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Yeah theres something about me, if i dont feel like doing something i just stop instantly. I dont feel that way about smoking yet. I did however tell maddie I never wanna talk to her again last night. I feel quite relieved as it was an emotionally taxing friendship. We had a huge disagreement on abortions and all that considering she found out she may be pregnant, and after everything she preaches about not quitting or running away she said to me finitely that if she is, she is getting an abortion... Quite hypocritical or her. I dont care what the circumstance, unless its a rape baby, which this is not, she just couldnt keep her legs closed. So basically I told her she is going to commit murder in order to shirk the responsibility of what shes done. I lost all respect for her and even loathe her now, theres no chance of me being nice so why continue to talk. Two years of friendship and more thrown away on her childishness and obtuseness. NOW i feel like i wasted my time all along razz (not to mention money...) Anyway I am still blessed with close friends who i dont see much now but will in a week or so ^__^ I dont feel bad about what went down, actually kinda relieved and well now im just sitting here feeling more and more creative... hmmm. More to come on this and that later doot!

I won't comment about the abortion part, because I have very strong opinions on it. Don't think of any relationships you had, or have as a waste time, because you've gained experiences and memories that make you who you are. Atleast that's what I think sweatdrop You're feeling creative? does that mean we get more glimpses of stories?? blaugh

I know, but it's worth a try.

Yeah I know, You're right about that. Its just that when someone is treating you like s**t for little to no reason you kinda question why you were with them in the first place. I'm not sure what's going to come of it. Im not talking to her at the moment. She left me an email saying that if i were going to throw everything away she has use for some stuff she gave me and would like it back and said that if theres anything that i want back to let her know and she will give it back. Im not one to take back gifts ya know? Seems kinda like a shallow cheap thing to do. Though my roomate told me I should get back the ring i got her since thats worth like 400 bucks and im poor. I just dont know. I don't particularly want to but my stomach and the new notches in my belt say to blaugh Undecided. LOL I just got home from work and im a little pissed cause i got cut so early... I am greedy and want money and they are keeping me from that razz

How's things for everyone else?

I'm doin ok. Kinda up and down in the relationshop department. I'd let her keep the ring.. it signifies how things were when they were good. That's something you should both remember. At least she still has your ring.. when I got Love a $200 necklace, she lost the pendant after the first week. xp She used to/still does beat herself up over it.. but I've never blamed her for it.

Thinking about that kind of s**t hurts.. but feels good at the same time. I'm not sure if I like it.. sweatdrop

Mhm and it would be nice to actually have a bass that i had to sell because i needed to make rent after buying said ring too.. razz

Anyhow, last night was a fruitful night for thinking and creativity. Look forward to some stories soon I think. I also got my overall ideas together for my tattoos I plan on getting this next year comming up. Ill post some pics sometime of the drawings once I've put them into final draft. Basically Im designing or rather plotting the tattoos that will be the top layer to the sleeves I plan on getting eventually. But on my arms I am getting tats that are meaningful. The full names of my grandfather and father, since i am named after them and their date of birth and death since I'd like to honor them. Im getting a band of ninja turtles probably just their heads made into a bracelet just above my right elbow. motorcylce chain bracelets around my wrists maybe and a wooden cross over my heart and my Grnadmother's name on my right arm with something symbolizing her around it with her birthday and date of death too. The motorcycle chains around my wrists are another reminder of my father. Also considering getting a curse mark on the back of my neck where it meets the shoulder. . Thats what I have so far. Still considering it and if I still like the ideas in 5 or 6 months I'll start getting inked. Also considering some hair options. Like colors and styles. Plain long blonde hair is getting a bit boring. Though its still pretty ^__^

So yeah thats one of my new years resolutions, to get some tats and get my teeth fixed. To work out a bit and get slimmer was last years resolution and its been accomplished ^__^ Im gonna repeat it every year until im happy with myself razz

Anyone else wanna share a resolution or two?

Sorry, guys, but won't be online as much anymore. gonk I'm more busy now that I was when I first joined... I'll drop by every now and then, tho. PM me if you want, but don't hold your breath for a quick response. Sorry. gonk

hope to see you sometime though. Well you dont have to make resolutions and whatnot. ^__^ Its still fun ^__^