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Jez said nothing, lost in her own thoughts. She couldn't believe that after all this time -13 years of fighting alongside him and 2 years of fighting against him. She would finally be free of Morgead, would never have to worry about seeing him again.
Something tugged at her at this thought and she wasn't sure if it was Morgead's soul or her own that was reacting to this.
She was doing this...to him...she was the only person he ever cared about...the only person he ever trusted...loved ...and she was...
She was hit with memories of Morgead with no warning and no way to block them -wasn't even sure if she wanted to block them out.
Meeting Morgead in Muir Woods, as children, running trough the streets all night jumping trough rooftops and playing games that only six year old lamia vampires could know, years later they're 10 and are still never seen without the other, they spar and play and talk, by they know each other's stories and why neither of them has parents (though Jez had her uncle at least ) Morgead at 12 growing angry and bitter at seeing that humans, vermin, the ones who according to what they'd been taught were below them, had things like family and homes when he being above them didn't have that luxury. (that shouldve really been her first clue) They're first big kill together -a stag in Muir woods, sharing the blood after the kill, the thrill of finding out they were soulmates and how they fit each other perfectly and how they'd known all along....
As if by defence mechanism her mind conjured up different images. Morgead after finding out she was helping humans, damming her for being half human herself, looking manic when he claimed only he could keep her safe and that this could still work, it could be like before.
His smirk as her team was slaughtered, people she'd worked with who had just started to believe she wasn't there to turn them in. Her cousin's head on her bedside table, out of everyone in her aunt's house ( her mother's human sister) he'd been the only one who truly trusted her -the fact that he was 10 probably had something to do with that. And Morgead had made sure he never made it to 11, had made sure the rest of the family lived to know it was because of her.
The images, as gruesome as they were, as awful as they were helped her steel herself for what had to be done.
This had to happen, this had to end.
She could feel Morgead trough the soulmate link, begging her to let him in. She could almost close er eyes and picture herself back home, years ago, before this started when they'd hunted and raced together content with one another.
She'd always been able to sense him, feel him inside her. Both during the good -when they were true soulmates, and the bad-when he'd gone ax-crazy on her.
Would she still be able to do so when his soul was bound?
His soul....his soul and her soul where conected had at one point been so intwined they were one and the same.
How would it be? She couldnt help but wonder. To go around with half her soul gone.

Derek was also pensive though not for the reasons Jez was -although they were along the same lines. He noticed Jez was pretty much gone at the moment and discreetly pushed her down to take a seat ( careful not to draw any attention to her as he knew she liked to keep her feelings private)
"Is this spellbind...." he trailed off not finishing that question. Was there a point to it? Would Jez get hurt by it? Of course he knew there was no way she wouldn't be hurt by it in some way or another. Not when Morgead and her were soulmates, wakened soulmates at that. It wouldn't kill her ( would it? ) that was all that mattered. He'd blow up all the other bridges when he got there.
"This spell bind" he said going for the second most important question he needed to know "Will Morgead be able to reach her? The soulmate link, it binds their souls, he's used it against us before." he glanced at Jez warily but vampire hearing or not she didn't seem to be regristering what was going on a the moment.
He didn't know what he wanted to hear, for Jez to have Morgead's precence torn from her, it could very well send her into shock. But to have Morgead's voice to have him ever present in her mind trough the conection...well she managed now but if he was trapped somewhere and could still talk to her that could not possibly be a good combination.
Either way he needded to know.

"You can't...Axl... we can't let you do that..." Jez finally seemed to be back with them and was staring at Axl shaking her head. She couldn't let anyone else endanger themselves because of her and Morgead. Enough of that had happened, too much of it.
They should have just killed Morgead when they could, even if she went with him. Better then, 2 less dangers to worry about. If she confronted him right now...go to a secluded are and call to him trough the link....
Jezebel if you so much as make one move towards anything that even resembles a door I will pump you so full of verbane and holy water you'll feel like you're in The Hangover.
Derek's voice roars in her mind with enough of a snarl to it to rival any vampire and it's enough to keep Jez where she was.

That was an idjit movie. She shot back though there was no bite in her words and she sounded like nothing more than a petulant child. Even now Jez refused to let someone else have the last word.

Derek smirked slightly at Jez's tone. She was acting a bit more like herself. That was good.
He turned sobered up soon enough, turning back to adress Axl and Marcus.
"That's a lot to risk for someone you dont know, if something happens to you because of us..." it was why they'd started running in the first place. So no one would be in danger or get hurt because of them. Of course Derek couldn't -wouldn't- decline the offer but he wanted to make sure Axl was sure he wanted to do this. It was a lot to ask of anyone let alone of someone they'd just met.
Then again 2 years ago, Jez had been a near-stranger to him and the moment he met her they wanted to kill each other. He'd only started helping her because of a favor to a friend and had in all honesty thought her a brat. Then he'd gotten to know her. And found out she was just that, a brat, a girl, a kid who reminded him too much of himself at times. When Morgead got too dangerous he'd dropped everything to go on the run with her and Alex. She wasn't someone he was helping for a friend anymore. She was his friend, he'd rather die than see her in any more pain.
Still to put someone at risk to meet his needs...something could go wrong, something could happen.
"Let's do it then" he found himself saying even if he felt he was using Axl, sure he'd offered but it was kinda like when someone offered you a million dollars, you shouldn't accept it.
In his mind he felt Jez agree urging him almost compelling him to take bac what he'd said.
We can't ask him that!
We didn't...he...
If Morgead finds out and pulls something...We can't let him!
Derek brought a hand up to his head sending Jez a warning look while trying to make sure no one else caught on to it. The last thought had been loud enough to make his head feel like the inside of a pinball machine. Luckily mental conversations didn't last nearly as much as verbal ones.
Morgead hasn't found us Jez in here yet, Axl's obviously powerful. Calm down.
Once he felt she was indeed calmer he sent another thought.
He made the offer, he has his own reasons. He's our only shot, we're not turning it down.
....
If something happens....
It'll be on me.
He cut off comunication, making it clear it was not up for debate. He met the last part, he'd made this descicion and anything that came from it would be on his watch, Jez had enough blame already.
"It's a hell of a risk, but your reasons are your own. If you're sure you wanna do this..."He let it hang there, if Axl was really up for this, he wasn't about to say no.