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 Posted: Wed May 18, 2011 3:16 pm
Marcus D. Samuel -Silence-Different-Musician The darkness closes in on me, I surrender to it's sweet voice calling out to me, and let it take over me.  On this bed I lay, losing everything
I can see my life passing me by SilenceBefore Marcus could even get close to the town that the hotel was a little a ways from he turned back on his heel and took off with the same quick pace back towards the hotel. He needed to apologize, he'd beg, he do anything. He just wanted to forget anything had happened. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." he muttered again, the guilt crushed him like he been run over by a train or was forced to drag a giant boulder up hill on his back. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." but this time when he said the words them came out choked. He hadn't cried since he was twelve and he wasn't going to start again now. He wished he could crawl under that rock right about now and just rot into nothing. He wished he was nothing, anything was better then this.
When he got back to the hotel he broke out into a run, he ran up the stairs back to the room, running inside quickly. "Natalie-" the name slipped from his lips without thinking but he stopped himself from saying anything else. She was gone. He didn't have to ask anyone that, he saw the guitar pick on the ground. It made his stomach twist into a knot and he felt back against the door. "I'm sorry, Selcia. I'm sorry..." he wanted to say more, he wanted Spencer to be there. How could he of let this happen? How could he of let her walk right out? He felt disgusted with himself. He loved the guitarist to death, she was one of the first people next to Selcia that he had met before the band even started. How could he of let her walk out? How could he have called her cruel? He was the cruel one. The guilt slammed into him again, practically crushing him this time. Was it all too much or just not enough
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare There's no where to hide, in the dark. There was a girl I knew once, she told me I was blessed with a great gift. I laughed, because I think I was blessed with a curse.
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Posted: Wed May 18, 2011 7:01 pm
ʌɾɪɪ ƅʅʌƙє "One must take a leap and dare to make music, the fear of failure be damned." Arii couldnt tell what to do.. She stood back a little, in shock along with everyone else. "What the hell do you think you are doing?!" Arii screamed after Spencer, chasing her, stretcheing her legs even faster, and even farther, she wasnt gonna let her go alone, no after losing one person already."Spence- WAIT!" By the time she caught up to her she had her arms out, pulling Spencer back to her.. When she turned back around, Arii was dangling her pick in her face"I am so sorry. You cant leave Spence. Not without anyone. You're crazy."When it starts getting tough, make faces."
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Posted: Wed May 18, 2011 7:10 pm
Natalie E. Spencer I’ll never fail again...  Brother “Crazy isn’t the word I would use.” Spencer said slowly, her eyes looking over Arii. Why had she come for her? Why had she followed her. Better yet, how had Spencer not heard her? Again she was cursing herself. Be more careful, Natalie. If you can’t hear someone following you at full pace, probably shouting your name, you’re going to get yourself killed out there. “I’m not wanted there. Didn’t you hear Marcus? Or are you deaf?” Spencer pulled sharply away from Arii, shaking her head and folding her arms across her chest. “Besides. Even if you did actually like me, you’re the only one. And why would I come back to a group who all hates me or thinks I’m a cold-hearted S.O.B? Answer me that, Arii.”
Spencer sighed. She just didn’t get it. Arii was just too soft to understand the evil in people. The darkness inside people. She was too nice, too sensitive, to dang optimistic. Not saying that Spencer didn’t absolutely love the girl to death, but she just didn’t see in her what the others saw. A cold blooded snake. “Besides.” Spencer plucked the pick out of Arii’s hand. “Why did you pick this up? It’s worthless. I should just snap it. A bearer of bad memories, nothing more.” But Spencer couldn’t bring herself to snap it. Her thumb rubbed he familiar blue shape before pocketing it. “Why did you come after me?” She asked finally with a sigh. “You should know better than to think that I’m coming back.”
