Read It All, Because I'll Change Your Life.

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I'm better than you are high.
Mohawks are the s**t.
Dislikes:
-Girls
-People who try too hard to be cute
-Curly, frizzy hair
-Wannabe "scene" girls
-Wannabe "emo" girls
-People that label one another
-Labels
-My eyes
-My body
-A-holes
-Players

So I'm basically just another teenager that has nothing better to do on her weekends, but I'm also a teenager that already knows what I'm going to do in life. I don't waste my time with people I am sure I can't trust. Also, don't get your hopes up, because I'm really not a nice person. I never get my hopes up for anything, because I'm too afraid of getting shot down. I often walk around my town thinking of things to say about myself. I'm basically just nothing in this world, like everyone else in this damn town. I am just another face lost in the movements of the world, another pair of eyes searching for what I long for, and what I am here for. I want somebody to tell me it'll all be alright, even if it's far from the truth. I'm not looking to be anyone's anything, I just want some clarity, the light at the end of the tunnel. Wrecklessness and low-level thinking, among all of the other sub-standard bullshit is done, I'm done with it all. I don't fit in here, I never really have. If it wasn't for the good friends that I have, I wouldnt be anything. I'm stuck in this place where no one thinks outside the box, if anyone has a different view on something they are automatically wrong, it makes me sick, I'm sick of it all. I wish people could wake up and realize there's more than what you hear by trusted sources. I need to be around more people that see the beauty in everything, and the fact that the world is an absolute disgusting place, with extraordinary people. I need to leave and get out. One day I'll live where I've dreamed of, even if its only for a year. I can't wait to take the subway to where I need to go, look up every moment and be amazed by whats around me. I can't wait to become something, and I just cant wait until I can come back here and say,"I told you I could." I want to be able to let go, I want my dreams to become reality, and I want happiness at its fullest extent. Maybe all that wont come to me now, but I wont sit around and wait all my life. I'm a young mind trying to adapt to a constant change in a world that's moving to fast for me. I'm strung on the past and struggling towards the future. Everyone around me either has their future set in stone or are living for the moment. I guess I'm stuck in between, I'm a believer in much, a skeptic in most, and a lover in all. I believe we are all here for a purpose, some greater than the others. i have dreams and aspirations like all should, but its a matter of pursuing them. I can't help but smile when I get to school and see the people that make my life matter the most. I'm Ashlee Rodgers, and I'm the most alive lonely person you could ever meet.


Today is only is only the beginning, it is not the end.