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 Posted: Tue Apr 22, 2008 11:44 pm
Mood: Recuperating from Unnecessary Stress
Song: Let Go [Accoustic Cover] (Boys Like Girls)
Yeah life is going pretty well right now =). Gone with the Wind was really good, I fully enjoyed it. And as for the aging thing, that's just something I've heard xD ! Ambre on Rock of Love proves that wrong I think, she's 37 and could have faked 28 or something.
indentThis week has been fun enough as well. On Wednesday I went shopping and ended up buying a shirt and prep shorts from American Eagle. The shorts were $50!! Dx that's a lot especially when I lack a job. I then bought the Boys Like Girls CD, which I haven't really given much of a chance yet. The song I'm listening to right now is actually not from their CD, I heard it elsewhere over the weekend. It seems good enough though, I look forward to seeing them will Avril... Back to shopping. I went to youth group, where Adam H. acted completely normal around me. Gooood.
indentThursday? Doesn't ring any bells. None. At. All. Think it was one of those TV-homework-movie-video game days. Eh. Well I had my piano lesson for one, which went pretty well I think.
indentFriday was fun. After school got out at 12:30 I met up with Megan and Caitlyn L in the art room because we were gonna go out to sushi together. Alexy and Jackie bailed at the last second, so it was just us, 2 of Megan's friends I kind of know, and these 2 guys I did not know at all. It was semi-awkward, but since I was seated between Caitlyn and Megan and then next to my kind-of friend Ashley it went well enough. After that we stopped by the mall to drop off all of Megan's friends so that Caitlyn, Megan and I could all go to Caitlyn's house. We hung around there a bit playing piano and whatnot until her friend Darren came over to hang out with us for a while. He's 19, apparently knew Emily from when he went to school, and is the ex-boyfriend of the Adam I had a crush on. When he left we decided to migrate to Megan's house to spend the night. Megan and I did random stuff there for about an hour until Caitlyn joined us (she had stuff to do at home first). Then Alexy finally joined us at about 8:30. Caitlyn, Megan and I played some piano and ate random crap until we realized that Lexy was missing. After she had been gone for about half an hour, I went to look for her. I finally found her up in Megan's upstairs room, talking on the phone relatively quietly to someone. When she saw me she gave me this look and said "just a minute!" so I left her alone. Half an hour later Megan goes up to see if she's finished with her call yet. Megan notices that she's talking kind of lovey dovey with a boy on the other line, and when she asked if it was her dad she said no. Lexy told her she'd be down in a minute, so Megan came back downstairs and related to us how Alexy had been talking to someone she was convinced was a boyfriend. We popped in "Resident Evil: Appocalyse" and waited for another half hour until Lexy FINALLY came downstairs. By then the 3 of us has decided that the caller's name was our business, seeing as she had been talking to him for an hour and a half at a friend's house. But when we asked her she dodged it and I was all "well you wouldn't hide it from us unless it was a juicy secret" and then she just started getting flustered and we started our movie. I actually didn't fall asleep during the film this time, but when we went upstairs everyone else was tired so I just ended up going to sleep anyways.
indentOn Saturday Megan and I woke up before Alexy but we decided not to look through her caller list. When she woke up we told her how considerate we were but she was all "I password protected my phone last night anyways". b***h. So cooked and ate and did whatever until about 12 when we decided to head over to Caitlyn's house, first splitting up to get ready. Alexy went straight home, Caitlyn Megan and I went to Safeway to buy two tubes of brownie batter and some gingerbread ice cream and then Megan and Caitlyn went back to Megan's house so Megan could shower first and I went home so I could shower and grab stuff. When I finally got to Caitlyn's house, Alexy was still at her house and Caitlyn was showering so Megan and I went over to Alexy's house (she lives 2 doors down from Caitlyn). She was seeming kind of moody so we just left her and went to the mall to buy Jamba Juice for Megan (thirsty), Caitlyn (asked for one), and Alexy (we felt we owed her one for bothering her so much about the guy). While there we ran into Kerah, and we talked to her for about 10 minutes. From her we found out that Alexy did in fact have a boyfriend, and Kerah only found out when she and Lexy had told Davy big secrets about them to find out why Davy got community service and almost got Juvy time (he stole a video game, apparently). Megan and I decided we didn't want her to tell us who it was because we wanted to hear it from her, but Megan did want to know the age and Kerah told us he was 14. I heard Kerah say James under her breath at one point, so I asked her if it was a James Lee at Evergreen and she said yes. So... now Megan and I know who it is. We decided that she didn't want to tell us because she was embarrassed that she was dating a slightly geeky 14 year old, but we still felt really betrayed that she wouldn't even fill us in on her ******** relationship status. I mean, she's been texting a mysterious someone for about 2 months and so now it's fairly obvious it was James and she's been hiding this from us for a while. Grrrrr! ANYWAYS. We went back to Caitlyn's and gave everyone their respective Jamba Juices. Darren came over again and we all hung out and stuff. Lexy finally joined us and we all went to Joanne's Fabrics to get some charcoals for Darren. When we got back to Caitlyn's we spent the night helping Darren with his art project and Alexy and Megan with their math projects. That night we played 10 fingers, truth or dare, and other such games, but as it was in the dark people didn't even notice when I put down fingers for awkward questions (Caitlyn and Darren kept targeting each other with bad things they knew about each other, and so they didn't notice when I put down my fingers for most of them). We finally went to bed in her giant basement.
