me if its true. look at me, i'm to chicken s**t to tell you all of this in person. i can never thank you enough my savior. you may never see this and i'm fine with that. its just me rambling on. about what i should have said to you. i'm sorry

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kitharion Report | 11/08/2011 9:58 pm
kitharion
Hey there, goofball!! Cheek up, I'm always gonna be here.
I will always be your friend, no matter what until the end.
(That wasn't meant to rhyme)
Read your rambling...
There is absolutely no reason for you to feel like s**t. I know how Dellaboner is, and I understand why you said the things you did. I never really cared in the first place, except for the fact you almost got me grounded, lol.
You never hurt me. If anything, I hurt you.
It was pretty much my fault. I shouldn't have said yes so soon after Lucas, I knew I was far from over him (In fact, I dated him twice more after breaking up with you)
And it seriously took me ages to figure out that he was an unchanging dip s**t.
Don't feel guilty, you've done nothing wrong.
I'm blaming Tyler for that ridiculous rumor.
(Thankfully it was just far-out enough that nobody believed it, anyway xD)
Hell, I don't think either of us would really agree to exchanging blood in a graveyard at two in the morning.
Well, maybe that's a lie..
It sounds kind of exciting, actually razz
Except that it would suck if you had a different blood type than the person you were exchanging with.
'Cause then you could die.
But anyway, I have no problem forgetting the whole thing.
None at all (:
Just stay true to who you are~
And don't forget that you aren't anywhere near the screw-up you think you are.
Because you're not.
You've got talent, and potential.
Someday you'll find someone that'll appreciate you more than I did.
(Face it, I was a b***h.)
Then maybe, you can find that happiness everyone desires.


By the way, I have a book for you to check out.
It's called The Four Agreements and it's by Don Miguel Ruiz
wink You'll be able to appreciate it more than most other people.
kitharion Report | 01/29/2011 10:32 pm
kitharion
Nice!! heart
bettybloodsucker10 Report | 01/17/2010 11:29 pm
bettybloodsucker10
thats scary i dont like things like that
Amber_Sexi Report | 06/26/2009 10:02 am
Amber_Sexi
hi
syber cutie101 Report | 06/25/2009 1:30 pm
syber cutie101
yeah cuz its nice
syber cutie101 Report | 06/23/2009 11:22 am
syber cutie101
i see your still strutting the same outfit
syber cutie101 Report | 06/16/2009 5:37 pm
syber cutie101
kool
syber cutie101 Report | 06/15/2009 9:57 am
syber cutie101
i'm soo happy school is out
Rokkin Report | 04/24/2009 6:02 pm
Rokkin
i am soooo happy its friday, i need a break from skool
Rokkin Report | 04/23/2009 6:38 pm
Rokkin
were not on at the same times anymore its weird
 
 
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