...I’ll keep you out of danger
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Posted: Wed May 18, 2011 8:16 pm
 ◤ I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car I am super star and I don't care who you are.◥ This is my world all ravaged and torn,With a taste of your lips, I'm on a rideStruck down by Sickness, Famine and War.You're toxic, I'm slipping underThis is my Hope, radiant and glowing,With a taste of a poison paradiseSaved by an angel, my spirit and his birth.I'm addicted to you, don't you know that you're toxic?◣ I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car I am super star and I don't care who you are.◢ 【Selcia Evens】✘-Singing ✘-Protective ✘-Frustrated ☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆
ZydrateA coy smile crossed his lips when he heard the other explanation a nod of his head making it know that he had heard it was then he wished he could make himself deaf. Screaming his gaze fixed on Marcus and then shifted to Spencer as she retorted and then the slamming of the door before the softer click from Spencer's departure. Selcia simply sat there his eyes fixed on the door, Spencer wasn't alone Arii had followed her however he stood to move to the door as Marcus appeared once more as the other simply stated sorry Selcia couldn't stop himself as he pulled the other into a tight hug the tears from the long bottled up guilt he himself felt rushing out along with the other emotions long repressed.
Though he stood taller then the other he almost slunk down so he could simply stand there. "Is this family the fragile?" he asked softly he knew it was somethign that needed to be said but he couldn't stop the pain that fluttered through his own chest at the words. "Lets find her then skip breakfast pack our things an go somewhere new, somewhere away from here." Selcia stated softly thought it was a pleading tone his fingers coiling into Marcus's shirt as the tears continued to fall the black and red eyeliner starting to run due to them.
This was Selcia at perhaps his weakest, he knew he had to be strong for them but at this moment his family fighting he couldn't stop the break down of the walls that held everything even if it meant he would have to pick up the broken pieces. The years of teasing, his mother never being home along with the time spent being all alone in the home he had grown up in, all of those fell through leaving him clinging to the other just wanting to piece back together his family, the government would pay, the anger at attack his family was once more starting to grow and with out the dampening effects of the other emotions it would be a ferocious thing indeed.
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x Blue Nightingale x Crew
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Posted: Wed May 18, 2011 10:05 pm
Luna. N. Warner.  all this time being so happy, she would never ha through she would cry right now and yet she did, luna was crying on a baench. Not crying too loud but a normal light cry. " mommy..... im sorry... i tryed my best... but everyone is getting mad, im trying my best to smile but i cant anymore mommy.... " Luna whispered to herself and trying to rub her tears away, trying to smile once but be everyone she tryed, luna would fail. " i wished i told them... but i dont want too... " another mutter to herself before getting up onto her feet and walking up to the swings, she could hear the squeek from the metal and knew where the swing was. Luna gently sat down and just started to swing high. She remember when she frist been on a swing, her father pushed her so high luna cryed because she could not see and it was scareing her but over time luna kept on trying the swing and not being so high just feels like everything was just going away from her life and everything would be happy again. Luna was swinging for a little bit because she heard Spencer and Airr so she jumped off the swing when she stopped and gently made her way to spencer and Airr " hay... " her voice was light and kind like before because she was alone to think for a little bit. " dont go...spencer dont... i need you.. i know you pushed me out the way and i understand that your just up set but we all need you spencer, if you go out there alone you might end up missing like the drummer, please " Luna gently sat next to spencer by the tree " i never told anyone this before and i never told my family but... im blind but i can see sound waves thats how i can see by the sound " she smiled at spncer then at Airr. " Airr its okie to cry but you need to understand that you need to be brave, i care for you all, hay im like a mother of the band trying to keep everyone together but anything would had happen to you spencer i would never forgive myself " gently smiling she took spencer hand, when she find it and holded it as she didnt need anyone to disappear from her like and she didnt want spncer to run away. " we need to stick together because we need eachother even if we hate each others guts now and then. " Luna said hoping her motherly love would help spencer to come back to the band because really she would not be so happy with out her friends even if they might not like luna she loved them no matter what. ╔══╗♫
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Posted: Thu May 19, 2011 2:20 pm
Marcus D. Samuel -Silence-Different-Musician The darkness closes in on me, I surrender to it's sweet voice calling out to me, and let it take over me. On this bed I lay, losing everything
I can see my life passing me by SilenceWhen Marcus felt Selcia pull him into a hug, he hugged him back. The tears he had been fighting for so long blurred his vision but he refused to let them out of his eyes. He wouldn't cry. He had to be brave, he had to be strong. Not just for the people around him but for himself. If he wasn't brave or strong then the world everything he had done up to this point would crumble. But even so, he could help the few tears that had escaped.