indentSunday morning we all woke up and went our separate ways, Darren to work, Lexy to home, and Megan and I to church. It went well enough, considering the "Myth Busters" sermon theme of late that has been hella frustrating. I sat around church and talked for almost an hour, then I went over to the mall to join Megan (where she had been on a coffee date with this guy Caleb who had been way into her in 8th grade and had just asked her to coffee again on Saturday). We walked around a while until Kerah and Alexy joined us to walk around the mall. It was pretty fun. We went and saw "Prom Night", which was way predictable and funny at times but of course it still freaked me out at parts. Afterwards we walked around a bit more until Alexy and I went over to Kerah's house to watch "Beauty and the Beast". God, I love that movie! We watched all of the extras too so I learned a lot about it afterwards. After that I went home.
indentAs far as a mood capture for that weekend, I'll explain a few other things: Caitlyn was best friends with Adam Q (the one I liked), and so when Darren broke up with him she went to b***h him out only to find that she totally agreed with his reasoning. Adam found out she was hanging out with Darren and got all pissed and they've been on rocky terms ever since. The whole weekend Caitlyn got multiple phone calls and texts from Adam, basically drama about how he thought she didn't want him to help his boyfriend with this surprise thing for him and how he needed her to cover for his boyfriend who came from out of town to spend the night at his house (Caitlyn ended up lying to Adam's parents and telling them that the boyfriend stayed at her house). It ended well enough and Adam and Caitlyn got some things resolved, but she was still pissed at him and it was a big Adam hate fest with her and Darren. Also, I don't think Darren likes me so much: I mean, it's not like he dislikes me and he liked my sister and everything, but... he definitely seems to like Megan and Alexy a lot more. Which sucks because... I actually think I kind of like him. He's pretty cool, and on Saturday night I suddenly realized that he was really attractive (this weird mohawk thing made me think otherwise). The downside is that he was all explaining that the main reason he broke up with Adam was because Adam was too much of a woman: "When I date a guy I want him to be a guy, and when I date a girl I want her to be a girl, ya know?" I felt like that comment was directed somewhat at me because I act somewhat girly (not overbearingly or obnoxiously, but definitely more feminine than most guys), and it was probably evident I was digging him by the end of the night. Eh. I swear to God it's not that big of deal to me, I barely know him, just... it would be nice getting to know him with the possibility of dating him in the future, not just as a friend. Meh. I still like him as a person and am fine being a friend so whatever.
indentMonday was my first full day of school since Thursday before spring break. Daaaamn. Felt kinda long. I enjoyed the day well enough. After school I went to Taco Del Mar with Emily M and this girl Tia from Japanese and English, and we sat and talked and worked on math together for 3 hours. The whole purpose of the evening was to help Emily understand math but we actually just spent more time talking about nothing.
Today was a fun day. I presented my "Me" powerpoint in Viscom, and mine was by far the best. The teacher liked it most and it was the only one that the bitchy dumb girl Shellana complimented so it must have been quality. Plus it was the only one people thought was funny. Scooore ;D . In English we watched the first part of this movie called "A Doll's House", but the sound quality was so bad it was hard to understand. Megan and I literally spent the whole time sitting on the floor and laughing because we couldn't understand what people were saying and we were getting a really twisted plot from what we could understand. Caitlyn joined us about halfway in and that was cool. History was sort of a damper on my day, as it's the only class where people are reaaaally judgemental. Like, individually I'm fine with all the people in the class except about 4 people, but all together it's a very bitchy and mean atmosphere. I made a comment and got made the brunt of something didn't deserve. Fuuuuck Dx. Math I sat by Emily M and helped her with math again because Tasha was half dead. I then went home and literally watched about 4 hours of TV. Then I playud piano and spent about an hour tearing about my house looking for my license that was actually in my car the whole time buried in a Rook deck in the dashboard. Then I finished my Resume and here I am.
