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Your Evanescence song is: Missing
Even though it hurts very much for you to admit it to yourself, nobody really takes notice of you or seem to care. You want their love (family, friends, etc) but you never get what you want. Now you're leaving home trying to find a better place for yourself. Sadly you know you won't be missed and that hurts. You would give anything for being loved, but you can't do anything about it.
"You won't cry for my absence, I know-You forgot me long ago"
You are sad because of your grief.
You are an assassin.
That means you are a proffessional and do your job without mixing any emotions in it. In your life you have probably been hurt many times and have gotten some mental scars. This results in you being distant from people. Though many think that you are evil, you are not. What you really are is a person, trying to forget your pain and past. You are the person who never seems to care and that is why being an assassin fits you good. Atleast, that's what people think. Even if you don't care that much for your victims, you still have the ability to care and to generally feel. It is not lost, just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to not get to noticed, and dress in black or other discrete colours. You don't being in the spotlight and wish people would just leave you alone. But once you do get close to someone you have a hard time letting go and get real down if you loose him/her.
Main weapon: Sniper
Quote: "The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy" -Jim Rohn
Facial expression: Narrowed eyes
You need someone loyal.
People have let you down since forever and you have always been left by yourself. Your life spark is now barely flickering and there is a big feeling of emptiness and hopelessness. You don't know what to do anymore in your life and everything has a sense of meaningless to it. Though you're not only sad, you also carry hate and many grudges on people. You have a hard time letting people in, but with your history you don't even desire that so much anymore.
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Your power is: The ability to breathe under water
Explanation: When swimming, you don't need to get up and take a new fresh breath since you take in oxygen from the water. This allows you to stay in the water as much as you'd like. In good purposes it can save drowning victims. In evil purposes it can help you drag down a person to the depths and have them drowned. This power helps you escape the world, if even for a bit, since you have grown to despise it so much.
You have been a beaten dreamer with aspirations crushed. Now you try to control your hopes because you don't want to get hurt again. You feel there is no hope for you in the future and have no real goals. But unlike the Controller of Time you do still feel, even if it's mostly negative emotions. You have few friends, if any, and feel you are unable to speak about your troubles. And unlike the Transformer, you don't feel happiness nowadays. All seems to be filled despair whereever you go and you are bitter becaue the world has failed you. It didn't turn out the way you wanted it too and you feel betrayed. It is also likely the feeling of betrayal comes from past relationships where you were left alone in the end.
Negative aspects: Since you are highly depressed and not letting out your emotions properly there is a possibility for cutting, to let the emotions out. Also, if the feeling of despair grows to strong you might consider taking your life.
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"Floating as a ghost through events, forever unnoticed"
You are someone who is very lonely in life and feel like no one ever notice you. Due to this you lack in confidence in yourself and also have little belief anything you do matters. Therefor you are passive to most situations and let other people take care of it, while you stand aside. When you have a problem you keep it to yourself, thinking no one will care anyway if you told them. In social gatherings you feel anxious and out-of-place and like to stay away. When you see someone having a problem you don't really meddle, not because you don't care but because you think they wouldn't want to have you around. A way you could get noticed is through the Internet, where you can open up more than you do in real life.
The pessimist - The whiner
People in this category usually have a very gloomy outlook on thing in general, trapped within a dark mind. Most of the times, it is past events that has made them pessimistic. Most likely they lived through a few unfortunate events and/or hardships that made quite a large impact on them. Now they seem to believe they have been cursed with bad luck, for nothing ever do go their way. Positive scenarios they gladly live through, but later proclaim them as a coincidence or shrug them off. Positive things never leaves them a great, lasting impression, and they tend to hold onto events which went badly. Pessimists are seen as "party poopers" if they were to voice out their opinion. It is not that they want to live life this way, but they found that life will be unfair whether they want it to or not. Therefore they have adjusted, albeit reluctantly. They want things to be better, but seldom do anything about it. Most Pessimists are passive aggressive, and never really want to try new things. Those will probably only disappoint them anyway, they think. Many things in their lives are a disappointment to them already. They stick to what's safe and tried, for they know where they have it. Pessimists are truly negative, and may be prone to develop depression. They often feel life is hopeless and have little to no faith in both things and people. Pessimists usually stick to "their own kind", so to speak, and prefer solitude or the company of a selected few. As a safety precaution, they never expect much. That way they won't be hurt. Pessimists are usually seen as life's victim. But even so, they are not trying to change it either way.
