About the Foxie
In general I try to avoid being the center of attention, I like it if people actually treat me like just another person.
Not the cast out, Or the attention whore.
You may ask why I at times refer to myself as Foxie in third person.
For a few odd reasons I seem to always have had some sort of connection with them.
Though I never actually realized as such until recently.
A "Argenti Vulpis" Also known as the silver fox, A discolored red fox used to appear in my dreams whenever I was unconscious.
Fox was also my grandfathers nickname for his hair color, as well as a few of my close friends who shared similar names.
I could go on all day about how the word fox pops into my life but I wont.
As for my mentality..I am Sadistic and run a few personality "disorders".
I say this with caution as this "Disorder" is beginning to be accepted as a personality trait after a few studies.
As a note, I will NOT make a good friend, I am not someone you want to rely on, And you most likely don't want to get in a relationship with me.
You may ask why, And a few have so in order to answer your questions I will give a short explanation on why I am not a good friend/Someone to be involved with.
Initially I was confused about my disorder, And didn't understand myself fully so I tried things that didn't work.
(Relationships.......Friends, I was abit of a romantic..well trying to be)
Then after years of searching for a omnisexual person to love, I realized that..well I am incapable of actually loving anyone anymore.
After all since emotion is just chemicals released in your brain it is quite possible to be physically incapable of love.
So if you like me, I wont be able to love you back, Dont try to change that you'll just hurt yourself.
And yes that means if we are friends I will also not care about you, Though I may find it enjoyable to lie to myself for a time and tell myself I care I really don't care..at all.
If you note my favor for the color black its not because I'm some goth or emo.
I wear black as a traditional color of mourning for the people I know who died.
No I will not explain further.
Assuming your one of the more educated people who have read this and understand my disorder, Good for you now go away since you know how much of your time you will waste trying to change me.
A few key things you should know if your going to persist in trying to get to know me.
-I dislike men, If you are a guy you have no chance.
-Are you hyper, Really cute? If so That'll annoy the hell out of me if you overdo it, and you'll be quickly booted.
-Religious? Bang your gone.
-Vampire Fetish? ya you people can all leave me alone to. >_>
- Do I seem nice and quite friendly?Don`t let it fool you, me being nice is done for a few reasons, One is to be polite, and liking you is not a reason or possible...I cannot stress that enough. >>
Dislike me? Feel like flaming me? for starters, random swears and badly chosen insults that don't apply to me isn't going to annoy me so don't even try.
Second, If you do piss me off enough I can make you regret it. >>
And no that isn't a threat, I'm to lazy to bother doing that kind of thing, Ill just make whatever social life you have online hell, and humiliate you until you leave me alone.
-What can I talk to you about? Assuming you want to get me interested in a subject, Talk to me about MMOs, good books, fighting (no I don't want to hear about how your some godly fighter in your dreams) as in; whether you prefer martial arts or that new science based fighting styles/Do you like weapons if so what kind? etc. I am interested in fighting in multiple ways, According to some people the way I describe sparring almost sounds..sexual. anyway, I also like Music (nothing....heavy metal or anything excessively loud), Talk to me about technology, And if you really want to interest me lets talk theories, and debate the workings of the universe (no random formulas and crap, Keep it on a more of a philosophical point of view,Most of the formula based stuff is going to end up being proven wrong a few years down the road anyway..)
Personal notes
-Though I am not religious I do have a informal religion that is neither spiritual or based on faith.
Its based off the material world and is more like a honor system like chivalry then anything.
-Yes, I cant feel any real emotion, I cant taste, smell, and I enjoy very little in life, So people occasionally ask me if I get suicidal.
I still have one reason to live, Mainly the only actual reason Im still kicking is because I thought of a interesting theory..
I just want to find out whether or not my thoughts on how the universe really works is true.
outside of that I have the internet for boredom and physical exercises to keep in shape and lower the chance of dying before I get my theory done.
This theory of mine will most likely take several lifetimes to finish, So Im concerned about a single part of it, Then leaving my work for someone else to take over.
