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Faerie

Report | 09/25/2026 8:45 pm

Faerie

I haven’t been drinking at all, I’ve been sober during the whole break up because I knew I would destroy my body if I drank.
I already kind of did while in our relationship. While he never did anything to make me drink, we went out a lot and drank a lot together in our relationship.
I never really got to do that because I’ve been a bit of a hermit most of my life and living a little with him felt so exhilarating and freeing, especially when I have a overly protective mother (and trust me I know it’s embarrassing because I am 37 and she’s still afraid something bad is going to happen to me, which a lot has already happened but she’s a worry wart too) drinking too much with him and made me put on quite a bit of weight and age a bit, and I’m not proud of it.
I have however been trying to talk to others about the breakup, and based on what everyone says they agreed after 3 years there should be some sort of communication and agreement to what we are planning for our future, and I was really feeling it because right before the break up I went to a wedding by myself - had a good time and it made me realize I did want to be married to someone and just spend the rest of my life with them - no kids just appreciating each others presence and enjoying the rest of our lives in our own place with a cat and dog maybe.
Unfortunately for him, he doesn’t know what he wants, and one friend said she knows him and she feels he will never move out of his moms house.
I know he feels deeply for me, I know he loves me but his uncertainty about us and his future really upset and broke me, like it made me feel like I’m not worth keeping around at all. I know that’s not the case, but I’ve just been so tired of being with someone that doesn’t want a true future with me. I wonder if I’m broken, or just not meant to be with anyone.
And that really ******** hurts, and scares me. I told myself as a kid I didn’t want to be alone, and here I am alone yet again. It’s ridiculous.

Dumb a** me wanted to talk to him again, and we are kind of talking, but it’s more on a friend level….but I’m unsure if I can keep this up for long because I do still love and care about him despite being frustrated and mad.


Your ex sounds like a piece of work, and while I’m sure that hurts still, good riddance of him. Glad you never went back to him too.
I’m glad that you got out and have a wonderful life with your now husband and kids. It sounds like you’re happy now and that’s all that matters.
Faerie

Report | 09/23/2026 8:53 pm

Faerie

It’s been very hard, I was crying way too much for a good while.
I broke it off with him near the end of July because he wouldn’t move out with me, he said he would help me to move because of my current situation, but he wouldn’t move out with me.
I asked him if he was serious about me, he said he does care about me deeply and does love me - but he is not ready for that even though it’s been 3 years together .
He also didn’t know what he wanted in his future, as he still felt like it was Grimm due to being unsure if he wanted to stay at his current job, move to a different state, or whatever.
We are both close to 40, and I told him that I loved him but I need to be with someone that wants a future with me, and not be so uncertain. I felt like I wasn’t a priority at all and that really tore me apart.

I know he’s going through a lot too, but I don’t see how it was fair to me to drag it out this long and not have a plan. I thought we were working towards something because he had mentioned previously that he could see us in our own place cooking, playing games, watching tv and cuddling together all the time.
I held onto that thinking that’s what we were working towards….turns out that wasn’t the case at all and I held onto something that wasn’t completely there I guess. Which doesn’t seem right because we’ve been through a lot together, we trusted each other. Opened up and everything.

It really ******** sucks, pardon my French.
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Also to go back to our summer talk, swimming is a healthy form of exercise so I’m sure you and the family are feeling fantastic from that despite not being able to walk often.
Do you guys get really bad winters there? Our winters are usually fine, just some rain maybe no snow.
Faerie

Report | 09/23/2026 5:44 pm

Faerie

Yeah, I’ve been going through a lot of heart break….its not easy.
But I’m trying to just take care of myself for myself, cause that’s all I can do.

We were suffering with extreme heat for a long while here too, it was unbearable!
It’s finally cooling down though, but with that now people are getting sick again (flu, cold, Covid)

I’m trying my best to not get sick because I’m leaving for a trip shortly and I don’t want to miss it for a sickness.

I hope you’re able to get back to a normal sleeping routine despite the heat, it’s been a very unbearable summer this year.
Faerie

Report | 09/20/2026 7:54 pm

Faerie

I’m definitely ready for fall too! I miss wearing my cardigans, lol!
I’ve been okay, exhausted and went through a lot of sadness recently.
But, I’m trying to get over it and take care of myself.
What’s new with you?
Faerie

Report | 09/20/2026 5:18 pm

Faerie

Lovely outfit as always heart

How’ve you been, dear?
Hitman Jonesy

Report | 09/02/2026 3:25 pm

Hitman Jonesy

Sorry, haven't been too active, cuz I'm con crunching rn, but yeeee!!! I just changed, but that outfit is saved so I will prolly bounce back to it at some point!
Hitman Jonesy

Report | 08/26/2026 4:48 am

Hitman Jonesy

Thank you, thank you!

ALSO! I just realized our girls lowkey look a lil similar, just in different "fonts" lol

At least the shape of our hair, haha
Hitman Jonesy

Report | 08/26/2026 4:10 am

Hitman Jonesy

OMG I ENDED UP PLACING 3RD!!!

It's hard to tell sometimes, cuz like, I've placed when only having 30 sumn votes, and then other times I've had like nearly 200 votes and didin't even make top 20 emotion_skull

But yeah, with runway sometimes I do well, but a lot of the time I don't.

As for superstar I really don't get it tbh, cuz I guess the voters are of a "different" sort of mindset there, and I can't even seem to place ithin the top 50 any time I enter, LOL

I also feel like there's not much incentive to enter/participate, cuz they don't reward you at all unless you place 1st ( whereass runway rewards top 10 ) and they don't encentivise you to vote, either, cuz there isn't any dailies attached. Idk, it could use a lot of work imo
Hitman Jonesy

Report | 08/25/2026 4:14 pm

Hitman Jonesy

She's for runway but I dont think she's performing too well, but tbh she follows they style of the prompt more then most the entries I seen, but WHATEVER, lol!
Hitman Jonesy

Report | 08/24/2026 5:37 pm

Hitman Jonesy

I feel that!! I spent way too long building avis sometimes, even ones I barely wear for one full day, LMFAO

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