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Rosiel_thorn

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Registered: 07/05/2005

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Rose's insanity

well, as the title says...this is for whatever my strange little mind decides to put in here >.>

 

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Now, to start, all the more frivolous things...such as the FF quizzes that I took...

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Next, this is the Imp that was made for me...
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Take the Magic: The Gathering 'What Color Are You?' Quiz.

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What type of Fae are you?

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Now that the quizzes are out of the way, on to my dream avis...both old and new...

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And to those who have donated, my deepest heartfelt thanks...

Shadowbayne - Whip of Fire, Dark Halo, and 6,000 gold (Not to mention the 200,000 towards Firey_Fairy's quest!) Thank you so much, I doubt I'll ever be able to repay you...(though, that doesn't mean I won't try!)

Aweetuh~ - The Goth Veil and Mythic Hair, thank you so much *huggles tightly*

Firey_Fairy - The Celestial Wrap, And here I thought I was supposed to be helping you out, not the other way around! sweatdrop

Glorykins_4ever - The Lovely Genie white headpiece. Thanks, it was a wonderful Xmas present *huggle*

Scrappnel - The Summoning Tome. O.o thanks for the as-long-as-I-want-to borrowing of yours! (wait...as long as I want...and I could keep it always...isn't that almost like donation? )

Jannyah - Black Carpet floor tile, and the Slate wall tile. Thanks Sis!!! ^_^

xXxSokixXx - A blue rose, my full moon aquarium background (which I LOVE heart heart heart ), cloud terrain, Starry aquarium background, and an aquarium flower jar! Soki spoils me!

Van Drac - Gift of the Goddess (omgomgomg squeee!!! )

Sabakukori - Vampire hunter hat

And......for the names of my pets.

Coco kitty - Shadowbayne
White Dragon - Dendre
Black Dragon - Tythrekai
Wolf - Lobo
Tiger - Kier
Chocobo - Bonzai


Last tidbit...
I DRAW (free)



As always, I wish to be true to myself with this...but this time...perhaps it is my darker side that shines brightest...





So often I've tried to be the one who brightens the day for someone else...

...To bring a smile where a frown used to be...

....To be the one rekindling hope....

.....Now, all of that fails me.....






How often do I hold this smile? How much must I pretend that nothing bothers me, even when I feel my world crashing down on all sides?

Is there justice in clinging to hopes and dreams that have no chance of ever being?

Where is that hollow smile that pretended warmth? I remember it so well, I used to be able to summon it so casually...

Have I forgotten it? Have I forgotten me?

Maybe...I just finally woke up from the fantasy of hope, and realized the reality of life.

Nothing solid, the light I clung to so tightly in my heart seems to have washed away so easily...was it so frivolous? So fleeting that the teeniest breeze blew it right out of my grasp?

Maybe I can't believe the lie I used to hold so true...but for the sake of others, I can still play the part, right?






I'd rather have my heart shatter a million times....than to be the cause to shatter someone else's...be it the first time...or the hundreth time.

Such a brave battlecry, is it not? I suppose deep down this is still true, though believing in the humanity of another person...that's what I have a hard time with...have I lost the ability to see the light?





I've known several people who say they stopped caring, that they grew heartless, and a few have tried to show me how. I asked one of them... How do you get used to a dead heart? Later on, I realized the answer. You don't get used to it. What you get used to is the pain...because no matter what you still care, your heart still beats....and it is the pain that you feel from trying not to care...that proves it.

...and oh, what a deep pain it can be...

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ll Royo ll Report | 10/16/2011 11:33 am
I like you so much <3
SkyKat Report | 09/21/2010 7:11 am



Hope that You have/ had a great Birthday!

=^_^=



The godless shadow Report | 12/07/2009 9:22 am
sis
ender200 Report | 09/01/2009 8:50 am
you ok sis?
Laya10109 Report | 07/04/2009 8:32 pm
copy/past this to 10 ppl and then press f5 and f9 at the same time you will get 100,000 gold it really rocks trust me
Royal Valkyrie Report | 07/01/2009 1:17 am
aww.... thats okay i can wait for you to get internet, then we can go fishing.
Royal Valkyrie Report | 06/30/2009 1:53 pm
So how come you been randomly been without internet.

Thank you for the B-Day Gifts.

^-^
Royal Valkyrie Report | 06/27/2009 11:53 am
Where are you ?
ender200 Report | 06/20/2009 6:42 pm
*pouts*
Lil_Beyonce502 Report | 06/18/2009 12:04 am
Where u at

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...I hold this smile...
...not because I want to...
...but because you need me to...