Tomorrow I plan to turn in my application to Starbucks with my resume and confront Alexy with Megan. I just... feel really hurt that she feels like hiding things from me. Apparently being her best friend for almost 3 years doesn't count for much because she won't even tell me when she gets a ******** boyfriend =).
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Posted: Thu May 01, 2008 8:10 pm
FUUUUUUUUUUUCK. I just lost, LITERALLY , an hour and a half of journaling. Because it was a long interesting week and I wrote what I thought about 15 people afterwards. So. I am officially switching to another place to journal, where (no offense to Clear D: ) some people might actually read this, and it won't BLOW THE ******** UP because the system logs me out. Maybe I'll totally whore myself out to myspace.
Anyways.
Mood before this message blew up: Good
Song before this message blew up: Never Dream Alone (Ashlee Simpson)
Tues-Fri@ school: worthless s**t
Friday night: went to arts walk with Megan, Ashley H, Kerah, and my dog Pippin. It was really fun. We walked Pippin, carried him, and even carried him in a purse around downtown. Hella fun. Ran into Caitlyn around 6, ran around doing whatever for 5 hours during which we met up and hung out with Emily M, Darren, Jackie, and other people at different times.
Saturday: Went shopping before Julia's party. Got Ashlee Simpson's new "Bittersweet World" CD which I think is surprisingly amazing. Got Julia $8.50 worth of dollar tree stuff which turned out to be her favorite present. Bought cream pie cookies and chocolate rolls. I went to Julia's party, which was ok but somewhat dull because I knew no one but her boyfriend Dan who obviously had bigger things to worry about at the party. Davy finally showed up after 7 hours and then I had lots of fun. Dan, Davy, Dan's best friend, Adam H, and this hot guy spent the night at Dan's house. Sunday morning I went home and got ready for church, then went home after church and wrote this giant journal for 6 hours.
Monday: Brought the cream pies into school for Eat Candy Club in science (Emily M and Gwen). After avoiding Tasha for weeks, she finally convinced me to let her watch "Carrie" and "1408" with me at my house. I promised myself to hold back and not to anything physical to re-establish boundaries with her, but of course it managed to get physical without intercourse or kissing. Somehow it still felt way more disgusting than cuddling with Vania in a friendly way ever feels. I'm gonna keep avoiding the b***h.
Tuesday: Brought in the chocolate rolls.
Wednesday: did a lot of fun s**t but I don't want to write it all out again. Gwen's birthday, bought her a ton of s**t at the Dollar Tree with Emily M and we put it in a huge gift bag. I had to help Gwen carry her many gifts around all day because of course they were all cumbersome. After that I went to the mall with Megan and Alexy. I bought a rainbow studded belt from the f** section of hot topic but it is actually cool. I also got Madonna's new "Hard Candy" album and emo jeans for $14. After that I went to Gwen's birthday dinner at JJ North's Buffet with Emily M and Tia. Long story short it was one of the funniest nights ever. We got about 15 bowls of desserts between us, ate what we wanted of it, and then dumped the remainders in the rest of Emily's massive, unfinished salad. Gwen and I were gonna pay Emily and Tia $50 each if they could finish the mess, but they only got about 8 bites into it before they decided it wasn't worth it. We also went to Baskin Robbins and Target. WAAAY more fun than I'm making it sounds.
Today: Went to school. Went straight home and hung out with [my sister] Emily and played Super Smash Brothers Brawl with her, during which Tasha called me 4 times and texted me once. I told her I was gonna be at home and one of the calls was to my home phone and I ignored it so she should have gotten the message. But no. She called a 5th ******** time and I finally answered but I turned down all the plans she proposed. Then I picked up Joel and wasted an hour and a half of my life trying to blog on this shitty site =) . And now I'm gonna go do something productive because it's been so long now.
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Posted: Sun May 11, 2008 11:24 am
Mood: Quite Good
Song: Cry Me A River (Justin Timberlake)
indentHeh... I actually tried to post again, and this time it blew up because I pressed "ctrl w" by accident. What the ********. Seriously. Basically, here's how it goes:
Friday: I study for the SAT with Caitlyn. Things go well enough with that, even if it was scary. I ask her about a guy that knows her that myspaced me the night before. She told me he was this guy who dated Adam Q's exboyfriend so we made the assumption he thought I was gay and was trying to get to know me.
