My hell
My life is a hell. No i don't get raped. No i am not abused. No i am not homeless. No i am not any of those things. In someones eyes i have an amazing life. The hell in my life is my knowledge. i know about the world in a way only god could see and he is showing it to me. not because he hates me but because someone has to bear it. every laugh is a cut. every love is a stab. every time i wake up i wake up to another day. i have little inside of me. i have things i want to do but are to afraid to do them. people hate me because i'm there. so do you and in time you will realize it. it could be wenever but i will break your heart eventually without meaning. i am sorry but leave me alone please it's for the good of everything.
Yes i write in a journal ... deal with it
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my journal will say and show all that is on my mind. which for me is pretty well.. how can i put this.. uh i know eccentric. this journal may make you cry laugh and cry some more butstill read it
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Mood: Apathetic
My life is spiraling downward
I couldn’t get enough money to go to the Blood Red Romance and Suffocate Me Dry concert
It sucks cause they play some of my favorite songs like “Stab My Heart Because I Love You” and “Rip Apart My Soul” and of course “Stabby Rip Stab Stab” And It doesn’t help that I couldn’t get my hair to do that flippy thing either…Like that guy from that band can do...Some days, ya know...
I’m an emo kid, non-conforming as can be.
You’d be non-conforming too if you looked just like me
I have paint on my nails and makeup on my face
I’m almost emo enough to start shaving my legs
Cause I feel real deep when I'm dressing in drag
I call it freedom of expression, most just call me a f**
'Cause our dudes look like chicks, and our chicks look like dykes
Cause emo is one step below transvestike
Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don’t jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo
I’m dark and sensitive with low self esteem
The way I dress makes everyday feel like Halloween
I have no real problems but I like to make believe
I stole my sister’s mascara now I’m grounded for a week
Sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies
I can’t get through a hawthorne heights album without sobbing
Girls keep breaking up with me, it’s never any fun
They say they already have a p***y, they don’t need another one.
Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don’t jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo
Dye in my hair and polish on my toes
I must be emo
I play guitar and write suicide notes
I must be emo
my life is just a black abyss... ya know..it’s so dark. And it’s suffocating me, grabbing a hold of me and tightening its grip, tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans...which look great on me by the way.
When I get depressed I cut my wrist in every direction
Hearing songs about getting dumped gives me an erection
I write in a live journal and wear thick rimmed glasses
I tell my friends I bleed black and cry during classes
I’m just a bad, cheap imitation of goth
You can read me “Catcher in the Rye” and watch me jack off
I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life
If I said I like girls, I’d only be half right.
I look like I’m dead and dress like a homo
I must be emo
Screw Xbox I play old school Nintendo
I must be emo
I like to whine and hit my parentals
I must be emo
Me and my friends all look like clones
I must be emo
My parents don’t get me ya know
They think I’m gay just because they saw me kiss a guy… Well, a couple guys. But, I mean it’s the 2000’s. Can’t 2…or 4 dudes make out with each other without being gay?
I mean, chicks dig that kind of thing anyways.
I don’t know diary, sometimes I think you are the only one that gets me. You’re my best friend.
I LIKE tacos
how are you :]
TAMA SAYS HI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
...THIS IS RODNEY SO U BETTER RESPOND OR IM GONNA KILL U!
um yeah lets talk.
Yeah I am a concerned friend