Anyone that tries to encourage me in my state right now won't work. I just feel cynical when people try to help me stay optimistic. I know it makes the people disheartened but I just can't be in a agreeing mood due to the circumstances I'm having.
Especially when you keep on telling me about dreams, Mr. C. Dreams are such humbug to me right now. It annoys me when you tell me I can dream and I can achieve them. Reality isn't easy and I'm having difficulty trying to "believe in myself". It makes me grind my teeth in frustration.
See? I'm rambling and making you disheartened again. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to dampen the optimism you are giving me.
It didn't cross your mind I was being sarcastic, right?
Yep. I was totally being sarcastic.
Btw, what did you do with your ps3 now that you've moved to ps4?
It's like giving up to me. It is tiresome to listen to someone that is pessimistic. That's why I think it's difficult to find someone who can really listen well.
Huh, if only they were attainable without worrying about money.
They just seem so impossible and unattainable, Mr. C. Realistically speaking, they're impossible to do.
I'm not good enough to attain any of my dreams. Reality crushed them. Society is obviously telling me it's impossible.
I wish I could just live forever in my dreams.
To be honest, I think I won't be able to ever go anywhere. I'm doomed forever to be stuck here.
I think a lot of people want to make the people they care about to be happy. It's impossible to do that though. Life is filled with loneliness and has only occasional drops of happiness.
That's why we should keep those happy memories and never forget them. They're precious beads of hope.
Even though I'm saying those words, it's hard to believe them. I care so much but believe so little.
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