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She watched everything silently, watched how he poured out his soul to her in the most he has ever really told her about his concerns and what he strongly felt. When he knelt down, she set her hand on his head, running his fingers through his hair. When he stood back up, she looked into his eyes and saw the tears. "You are not a bad person because you have a big heart. This causes you to love many in different ways, if fate has a problem with it then oh well. I am not sure I believe in fate."

"You know that I have died before and that was not your fault. I have come close to death before. You know that you saved me many times on that battlefield, so you can save the living. You did not kill anyone, and even if you feel that you did is that not in the past? Technically it is my fault that my previous love died and I lived on. Not all can bring back the dead, but you saved me. That is little consolation for your soul, accept that maybe things change." She gave a shuddering breath as some tears came to her as well. "Did you know that I blamed myself for you taking hits for me? I told myself I was being reckless and that caused you to defend me. I still believe that. Guilt consumes us about the ones we love, whether we should blame ourselves or not."

She moved both of her hands to cradle his face as her gaze remained warm with his. "How are you so sure that it will all happen again? History will repeat itself, but then it will get bored as well and fate will find another soul to torture. Why do you always worry about the future so when we have not done anything with the present?" The tears rolled now as she thought about losing another that she held to her heart, "I love you. I do not want you to suffer by fighting, but if you die, I do not know what I would do but maybe die slowly inside too." She fought with herself, maybe it would have been better if she had died and not caused him so much pain and worry by falling in love.

She kissed him back and made sure to keep him that way for a little while. He was not thinking so hard anymore. "Did anyone ever tell you, you think and talk a lot?" She sighed and looked away slightly unsure, "I heard about Aurahkah..." When he said Eclipse it really through her off and she returned a questioning look to him. "That desparate and confused?" She held onto him, not wanting him to go anywhere.

"A guilty heart causing you to kiss everyone in sight?" She breathed deeply in and out, sure yet unsure. It all still confused her but she could not ignore what he said. She smiled and kissed his big mouth. "Well at least I know how to shut it when need be. I will be sure to give Eclipse your compliment however." A laugh came for the first time in a while, "You have more time for other things... and sure, is it wrong that I do not wish to part with you yet? I mean if you want me to go..." She pulled away some, then took him seriously. Instead of going outside, she shoved him into the nearby room, which happened to be his and went in after him.

She laughed and looked at him with a slight apologetic look. "Oops sorry, I was uninformed, and I just can not help myself sometimes." Her gaze swept over everything as she shook her head, "Paranoia... did I just make things difficult?"

She nodded, "There are resident thieves here... As proper as it was to warn me never to look in the spell book, you might wish to tell me why so that something like this does not happen again." Understanding the serious look in his eyes she was not going to press that subject anymore. She smirked at him, "So you are caught in your own traps? My that is a hazard, or are you saying that you can not reset them for a few hours for a reason? I do not know exactly what I should do with you..." She brushed one hand against his cheek and maintained his gaze moving to touch the tips of his ears.

"Ah, and what a perfect name for her. So I guess you are weakened?" She laughed, "Why should I just give away a purr? A true one comes naturally, but if you want a forced one..." She brought herself close to his ear and purred deep into him, twitching her tail as she played.

"Uh huh." She removed her hand and plopped on the floor, still curious and looking about her. "So among other things, you forget what is so simple that you see before you?" With a sigh she still thought about recent actions. Maybe they were his feelings put to life then, subconscious let out by an experience and a revelation.

Hm, good answer. What happened to the days when she looked at all sides of an issue? Had she become that entangled in the emotions? "I think we know well that the past can not be changed, not with words or actions, it simply is. I guess it is all just still fresh in my mind." Looking into his eyes made everything different, it made most other things melt away accept for one feeling.