Not the cast out, Or the attention whore.
You may ask why I at times refer to myself as Foxie in third person.
For a few odd reasons I seem to always have had some sort of connection with them.
Though I never actually realized as such until recently.
A "Argenti Vulpis" Also known as the silver fox, A discolored red fox used to appear in my dreams whenever I was unconscious.
Fox was also my grandfathers nickname for his hair color, as well as a few of my close friends who shared similar names.
I could go on all day about how the word fox pops into my life but I wont.
As for my mentality..I am Sadistic and run a few personality "disorders".
I say this with caution as this "Disorder" is beginning to be accepted as a personality trait after a few studies.
As a note, I will NOT make a good friend, I am not someone you want to rely on, And you most likely don't want to get in a relationship with me.
You may ask why, And a few have so in order to answer your questions I will give a short explanation on why I am not a good friend/Someone to be involved with.
Initially I was confused about my disorder, And didn't understand myself fully so I tried things that didn't work.
(Relationships.......Friends, I was abit of a romantic..well trying to be)
Then after years of searching for a omnisexual person to love, I realized that..well I am incapable of actually loving anyone anymore.
After all since emotion is just chemicals released in your brain it is quite possible to be physically incapable of love.
So if you like me, I wont be able to love you back, Dont try to change that you'll just hurt yourself.
And yes that means if we are friends I will also not care about you, Though I may find it enjoyable to lie to myself for a time and tell myself I care I really don't care..at all.
If you note my favor for the color black its not because I'm some goth or emo.
I wear black as a traditional color of mourning for the people I know who died.
No I will not explain further.
Assuming your one of the more educated people who have read this and understand my disorder, Good for you now go away since you know how much of your time you will waste trying to change me.
A few key things you should know if your going to persist in trying to get to know me.
-I dislike men, If you are a guy you have no chance.
-Are you hyper, Really cute? If so That'll annoy the hell out of me if you overdo it, and you'll be quickly booted.
-Religious? Bang your gone.
-Vampire Fetish? ya you people can all leave me alone to. >_>
- Do I seem nice and quite friendly?Don`t let it fool you, me being nice is done for a few reasons, One is to be polite, and liking you is not a reason or possible...I cannot stress that enough. >>
Dislike me? Feel like flaming me? for starters, random swears and badly chosen insults that don't apply to me isn't going to annoy me so don't even try.
Second, If you do piss me off enough I can make you regret it. >>
And no that isn't a threat, I'm to lazy to bother doing that kind of thing, Ill just make whatever social life you have online hell, and humiliate you until you leave me alone.
-What can I talk to you about? Assuming you want to get me interested in a subject, Talk to me about MMOs, good books, fighting (no I don't want to hear about how your some godly fighter in your dreams) as in; whether you prefer martial arts or that new science based fighting styles/Do you like weapons if so what kind? etc. I am interested in fighting in multiple ways, According to some people the way I describe sparring almost sounds..sexual. anyway, I also like Music (nothing....heavy metal or anything excessively loud), Talk to me about technology, And if you really want to interest me lets talk theories, and debate the workings of the universe (no random formulas and crap, Keep it on a more of a philosophical point of view,Most of the formula based stuff is going to end up being proven wrong a few years down the road anyway..)
Personal notes
-Though I am not religious I do have a informal religion that is neither spiritual or based on faith.
Its based off the material world and is more like a honor system like chivalry then anything.
-Yes, I cant feel any real emotion, I cant taste, smell, and I enjoy very little in life, So people occasionally ask me if I get suicidal.
I still have one reason to live, Mainly the only actual reason Im still kicking is because I thought of a interesting theory..
I just want to find out whether or not my thoughts on how the universe really works is true.
outside of that I have the internet for boredom and physical exercises to keep in shape and lower the chance of dying before I get my theory done.
This theory of mine will most likely take several lifetimes to finish, So Im concerned about a single part of it, Then leaving my work for someone else to take over.
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