About

About me.. wow, how do you say everything about yourself in a couple of paragraphs. I am 35 years old, divorced and have no children. I live in Denver, CO. I am bisexual, submissive, a pagan eclectic witch, empathic, sensitve to ghosts and spirits and in the words of merideth brooks -- "I am b***h, i am a tease, i am goddess on my knees". Who says you have to fit into one mold. Matter of fact, i dont like molds.

Who knows what fitting in feels like anymore? I never have fit in no matter how hard I tried. I am all those outside things in life. I grew up the child in a southern christian family. I was surrounded by and expected to become the perfect socialite. I never was. I dont make friends easily and all those expected things don't fit me.

I am supposed to be healthy but I was diagnosed with Cancer and now i know pain and sickness. My world changed. What sucks is bad family and not enough support. I have learned a lot about strength and fighting from the Lance Armstrong Foundation ~ LiveStrong.

I was supposed to marry the "right" guy. You know him ~ a well off boy, lawyer, doctor or business man, from the right family. We were supposed to have 2.5 children, a cookie cutter home, a dog, cat, 2 cars, and a boat. I am supposed to have a job, but not a career, be a soccer mom and hang out at the country club and PTA.

OMG! I am so not that. Let's see. First.. I did not graduate college the first time in the right amount of time. After 4 years I dropped out and I was lost. Now I know exactly what I want to be, graduated with an honors undergraduate degree and now I am in grad school.

Wife? -- Another box i dont fit into. I met the wrong guy... an african american man from the wrong family, the wrong side of town and the wrong socio-economic class. He was abusive and an alcoholic and my parents couldn't believe I would disgrace them. Instead of helping me when his abuse turned deadly they disowned me. When I got out of the abusive relationship I moved away from white bread, southern suburbia to Colorado.

While married to the wrong man, I was diagnosed with Multiple Personality Disorder. Sanity -- yet another box I dont fit into. While everyone is an I or me, I am an us or we. Silence? What is that? One day in college a psychology professor of mine was talking about abnormal behavior and psychology. He stated, "If you hear voices you are NOT normal". It felt like I was on center stage and he was singling me out.

After leaving the ex-hubby, The first thing I did was come out of the closet and admit I was/am bisexual. Another box I do not fit into -- being Straight.

Then after years and years of studying, questioning and researching, I made the move from christianity to paganism, thus coming out of othe broom closet. Another box i do not fit into: The bible belt.

I finally found peace in mother earth and the natural way of things. I pick up a rock and i can hear it. I touch someone and i know their feelings. I look into someones eyes and I can see their past lives and their future selves. Try explaining to your presbyterian southern mother that you dont prayer, you do spells. *LOL. Yeah.. still in the broomcloset with her.*

My sisters have talents like singing, dancing and acting -- my talents are other worldly. I am an empath to the living, recently departed and afterlife challenged. This is a blessing and a curse.

On top of all of this... i consider myself a submissive. YOU have no idea how confusing that is for me. In a day and age when girl power is on the rise and women have the right to be strong and stand up for themselves, I want to submit. In school and business, I am strong, powerful, stand up for myself, as well as lead and manage others. But in my relationships, I want to say Yes Sir, and I dont want to make the big decisions.

With the childhood I survived, it is amazing that I am not a serial killer. It is amazing that I can feel compassion and love the way I do. And I am not going to turn away a relationship when I need to be loved.

There is too much hatred in the world. We need to stop telling people who they can and can not love. It is none of our business. If people from different religions, social classes, races, creeds, country or whatever want to love each other, then let them. If people of the same sex want to love each other, then so be it!!! And if someone is lucky enough to find more than one person that loves them, then WOW -- how wonderful for them.

Stop hating people because they are different. Accept people because they are unique. Make the outside feel welcome and open the clique for all those who are lonely and just want to fit in.

~ Wind to thy Wings ! ~