Saturday: I took the SAT. I ended up cheating a lot... not as in looking at Johnny's test or googling s**t on my phone, I just finished a lot of portions out of their alotted time frames... I did really well on the math and essay I think, while the writing and reading were more mixed. After that I went to Kerah's house for 4 hours and played Mario. Later I went to a party with Gwen, which was hella boring until 2 1/2 hours into it when someone finally brought beer. We each had enough to get somewhere between buzzed and drunk. We played Rock Band half drunk, with Gwen and I alternating between singing and drums and other people playing the guitars. When we had sobered up we left.
Sunday: No real recollection, honestly. Feel like I did something but I may just have stayed home and played Smash Bros with Emily and Joel.
Monday: I picked up the Vanilla Coke Zero I left at Kerah's house. We thought it would be lame if I just left so we decided to walk to downtown. It was about half an hour to Artisan's coffee house and back, and since her dad called her asking her to come home only 5 minutes after getting there it was technically pointless, but... I had fun enough. It was really nice talking to her again.
Tuesday: I finally did the movie night thing with Tasha. I've been avoiding it, but I decided to just go and kill this whole thing before it gets out of hand. Of course we were gonna watch it in her room :/ ... when I walked in it had already been sprayed down with whatever perfume she had, and when I came in she closed the curtain, turned out the light, and closed the door. Actually, nothing really happened, both because I sat in such a way that it couldn't and her younger siblings kept bothering us and opening the door. Near the end of the movie she put her head on my arm but I stiffened up so she got the message and got off. Or I thought she got the message. She texted me right after I left asking for another movie night. Oh brother... Well we exchanged a series of texts something like this:
Me: "Yeah idk if I'm open but I'll check. I'm glad things didn't get physical at all, I just wanna be friends. Like with no kissing or touching or anything xP"
Her: "Ok yeah we can have whatever kind of relationship u want 2 have ^^"
Me: "Yes, and I just want to be friends"
Her: "Ok however you want it to be wink "
Me: "Yeah with no physical contact"
Her: "as you wish ^^" and after I don't respond, "Sorry I'm not a boy (lol ^.^)
Me: *basically go off on her about how we don't have to have sex to be friends*
Her: "Ok just want to know I seriously value you as a person ^^"
I honestly think she got the message... things are better between us now.
Wednesday: I went to the mall with Alexy and Megan, then I went to Taco Bell to eat with Alethea, Davy, and Beth. I went to church to hang out with Vania, it was fun enough.
Thursday: I think there was some massive paper due today? Whatever. I went to a job interview at Jamba Juice. I thought it went well enough, but... who knows. Afterwards I hung out with Alexy and Megan, shopping at the mall and watching "Iron Man" until we went to Megan's house to spend the night (her parents are out of town for 2 weeks). It took a while to convince my mom to let me stay, but hey, I was gonna go to bed on time...
Friday: After school I went home for an hour, then went straight to Jackie's house. Alexy and Kerah were the next people to show up, about 2 hours later xD. It was fun enough up until Kerah and Alexy left to spend the night at Megan's house (I was not invited... :] ). Then I watched "Fight Club" in silence at her house; it was a really good movie, but I went home after it was over.
Saturday: I went over to Alethea's house at 12. We FINALLY beat the final battle of Tales of the Abyss on Unknown difficulty, and Alethea got to play Tales of Dragon Buster on there for the first time. Fun stuff. Alethea played some FFX, and her friends (and my kind-of friends who I know through her) Preston, Stephanie, and Becca all watched "Death Note" with her mom. It was really good. The game plan was to go to a huge party with Gwen, but she told me the band cancelled so there was no point. So... I decided to see "Speed Racer" with that Justin kid who hit me up on myspace a week ago. We had been talking on myspace for a few days and on Thursday we exchanged numbers and so had been texting since. He told me he'd pick me up from my house, so I went home and waited for him.
Haha, I don't know how it works out, but I always get those loud outgoing guys interested in me, and I think it will be a breeze talking to them but they shut down and I end up talking more than they do. Happened with both Charles and Kevin. So one of the first things I say is "Uh yeah, so I'm really bad at making conversation... just apologizing in advance". And my ending note was "Sorry if you were really bored, I'm just not very good at talking... so yeah". Honestly It was an awkward car trip both ways. I tried making conversation but it mostly just died. In the movie we ended up holding hands which was nice, but yeah I was glad when I got home. He texted me later apologizing for how quiet he was, so it was good that it was a mutual thing not "omg that kid can't talk".
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