It was then he realized that his friend was crying. It was close to shocking him, Selcia never cried. He never should any sign of weakness or any kind of emotion that made him weak. If he cried then things where worse then Marcus had thought. The guilt was back again, crushing him with full power. He felt horrible, how could he of let any of this happened? How could he of yelled at Spencer the way he did?
"Don't cry Selcia. It'll be alright." he muttered, hugging him slightly tighter. "I'm sorry, please don't cry." he said quietly, he pulled back this time to look up at him. "Your eyeliner is running." he said softly as if he could somehow lighten the mood. "I'm sorry." he muttered again when the guilt crashed into him once more. He felt like crying once more. He wanted to find Spencer and beg for her forgiveness. Beg her to come back, to where she belong. The hate he felt towards himself was unbelievable. How could he do that? He loved the girl, he loved everyone. They were family and they were suppose to stick together. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry." he said again, it was to much for him anymore. Was it all too much or just not enough
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare There's no where to hide, in the dark. There was a girl I knew once, she told me I was blessed with a great gift. I laughed, because I think I was blessed with a curse.
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Peanut_Butter_Sandwhich Captain
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Posted: Thu May 19, 2011 2:43 pm
ʌɾɪɪ ƅʅʌƙє "One must take a leap and dare to make music, the fear of failure be damned." She shook her head and laughed as soon as she realized how silly it was to be hurt by what Spencer had to say. "Okay honey, you are insane. You *are coming back and you *are loved. You cant take Marcus seriously, we're all just upset and worried about her.. getting lost." She looked up and smiled at Luna, "Please tell her that we do love her and that she needs to come home. You're right, its insane to be anywhere without numbers..." She looked Spencer in the eyes, hoping she'd just walk home, and not have to pull her back with Luna."Now lets go, before some freak finds us screaming...""When it starts getting tough, make faces."
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Posted: Thu May 19, 2011 4:42 pm
Natalie E. Spencer I’ll never fail again... Brother “Are you both stupid?” Spencer asked angrily. She stood up, shaking her head. Why did they keep insisting upon it? Why did they keep telling her to come back. This entire thing was ridiculous. Just another reason she was better off without them. None of them could accept simple facts of life. “I’m not coming back. Get that through your skulls.” Her voice was cold but not raised. “The last thing I need is people clinging onto me and dragging me somewhere I don’t want to be. We all know what happens then, and I doubt any of you want that. Because, just face it, it wouldn’t be very pretty.” Spencer took a few steps back, away. “So you two enjoy crying and hugging and being the way you are. And I’ll be the way I am. I’ll take care of myself.” Spencer turned around fully, shoving her hands into her pockets.
She stopped for a moment, shaking her head. “And Luna.” She said slowly. “I don’t need a mother. I’ve never had one. And I don’t intend to start now.” Spencer’s fists clenched in her pocket and she broke into a run, threading through the park trees and back onto the streets. Why didn’t they just understand that she needed some time before she even considered coming back? Even though she would have to be totally out of her mind to go to that awful place. But time was needed. For anyone. Well, perhaps not everyone. Perhaps not the people who were too soft, weak minded, and spineless to actually make decisions by themselves.
Spencer closed her eyes for a moment, stopping in the middle of the sidewalk. A sound barrier. Away from all the senseless noise and idle chatter. Spencer opened her eyes, sighing a bit in satisfaction. They could all hear her, but she could hear no sound from them. She turned down a back alley, deciding that staying away from people would probably be best. Harder to find her, harder for people to try to force her into things she didn’t want to do. “None of them understand, do they?” Spencer sighed, looking up at the sky. “They never will. They’re all so different from me. So strong or soft. One or the other. I’m… I’m so weak. Yet I have this strong façade. I don’t think they even can fathom it.”
...I’ll keep you out of danger
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Posted: Thu May 19, 2011 5:02 pm
ʌɾɪɪ ƅʅʌƙє "One must take a leap and dare to make music, the fear of failure be damned." She widened her eyes, scowled and threw her words back twice as hard.."Maybe you're right. We dont need rude girls with us dragging us down. Have fun on your own Natalie. We shouldnt've even came Luna, she clearly has nothing." She turned and started walking, looking back to tell her one last thing,"I actually wish you'd understand people do like you, you cant even except yourself enough to see people had a reason to like you." "When it starts getting tough, make faces."