Quote: Any idiot can face a crisis - it's day to day living that wears you out." -Anton Chekhov
Your connection with darkness is through your interest in vampires. These occult beings fascinates you immensely. Their lives are simply something you would kill for, and if you would have the opportunity to be sired, you would. Living a mortal kind of life is too ordinary and tedious. You aren't necessarly evil just because of this interest/obsession, you just can connect with them and their lifestyles. To belong to a specil group of "people" in which "superpowers" come with the deal is appealing. Though most people have a hard time understanding this, and chances are you're a social outcast. Perhaps you hate your current life and therefore developed this interest, to escape reality.
You are "Counting on me" by Korn.
After being used for so long and always taking the blame when something goes wrong you're starting to loose it.
Life sucks and you know it. Nothing ever turns out okay, nothing ever goes your way and while you have to live this horrible life the gods are laughing at you. The whole meaning with life, according to you, is simply to die. But you have not become this way just like that, you have probably been decieved, betrayed and hurt by people who meant alot to you in your past. To you, life is not even bittersweet.Your wise quote is: "Reality bites with a variety of sizes of teeth"(-Tony Follari)
As a person, you think life is just plain painful, horrible and everything else you don't like. Happy people confuse you. Alot. I mean, why are they so happy anyway? You are depressed and perhaps utterly alone and live life rather montone. You feel there is no reason to really be here and feel helpless.
You are a fallen angel of persecussion. You have fallen because of your mind becoming increasingly disturbed and dark. This has happened because of what you have experienced in your life. Things that have happened in your life have been painful and difficult to tolerate which has left you suffering. Your soul is slowly decaying as you somehow cannot escape what's happened. You are beingining (or you havn't already) to lose hope that things could get better.
You cry because you think that you wouldn't fit in if you showed your real personality. You fear rejection from other people. You cry hidden tears. You hide behind a facade, the exact opposite to your true personality. The group you are in or the "label" you posses isn't the real you. But being different is one of the most beautiful aspects of a person, if everyone was there would be no point. Originality is one of the most inspirational things in this world.. not pretence.
You are 'withdrawingly' depressed. You are alone and you like it that way, away from all that pain that people cause in you. When you're by yourself, no one can hurt you except yourself. You don't know what to do, but being by yourself seems to be the best and only option for you now. You are afraid of making decisions and tend to want others to make them for you. You are a like a beach ball on water, where you simply flow with the tide. You isolate yourself, not wanting to talk or anything. You have deep wishes to be accepted, but you are already so deep in your own isolation, that you feel that you can't change and as if a big hard barrier stops you. Try to open up little by little because keeping everything inside hurts you more than you know. It isn't easy, but at least get someone who understands you by your side. That way, you'll never be alone ever again.
.:Borderline:.
~Summary~ Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing injury to their own body. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. Borderlines think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.
~Symptoms~
-Self-injury or attempted suicide
-Strong feelings of anger, anxiety, or depression that last for several hours
-Impulsive behavior Drug or alcohol abuse
-Feelings of low self-worth
-Unstable relationships with friends, family, and boyfriends/girlfriends
Sad... You use the darkness to hide yourself from the world. Something has really hurted you, which made you turn dark. Darkness makes you feel safe and that is why you stay there.
Begone ye screams of silence, harbingers of pain
Cloaked in isolation, you mock in harsh disdain
My soul is torn asunder, I curse you, God of Hell
As you pierced my tortured soul, what horrors I befell.
You spoke of quiet solitude, to tempt me to your lair
Then lanced me in my troubled heart, to depths of dark despair
Nemesis, I beg of thee, rise up in righteous ire
Protect me from Tisiphone, from Hell's eternal fire
With all my voice I scream to you, protect me from the night
Alas, in forlorn desperation, I journey to the light
Banished to mind's Coventry, I heed the demon's call
Beckoned by the silent screams, I enter Dante's hall.
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