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 Posted: Sun Mar 20, 2005 9:19 am
I used to be very abusive to my pets when I felt really angry. When they would run away my mom would say it was because they didn't love me but it was really because I didn't love them properly. I accidently killed one of my pet cats when I was 9 and I regret it to this day, all of it. I occasionally would hurt my pets and I would always go too far at one point so I had to go to sleep for half a day. I still sometimes get very violent towards people but mainly verbally, physical violence is more taken out on myself which is one thing my counseler is trying to lessen.
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Posted: Sun Mar 20, 2005 10:21 am
I snap at people sometimes, but I don't attack them physically, except once, and that time they were telling me to hit THEM instead of my backpack. I wasn't being abusive exactly.
Usually I just beat the s**t out of inanimate objects. (:
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Posted: Sun Mar 20, 2005 9:06 pm
yeah i can get really voilent. its not a good thing for me or my criminal record. it tends to happen at the peek of my manic stage.
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Posted: Mon Mar 21, 2005 1:01 pm
I have been abused, but not because I hav been BP because I havnt gotten my final diagnosis yet...
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Apocalyptic Exhibitionist
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Posted: Tue Mar 29, 2005 10:32 pm
my mom and i verbally abuse each other a lot....our house is rarely ever quiet....we yell a lot...cuss each other out, etc....and its uncontrollable for me....i dont realize what im doing till after the fact.....were trying to find the right meds for both of us to help and we both go to counselling....so its a work in process...
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Posted: Thu Mar 31, 2005 12:32 am
I used to fight with everybody I saw...Literally. After about two years I noticed when I needed to step away and try to calm down but most of the time I cant controll my self... My little brother's teachers used to think it was Mom's fault he was always bruised but they started to see her bruises too... I just couldnt stop myself... Now I have a little tolerance... I still get that way sometimes though... I try not to but I have no choice in the matter... Mom and I scream at the top of our lungs at each other... It is very stressful...
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Posted: Thu Mar 31, 2005 1:13 pm
Hypocrite I find BP hieghtens things for me, like atm me n eddy are on a rough patch and get into little scraps so the slightest thing makes me go either really depressive or really angry. I've made him cry alot which makes me feel awful. that's how it is for me. i actually hit him and pull his hair and make him cry and on and on and on... and it's the worst feeling in the world. he is everything to me and to know that i lack the self control to protect him from myself hurts so deep. i try really hard, though, and i have gotten way better. my mom abused me 'til i moved out, physically. my step-sad verbally/sexually abused me for 8 years, between the ages of 8 and 16. i know abuse. oh, and i've been raped twice.
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Posted: Thu Mar 31, 2005 6:07 pm
i dated a wonderful kid who was BP. We were as close as close could get. the june before our second aniversary He hit me. We were on a bus comming back from a choir field trip to a dinner theater. I know he didn't mean to but it scared the piss out of me. He had thrown somethings at me and grabed me before but never hit me.i stayed with him till he got really heavy into drugs. He went down a road where i couldnt' fallow. Leaving him hurt more than anything i had ever felt in my life. I failed him.
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Posted: Thu May 05, 2005 9:45 pm
I've kinda always kept to myself, but if things got to an extent, I tend to take it out on other people if I couldn't take it out on myself... I've hurt a lot of people and I regret it big time.
domokun
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