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L Lawliett XIII Vice Captain
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 Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 1:14 am
 Lyon Raptus
The Grey Eyed PurebloodLyon straightened himself from the post and sauntered on over beside the girls. "Be confident! Be brave! Be bold! Those other people are just jealous of your gorgeous, unique hair and eyes. Hell, even some of us are." he said with a big, goofy grin, motioning to the other girls. "Flaunt your stuff Vanessa! No need to hide! And if they still can't see straight, clobber some heads! I'll back ya up any time." he finished in a cheery tone, cracking his knuckles as if he was ready for a fight. Honestly he was. He hadn't had a good spar since the battle with Lucas a few days past.
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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 1:15 am
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Something shifted in Litha - the girl was hurting herself. She had to do something. She lunged forward and grabbed the girls wrist, stopping her from digging her nails into her skin. "We're not lying. I'm not lying." She met the girl's eyes. "You have to try to believe us," she said, wishing she possessed the power of suggestion. She's in so much pain... The thought physically hurt Litha. For some reason, she felt fiercely protective of those around her. Innocent people did not deserve to feel this kind of pain.
She heard Lyon attempt to encourage Vanessa - she hoped that would help her more. She needed to hear this things, but it was on her to try to believe them.
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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 1:25 am
  Once Litha stopped her, her body felt numb. Emotions. Of course, she was acting like a child...Great. Such a pathetic baby. Tears slid down her cheeks but her face remained blank."But..It's not true...Look...People don't have hair like this or eyes if their human..." she muttered, feeling sick. She needed to get out of her..Self-Harm was her only option...Now...Memories of past events made her freeze. Her cousin. Her sister. Her parents. The bullying. Abuse. Sexual Abuse. It all came back to her and she felt the joy leave her body and eyes. She felt lonely again. Every when people were trying to bring her up."Listen, Lyon...That isn't true. If it was..I'd actually have friends." κιѕѕ тнє rαιn   
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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 1:28 am
Rei was glad someone stopped Vanessa from hurting herself. She thought what Lyon said was a but funny but she was able to keep herself from laughing because this was serious. Rei's face which was once so kind and soft now was serious. "Vanessa you don't have to believe but I know I'm not lying and I honestly don't think anyone else is. If you want to talk about flaws then your lack of confidence is your flaw. Once you gain more confidence more people will notice your beauty but you hurting yourself defiantly won't make others think of you more highly. Also as for friend i consider myself your friend which is why im sayong thjis an trying to help you." Rei sighed then leaned against the door frame looking outside after she finished talking. She figured after what she said she would get an ear full from the other vampire about how she was being mean.
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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 1:32 am
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Litha could see it in her eyes - Vanessa wanted to hurt herself with a passion. She couldn't take it anymore, she wrapped up the crying girl in her arms and spoke into her hair, shocked at her own audacity. But this was a special situation!
"Vanessa, listen to me - it's okay if you don't fit in with most humans. Most of them aren't worth their salt, anyway. You fit in with us, and none of us are going to judge you or hurt you." She paused. "Please try to believe me," she said quietly before letting her go. She had a weird look on her face - she had just hugged a complete stranger. God, you're so weird, Lith, she told herself. She glanced over at Lyon, her mind flashing back to his fangs and status. She internally shook her head and tried to ignore her own brain, which was filled with conflicting thoughts.
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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 1:53 am
Vanessa stared directly at Rei. For someone she had just met awhile ago...She was so honest..And Blunt...And her friend?"I know...I know but it's not my fault..I can't help it...I'm sorry...I'm honestly sorry okay!" her emotions were boiling over. She hadn't mean the outburst but it was just sad. People didn't get why she was so hated by herself. No body did. Vanessa was glad Litha had held her. It was felt, but odd at the same time. It was comforting, just to be held and cared for but it was akward because...Who really cared about trash like her?"I'm sorry.." she repeated, feeling awful. She felt like she made everyone else mad. Yup. Her logic was messed up. But it helps when you've lived her life. κιѕѕ тнє rαιn
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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 2:01 am
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Litha flashed a slight frown at Rei for her sternness but she did agree with what she had to say. She then turned back to Vanessa. "You don't have to be sorry. Rei has a point - confidence would help a lot. I'm sure you're capable of convincing yourself you're worthwhile person. Please try," she said as lovingly as she could, brushing the girl's pale hair out of her face. Stop touching her, she scolded herself. She wasn't sure if she was doing something wrong or right.
