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 Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2005 7:53 pm
i say GRRRR, GRRRR to those ppl, they have been GRRRRed at, and let it be known to all that I, Jakob, did it
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Posted: Fri Mar 11, 2005 8:01 am
uh, i just wanna know why they be piss edd so i can make amends, but they won't tell me that, either.
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Posted: Fri Mar 11, 2005 11:52 am
You should know. stare
...and Jake, no, it was not related to you in any way.
*Cracks knuckles idly* I hold grudges well.
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Posted: Fri Mar 11, 2005 5:00 pm
... stressed I'm upset because i DON'T know...........
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Posted: Fri Mar 11, 2005 5:16 pm
On a much, much happier note, I may be getting a job soon, at a newspaper called "the freelance star", which supplies to almost everyone in stafford, and even some people in other counties.
hmm....oh, yeah, and dir en grey's new cd is out. can't wait to get my copy.
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Posted: Sat Mar 12, 2005 7:59 pm
God knows how absolutely pathetic I am.
Well, at least HE knows.
I'm done ******** with my life. Everything I do these days is in honor of something that happened a very, very long time ago. Everything. I'm kinda fed up with it all, really.
So I'm kickin s**t and poppin off now.
I'm through with letting people tell me what to do, how to act, what to wear, who I should like, what I should listen to.
This is MY life. Enough with the crap, say I. I've been, since as long as I can remember, the odd kid that has a big mouth and does weird things. No one can tell if what he says is true or not, no one can tell what he really likes because he laughs at everything. He just nods his head and says yes, and if he gets in trouble, he just appologises (sp) and does his time and does exactly what it was that got him in trouble in the first place.
So, please allow me, at this time, to speak my mind.
I don't care if someone is mad at me. I honestly DON'T CARE. I just wish that they would tell me why. If they don't, I get upset. I don't like to be upset, just like everyone else.
I'm past upset. I've reached the point where I no longer want to know, so please, don't tell me. Don't.
I don't care if I make it in life or not, I honestly don't. I just want a small job, like at Borders or something, that can support me while I write away at my desk, with no one interupting and no one bashing my work just because it only flies with a particular group of people. I don't care if anyone even reads the s**t, I just want to know that I have written an entire novel, or play, or comic, or storyline, or whatever, without anyone telling me how to do it. That would mean the world to me.
I don't care if I pass school or not, I honestly don't. I'll just get a job, keep turning stuff into the Freelance Star for extra cash, and either live with my Dad so that he has some company or forget about that and get my own place, maybe share it with some buds or something, and wait until I'm bored of that. Maybe then, if I'm motivated even in the slightest bit, I'll go to community college and possibly a university or trade school, work and write, and be content living my life.
Most importantly, is this:
I don't give a flying ******** about whatever you say will work, I don't care if what you tell me is the "right thing" to do, I don't even want to hear it; all I care about, and all I know, is how to fulfill my own needs. By needs, I'm not including anime or anything as such. Needs entails, oh, social stability, respect, food, water, shelter, a car or another mode of transportation, a job, a computer/typewriter, and just a few people, nay, just one person who can accept me for who I am.
I am who I am. I am the only JRock mod in the world not, so there has to be someone who likes both GLAY and David Bowie out there. Someone who can listen to Romantic Mode and Buzzcocks on the same CD. Someone who can accept anyone for who they are, and hate people for how they act.
As such, if I were to act like I was last year and look at myself, I would not be the type of person I'm talking about.
You guys are right, I have changed since I moved. I've changed alot. For better or worse is up to God, I don't care, but it most certainly has happened. Which is why I've just informed my parents of my nighttime escapades and shown them pictures of me and a few other kids from the evening classes, and the kids I invented Aeolish with. Oh, and yes, I know that Aeolish was also another form of spoken and written language, from the lands around Greece, which is why we named it as such.
I'm going to start posting some of my Aeolish paterns on deviantart or something sometime soon, because Aeolish looks much different than I showed you all.
That all aside, I'm done ******** with my life. I have written seven new books, none of which have anything to do with Japan, so I'm either going to get them published or submit them into The Writer's Guild. I'm going to take back all the s**t my mom took from me and won't give back, like my dresses and my Adam Ant costume, and my swords. I'm going to wear my makeup again, I'm going to pull out my old Cars records and blair them throughout the house at max volume and not care who hears. I'm going to tell my English teacher that if she doesn't stop going over how to write a source page in MLA format and move onto Macabre, which the other classes finished last month and WE are the AP class (its CP here), then I'm gunna simply take over her class and start teaching Poe, Hemmingway, and Lewis Carroll.
I'm done messin around.
Anyone else feel that way?
Anyone else feel that way?
Does ANYONE else feel that way???
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Posted: Sat Mar 12, 2005 9:32 pm
wow, the best way to live your life is how you want to, that's my opinion
anyway, heh, all i feel like i need to accomplish in my life is to make enough money to raise a kid or two and put them through college, that's the best gift you can give anyone, being able to go to college and get out without debt
just suggestions
one thing you might wanna think about is, while you can't let ppl run over you, be considerate, it goes a long way, and since you seem to believe in God, make you piece with Him, or Her, if you need to
another idea, print that out if you don't have it written already, and read it every day,if you wanna change it, do so, and keep with it
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Posted: Sun Mar 13, 2005 5:21 am
hmm.....kids...i dunno....I don't want any kids right now. In my future, I mean...they suck out load. And as for being considerate, yeah, I do that, it's just that, I'm sick of being talked about while I'm not around.
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Posted: Mon Mar 14, 2005 12:10 pm
And I thought I had a bad life. stare
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Posted: Tue Mar 15, 2005 7:35 am
heh...its not all that bad...besides, I'm just tired of always agreeing with people and stuff when they seriously annoy the s**t out of me....
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Posted: Wed Mar 16, 2005 11:50 am
True but is there a reason why you're so ill-content? It's not like you HAVE to agree with everyone. Just find people you AGREE with.
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Posted: Mon Mar 21, 2005 7:49 am
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Posted: Tue Mar 22, 2005 7:39 am
Soul Release True but is there a reason why you're so ill-content? It's not like you HAVE to agree with everyone. Just find people you AGREE with.
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Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2005 7:49 am
*sigh* Damn, I reaallly hate my journalism class...too complicated....giving disks, not allowed to use disks, disks destroyed, ******** up deadlines, no paper for months on end, none of my articles get in because of the principle and her dogs in the class, crappy people write really crappy articles and never do ANY RESEARCH about their topic and I spend a month ahead of time and they get theirs in while I sit there typing, i mean...damn. At first it was cool, but this last issue, none of my EIGHT ******** articles got in. ********, dammit...
....grr.
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Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2005 8:57 pm
DAMN system, must destroy it, times like that make you understand anarchists...almost
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