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Posted: Fri May 20, 2011 4:02 am
Luna. N. Warner. Luna was standing on her feeting hearing spencer talk and it hurt her, you know it really did but then she could not hear spencer anymore, she could not see the sound way anymore and luna was scared. Luna gently turned to Airr " go get marcus please maybe he cant get spncer to change her mind im going to go after her... i dont want spencer to be alone " Luna said before running off to find spncer. Luna was in the allyway when as she did hear spncer sound wave comeing from here " spen... " luna stopped when two big guys comeing up to her she tryed to back off but one of them grabbed her arm " hey there pritty girl, what you doing here " one of the guy say, the one that grabbed her arm just grabbed the other one and luna was so scared right now she wished she never left home " l-let me go...i scream! " she said trying so har to pull away from the guys grep but he was too stronge. " Spencer HELP! " she yelled before getting hit in the stomach making luna pass out. " stupid girl.... she thinks someone is in this ally way.. just us up " both males laughed as one of them picked luna upand putting her under his arms. ╔══╗♫
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x Blue Nightingale x Crew
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Posted: Fri May 20, 2011 9:12 am
◤ I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car I am super star and I don't care who you are.◥ This is my world all ravaged and torn,With a taste of your lips, I'm on a rideStruck down by Sickness, Famine and War.You're toxic, I'm slipping underThis is my Hope, radiant and glowing,With a taste of a poison paradiseSaved by an angel, my spirit and his birth.I'm addicted to you, don't you know that you're toxic?◣ I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car I am super star and I don't care who you are.◢ 【Selcia Evens】✘-Singing ✘-Protective ✘-Frustrated ☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆
ZydrateAs the other returned the embrace more tears had spilled. They slowly stopped as the bottled emotions ran out and he only nodded softly when the other told him it would be alright, and Selcia agreed he would make it right if he had to drag Spencer back kicking and screaming. But as that thought ended he only heard the last part of Marcus's comment on his eyeliner. he blinked confusion running across his face for a moment before it hit him, a soft tentative smile. "I should fix it then we are dragging everyone home." he stated softly knowing full well that he would have to drag Spencer back. "And," a pause came from him as he noted that even Luna was no longer there. "Don't tell them I cried, it will likely make things worse."
He stated softly, he didn't want them to know he felt that if they knew he could no longer be their pillar of support it was perhaps a petty fear but it bothered him non the less making his way to his room he quickly cleaned up the messy eyeliner before once more applying it making it appear like he had never cried, there was no red puffiness that came form rubbing there was however a runny nose that was remedied by a tissue. making his way back into the room he gave a soft smile once more before placing his wallet into his front pocket, how he got it in there puzzled most, and then he plucked up his keys and put those into his other pocket. "Lets go."
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Posted: Fri May 20, 2011 1:13 pm
Natalie E. Spencer I’ll never fail again... Brother “Stupid words. I told you to leave me alone.” Spencer replied hotly. She hated it when this happened. Some words got stuck inside her soundproof bubble, bouncing around, taunting her, making her feel emotions she tried to block away. In this case, it was Arii’s last words to her. ‘We don’t need rude girls with us, dragging us down.’ Spencer shook her head. I don’t drag them down. She tried to console herself. I didn’t tell them to hold on to me. I didn’t tell them to listen to me. Never. Perhaps it hurt the worst that this was Arii. This was the girl she had shared her room with since she had been taken into their little dysfunctional group. She had thought, out of anyone, she was surly the closest with her. ‘You can’t even accept yourself enough to see...’ That one hurt, perhaps even more. Though, deep down, Spencer knew it was true, she still felt like she had to defend herself. She didn’t hate herself. She accepted herself. More than a lot of people, she could bear herself. But the more she thought about those words, the more they started to pound into her, knock her around and make her want to crumple to the ground. She didn’t know what to think anymore, what to believe anymore.
