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TwilightDzine

Report | 05/31/2010 3:26 am

TwilightDzine

Hey Marcus. Ah, I wasn't meaning mental as in crazy. I was meaning like depressed, etc. I understand what you are talking about...just so much overwhelming that your mind just can't really take it. Although, I can eat and sleep (sometimes). I eat too much >.< I NEED to lose weight. I know you can't make me feel better, but I appreciate the thought smile I hope you find your way soon...It's a horrible feeling to not know where you are going with life. I really understand what you are going through...and I apologize for not understanding before. I got one hell of a slap in the face when I graduated and lost my job...a rather rude awakening. I hate the feeling of being lost...but unlike you I've tried to feel the voids and it's just not working. I've become kind of like you in away...I don't even want to try much anymore.
TwilightDzine

Report | 05/19/2010 4:49 pm

TwilightDzine

Why is it weird to not hope for something? After continuous failings...it's normal to lose hope. Even I'm losing hope in things...it's a bit depressing. Yet at the same time, things aren't changing. How can you believe in something that will probably not happen? I don't know...maybe I'm just full on depressed. I hope you can build up some hope again...inspire me.
Maybe you are depressed as well? Sometimes you just get to empty you don't see things right. Either than or you have some kind of mental disorder that needs to be checked. Which, either one sucks.
TwilightDzine

Report | 05/10/2010 1:02 am

TwilightDzine

I try to change my avatar once a week! I like to make changes smile Um...you mean gaia cash? Err...I get my items form playing games and the market...it takes me awhile to get what I want. I also play booty grab and then my friends give me gifts sometimes.
Don't worry, I wasn't on much either. End of semester...you know how that goes smile
Things are okay...thinking of moving to the mainland. Just need to get off this rock and away from everyone. Need some freedom. How are things with you and your family?
TwilightDzine

Report | 04/27/2010 3:59 pm

TwilightDzine

That's so weird...I'll try again Thursday. I'm going to be house sitting in the boondocks and they don't have any internet sad Kind of stressed about it...I'll explain later. I'm glad to hear you're getting some sleep though...no worries. I'll probably see you on when the semester ends and I can get on msn more. Yeah, I'm glad...it's just...I need something steady. This few months isn't enough to pay off my loan for school. I'm just so stressed out worrying about things. I don't know how people live >.< And no worries, my birthday was good. If you want to get something I do have a gaia wishlist :p
TwilightDzine

Report | 04/26/2010 4:08 pm

TwilightDzine

Hey Marcus! I sent the request...you didn't get it? I haven't had much time to get on lately >.< I have a temporary job until July 2nd...then back to the same situation sad
TwilightDzine

Report | 04/17/2010 7:34 pm

TwilightDzine

Hey Marcus. I just got your IM! Haven't been able to get on much the last few days. So glad it's the weekend!! What's up with you? I sent a contact request for you on msn so you'll be on my list again.
TwilightDzine

Report | 04/11/2010 2:57 pm

TwilightDzine

I remember she had to go visit him a few times. So I wasn't sure if he was still there or if he came to live with you guys finally. How do you get along with him? That really sucks that he is like that...was he always like that? Or recently? Men can be so horrible sometimes. I hope he at least works and contributes to the household. Or is he being a leach? Has she confronted him at all?
Bummers about the deer.
I don't think I have you on my list...but I know you imed me before without me having you on my list. Up to you *shrugs*
I remember you talking about the bad headaches. Glad that finally went away. I know what you mean about literally feeling like it's pulsing. I think that's actually migraines. Hopefully the insomnia will clear up...because lack of sleep causes lots of problems.
I'm surprised you were away from the computer that long. How come?
TwilightDzine

Report | 04/09/2010 11:57 pm

TwilightDzine

That's weird. I wonder why they waited until the last minute to tell you? What is wrong with your car? That sucks. But at least you make the best of it by looking at animals.
So he still doesn't live in the US? That must be weird to be married to someone in a different country and hardly see them. I think I understand. No one wants to be alone...and as you get older I think it gets harder, especially if your friends are moving on. Gah...I hope I don't end up like that. So far my close friends are single. It's been hard seeing my classmates getting married and having children recently. I feel like I'm behind the times...I don't even have a career. I shouldn't compare myself, but I just feel like I'm doing something wrong. I don't know.
How come you don't sleep often? You have had sleep problems for a long time. I guess I'll see you on MSN then sometime.
I've been patient for a long time..and trying to start small. I'm getting tired of it...you know? I mean..a lot of people give up by now if they aren't on unemployment...and even then they bs the stuff when they have it sometimes. But I keep trying...I just feel like the universe abandoned me.
TwilightDzine

Report | 04/09/2010 2:39 am

TwilightDzine

Ah, I see. I made it so my MSN doesn't come on at the same time. I'm hardly on MSN anymore either. I'm on Gaia a lot though. Aww, you could have donated some things my way too. I'm always in need of gold >.>
So you still work at Wendy's? How come they moved you over the mountain? I'm glad you got more hours. I remember you said you said it was good to work more so it kept you distracted.
I never really thought it would be this hard to find work. It's kind of humbling to be honest...I always thought it would be easy. I didn't even get the job at Starbucks I applied for...and I had an interview. I applied at places I told myself I'd never work at...like Blockbuster, Walmart, etc. Not even an interview. Like I said...quite humbling...but also really depressing.
Did your mom at least get unemployment? That is really horrible that her work place did that to her. Is she still with that guy? Where was he from...Malaysia?
Well, if you ever happen to be on at the same time as me on MSN drop me an IM.
TwilightDzine

Report | 04/08/2010 4:01 pm

TwilightDzine

That is because Gaia is awesome. You can't help but stop by each day!
So what is the whole truth? Where are you working now? I have not been able to find a job since August. If I do not get a job soon things for my family will get bad. I have applied for so many jobs. I wasn't even able to get unemployment when I got laid off. I have been really pissed off for a long time.