{OOC: Okay it's 4 am I'm exhausted! Bedtime! Also magic_girl_rose, it's really difficult to read your text since it's in yellow >< asdfjkl; Goodnight all!}
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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 10:22 am
Aisley looks down a bit, knowing how Vanessa must have been feeling. She was bullied as a kid because of what she was. It was never fun getting picked on, it'd always hurt.
"Vanessa, do you know what's great about you?" She asks but knew she wouldn't really answer. "One of the great things about you, is that you can fit in vampire society...that's something I wish I could do..."
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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 11:06 am
Vanessa still felt alone. Even with all the compliments. Yes. She was very Self-Conscious. And had little to no Self-Confidence or Esteem. But it was in no way her fault. Years of being teased and abused made her this way. Nobody understood her pain. Not even these Vampires. Sure, she was said to have pretty eyes. Blue and Purple. Great. But silver hair? How'd this happen? Her Borderline Personality was kicking in now. One moment she could be completely broken, the next, she could shut every emotion out. Holding back tears, her eyes burned but her face remained blank and she took at step back from Litha. Her touch was comforting. But because of past events involving excessive and inappropriate touching, she became afraid of everyone..Males mostly."I'll try. But to be honest. I don't see me having confidence. The Day class Doesn't like me. I may fit in with you all, but I'm a Guardian and a Day class member. That means I have no choice but to endure their words." she muttered, hoping her face would be hidden by her bangs again. Sure, Litha had moved them, but...Why? These people...Litha,Rei,Aisley and Lyon...They were Gorgeous. She envied them. They didn't understand. They were powerful and beautiful. She was human and hideous. That was reality. She was going to tell them straight up."You all are Gorgeous. Lyon, you're a pureblood. Of course you're admired. Rei," She turned to the blonde."Yes. That maybe my flaw. But I believe more are. That's because of my Pathetic life. Aisley," she turned to the girl with a blank expression."Trust me, You fit in more than you think. And Litha..." She turned back to the girl with sad eyes."You're nice,kind and caring. But I'm not anything you say. You don't see it but I do. If I could love myself, I would. But I'm short, barely 5. I'm overweight, I'm a little slow, and I could loo better." κιѕѕ тнє rαιn
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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 11:57 am
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Litha noticed the girl back up a bit and decided to give her more space. Vanessa obviously had a severe self esteem issue, and she knew it was up to her to correct it. "Vanessa, you can't keep beating up on yourself like this. You have to try to believe the good things people say about you. It's really up to you to do this, and even though it's a slow process I know you can manage. Please. Break free of yourself," she said. "And enduring their words entails not letting them get to you, which is what's happening - you're falling victim to them. You have to be stronger. Look past what you think is wrong with yourself physically... those things are not important." She knew she was being a hypocrite, considering how vain Litha tended to be, but Vanessa needed to hear these things. She was a broken girl.
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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 12:21 pm
Staring at Litha, Vanessa just shook her head. She was right. Of course. She was just being silly, right?....She hoped. Her Self-Esteem hurt. It was terribly low. She may sometimes act strong and put on a smile. But she felt completely broken and weak."And I'm suppose to do this alone? It's not just words. It can be physical. Ever smelt blood during the day? Yeah, Being beaten isn't very fun. I just...I'm alone in all the Classes. I do my work. Then just sit. That's all. I don't see the point in trying. If there's nobody to notice it."Vanessa was being calm, but in the inside. Her emotions and feelings were so mixed and confused. Should she try? Listen? Once more? OR give up... κιѕѕ тнє rαιn
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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 1:16 pm
Aisley smacks her already hurting head. "I'm so sorry, I mistook you for a vampire because of all the vampire auras surrounding me. I'm so stupid." Aisley says, laughing it off but she felt really stupid. "But Vanessa...you're not alone..."  Aiden was returning back from the fields. He takes the horse back to it's stall and locks her up. He pets her mane softly and looks over his shoulder, seeing his twin and the others trying to comfort a girl with low self-esteem. It was kinda annoying, but it reminded him of when Aisley would get picked on and even though he was really overly protective of her, he had to give her 'tough-love' especially since there would be times when he couldn't be there for her.
He bites his lip some. "Why don't you just shut up." He says sternly.
Aisley turns her head to her brother, even though no one was suppose to know this.