Spencer couldn’t take the pounding words anymore, so she had to let the sound flow back in to her ears. If the words didn’t go away entirely, they were at least muffled, buried under the various other sounds, though they were rather far away since she was entirely alone in the ally. Or at least, that’s what she thought, until she heard her name being shouted. She turned around, seeing the little blonde being picked up. Being put into a vehicle. Spencer cursed, sprinting down the ally and back onto the street. But the car blended in. She hadn’t thought to look it over to try to find it. “I told you not to follow me. Now look what you’ve done!” Spencer exclaimed, shaking her head, her thoughts whirring franticly. Without really thinking about it, Spencer was sprinting to the hotel. Marcus, Selcia, anybody. They needed to find her. “this is all your fault.” She huffed. “Stupid, Natalie, stupid!”
...I’ll keep you out of danger ((Will someone eat me if I change my picture?))
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Peanut_Butter_Sandwhich Captain
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Posted: Fri May 20, 2011 2:46 pm
Marcus D. Samuel -Silence-Different-Musician The darkness closes in on me, I surrender to it's sweet voice calling out to me, and let it take over me. On this bed I lay, losing everything
I can see my life passing me by SilenceNodding, Marcus only waited while Selcia went to fix up his eyeliner again. He wiped his eyes, he walked into the kitchen and splashed some water into his face trying to make the redness from his tears disappear. When he dried his face he didn't have to look at a mirror to know it probably still looked like he had been crying. He sighed almost in defeat before he walked out of the kitchen just as Selcia had come out, his eyeliner fixed. It hadn't even looked like he had been crying and Marcus had to admit he was slightly impressed with his friend's work. "Okay." he agreed and opened the door of the hotel room and slipped into the hall way. He waited for Selcia before he started down the hall, he hope Spencer hadn't gotten to far. Just thinking about her made the guilt come back and hang over his shoulders, he knew he would have to get down on his hands and knees this time. Was it all too much or just not enough
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare There's no where to hide, in the dark. There was a girl I knew once, she told me I was blessed with a great gift. I laughed, because I think I was blessed with a curse.
((Possibly...no. I'm just joking. Of course you change your picture!))
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Posted: Fri May 20, 2011 3:08 pm
Luna. N. Warner. Luna was so scared when she gently woke up but didnt open her eyes. She could hear two no... there three people now in this van one close by her and two in the in the frant of the van " look why did we take this girl in the frist place?... " one person said then the person that was driving said something next " we getting payed, some guy in a black outfit said that they needed this girl and the other kids but he wanted us to take them one at a time. " luna tryed her best not to open her eyes ans scarem. " guys.... " she though to scared in her life and that she was blind it was even more scarey. Luna just hear what was going around her and it seems that they stopped because she could not hear the van moving and then birds, she can hear birds and then there was something going on outside... like something being building people working to make a house or something. Luna gently pulled out her phone and started to text to Murcus. ' Help... people took me, im close to a construction site, might be taking me into an abandoned houses or something please help..... im so scared.... ' she did her best to text the text because as she was about to send one of the men opened the side door and picked up luna and really she hoped that the text been sended. ╔══╗♫
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Posted: Fri May 20, 2011 5:01 pm
Natalie E. Spencer I’ll never fail again...  Brother Spencer’s feet pounded against the pavement. She had never been much of a runner, or much for endurance, either. Put she was willed on by the thoughts of Luna. And those men. Spencer shivered. They could just be some street thugs… or… She didn’t want to think about the other, more likely, options.
She finally reached the hotel, running towards the room. She nearly crashed into Marcus, but managed to stop the split second before they collided. She took a couple of quick steps backwards. She was working hard to catch her breath, her hand on her chest. “Luna.” She breathed, shaking her head a bit. She focused her eyes on Selcia instead of Marcus. She didn’t want to see him even right now. She was still mad at him, no matter what happened. The jerk. “Two guys.” Spencer gulped down the air, finally pulling herself together. “They took her. Into a car.” Spencer shook her head again. How could she be so stupid? Putting everyone in danger. If only they had just let her go. That’s all she wanted. “We have to find her.” Spencer’s mind shot back to Arii. No. She was alone, now. She had better be safe. Spencer shook her head. “I didn’t know what to do. They just. Drove off.”
...I’ll keep you out of danger
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