Aiden looks over at Vanessa. "You do nothing but complain about how your life sucks and how you're bullied terribly, do you really think you're the only person whose been bullied? Whose ever felt the sting of words?" Aiden asks, obviously his emotions getting the better of him. Aisley goes over and tries telling him to shut up but he doesn't listen.
"People will judge, and be mean, and try to break you down. Obviously, they won that match by the way you're crying. If you really wanted to better yourself? You wouldn't be crying or complaining, you'd out there, showing to all those who were ever mean to you, that they were wrong! You'd make them eat their words...but no, you don't. You make them win...and when you prove their point, you break down and when some is trying to be your friend? You turn them away. That's being mean in my opinion." Aiden says sternly, his words might have hurt but he meant well. He didn't like people who couldn't stand up for themselves and they kept putting themselves down. It was weak and this girl was suppose to be a guardian? Protecting Day Class? He would have a few choice words with the headmaster about this decision.
Aiden starts heading out before turning back, "You, Day Class, get to class...or else." He says, actually warning Aisley and she lowers her head. He leaves them.
((Exit Aiden))
((Aisley Stays))
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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 1:39 pm
((I'm sorry if that seemed mean, I'm not trying to mean, I swear! sweatdrop That's just what Aiden's personality is like, he's tough but fair))
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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 2:18 pm
His words. They were everything but sweet. True,Cruel, Mean, Ignorant, Fair but just Harsh. Yes. She complained a lot. But if you were Abused, not just emotionally, mentally, physically but sexually. It would get to you. And that's what made her so upset. He was cold. But so Honest. It made her feel worse,yet better. She knew she wasn't the only one. But, more than anything, did she wish he had her memories. Maybe then he'd understand why she was like this. He was being fair yet unfair. It's like drinking a glass of you're favorite orange juice but tasting Grape. Strange, and messed up, But interesting.'People will judge, and be mean, and try to break you down. Obviously, they won that match by the way you're crying. If you really wanted to better yourself? You wouldn't be crying or complaining, you'd out there, showing to all those who were ever mean to you, that they were wrong! You'd make them eat their words...but no, you don't. You make them win...and when you prove their point, you break down and when some is trying to be your friend? You turn them away. That's being mean in my opinion'....His words stung and hung in her mind. It was so confusing. Part of her wanted to shout out and defend herself. It was hard to change when all your life you've only know pain and no protection, Especially with no friends. But the other part wanted to thank him for being so different and honest. Vampires...Cruel yet Kind. That's how they were. Vanessa was a great guardian. She was great at whatever she did, To the extent that she wanted to try. Only at her job did she seem content and happy. If he spoke to the Headmaster like he probably would...She'd really snap. Yes, she was depression, majorly, but she also had a terrible temper. Thank you dear Borderline Personality. How could someone so tiny, be so messed up? He was right, it was time for class...She could come back...Besides, her insomnia would help with that. Turning people away..That was something she only did so nobody would ever miss her if her attempts at...'Leaving' Succeeded. She had a reason for it. But of course, unless you had that feeling. You wouldn't understand.
Sighing at herself. She put on a smile. He was right. that's what she kept repeating to herself. They all where. If she wanted to change...She'd have to try harder..And actually try..Like Litha said..It'd be hard...and a slow process, but trying is all she can do. She'll fall, but she'll get back up. And besides...Now she had friends to help,right? even if they could try to kill her...
Tying her long silvery hair up out of her face, Vanessa looked at everyone with her head high and nodded."He's right..Er...I'll see you all later then..For someone so harsh...He had a point..I'll try...but can I have help?" she whispered the last sentence before looking back at the entrance to the stables. It was indeed time for her to go. Waving, she darted off. For someone so short, she moved fast and was out of the place within seconds.
κιѕѕ тнє rαιn [Exit: Pfft I like him >:3 Better to have someone blunt than someone all "Oh it's okay baby boo." That's how they got me to stop the exact same issues ^^]
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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 7:10 pm
Aisley was surprised that it seemed to have cheered Vanessa up, but she also knew that Aiden was someone who was easily annoyed and was rather harsh with his words. The dhampir blinks and looks outside. Her eyes widen and she started to panic some.
"OH NO! I'M LATE!" She says and starts waving off. "IT WAS NICE TO MEET YOU ALL BUT I GOTTA RUN!" She says, thankful for her vampiric-half for fast recovery as she ran out.
((Exit Aisley))
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