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xxHe watched her, cerulean eyes soft. He knew he wasn't her James and she wasn't his Natalie. Natalie had been his second love- the thin that kept him going after he had lost Autumn. Autumn... His once mate. The woman who kept him sane. She had convinced him to challenge the former beta- to prove himself worthy. It had been her fault he had become wrapped up in all this. Then, he became friends with Natalie. And when Autumn died, she was he one the kept him... well, alive. As she spoke, Collin jerked out of his thought and gazed down at her, wrapping his arms back around her. She wasn't warm like Natalie, but the familiar coolness of her skin made a ghost of a smile creep onto his face. His response was quiet. "And I can't shake my feelings for Natalie... She kept me going after I lost Autumn," he told her softly, his voice cracking a bit. He knew that both the beta and alpha females knew about the love in his past. He came with baggage. It was just how he was. At her next comment, the redhead felt his heart break. He wanted to move on from Natalie jut like she wanted to move on from James. He knew, somewhere deep down, that Natalie would have never been happy with him. That she'd always wanted James. Even when they used to stay up late, just holding say other, their nights consisting of nothing more than kisses of loneliness and - what he had thought of as blossoming love. It broke Collin's heart to know that he had lost two of the most important females in his life, but he knew that he had to stop being so jealous. "But you're glad that you're stuck with me instead of someone else," he replied, his voice dry and even a little broken. The male looked away from the female, eyes glassy and lost.
₩inter knew she probably didn't feel as warm as Natalie did to Collin but it made her feel good that he would ignore that to keep her close. When he replied to her Winter couldn't help but feel a pang of sorrow for Collin. He remembered her talk about Autumn before. She was such a sweet heart, Winter understood why Collin had been with her. She understood what he felt about Natalie. It seemed a bit harder to get over James over finding out she was pregnant though. Winter closed her purple eyes. Why couldn't Winter just get over James? He was alpha now, he has more things to worry about then fae's. Winter sighed letting herself relax into him. It was all so confusing and Winter knew it was for him too. For James and Natalie. Why did they have to have such a love hate circle? Unintentionally, Winters hand moved to grab one of his, grasping it firmly yet gently in hers. His warm was just as comforting as James'. It made her feel a lot better. She knew her body wasn't as warm as Natalies, not that she'd know but her skin was pretty pale but she hoped he wouldn't care. At his next comment she opened her eyes slightly but she didn't lift her head to look at him. "I'm not stuck with you if I want to be with you." She told him hesitantly but confidently. She knew James would want her back but Winter had to be tough, she wouldn't give in that easily! Sure, they could talk to each other but Winter had to shoot back at him what he shot at her. It was painful and it tore her heart into pieces but Winter didn't want anyone to have to switch ranks to confuse the pack. If these were the ranks then they would stand by them. Winter had to put her foot down this time. Sure, she would never stop feeling that way about James, maybe it would lessen, but Collin was supposed to be her mate now and he did nothing to Winter for her to reject that.
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xxThe beta was lost in thought until he felt her hand in his. It was small and delicate and cold- like Natalie's. He gave Winter's hand a small squeeze, laying his head atop hers and closing his eyes. Collin's muscles, though, seemed to refuse to let him relax. He was tense and rigid, ready to spring into action. And at her words, he did spring into action. The redhead tore away from the beta female, wretching himself out of her grasp and getting to his feet. His jaw was tight, his hands clenched. "That's the thing though, right? You don't want to be with me!" he yelled- not directly at her. The cerulean eyes of the male were focused intently on a large emerald that shimmered, giving a faint gleam of his reflection in the smooth surface. A growl built up in his throat and he launched his fist out, the impact loud like a gunshot. A very faint hairline crack spread across the emerald, but his fist seemed to get most of the damage. His knuckles dripped blood as he ran his hands through his hair, not even concious of the pain in his right hand. "It's not fair! None of it is! But of course you and Natalie won't care! You two will just suck it up and bottle in the feelings! Guys. Can't. Do. That!" he yelled angrily, bending over a crystaline rock, his hands wrapped tight to steady himself. It wasn't fair. It wasn't fair that he lost Autumn at the peak of their love. It wasn't fair that he lost Natalie as their feelings had grown. It wasn't fair that James abandoned Winter and now came rushing back. It wasn't fair that Natalie wanted James instead of her best friend. "It's not fair," he whispered, his voice rough from raising it so much. He shook his head gently, hands closing tighter around the rocks.
₩inter almost jumped when Collin pushed her away and got to his feet. Her purple eyes stared into his cerulean ones with confusion. What had she done? When he yelled her purple eyes clouded over with a little bit of fear and sadness. When she saw his fist fly at the emerald wall she covered her ears letting out a loud yelp that rang through the caves walls. She mentally slapped herself for yelping that loud hoping no one heard her. She knew he was angry, of course he was, who wouldn't be in this situation? It was like a love and hate square. When he yelled again tears poured from her purple eyes. Bottle in their feelings? Hadn't he seen how she was a total mess when James left her? Why was he being like this? She scooted away from him a few feet. She was scared, just as scared as she used to get when James went on a rampage. She let her tears flow. There was no stopping the salty liquid from coming from her eyes, she knew if she held it in she would just feel worse. "You think it's fair to me and Natalie either!?" She hollered back feeling her heart race feeling the baby kick a couple times. Winter almost shocked herself. Since when did she vouch for the b!tchy fae? "Maybe Natalie can keep her feelings bottled inside, but I sure as hell can't!" She told him her voice cracking before she slowly lifted herself up. She couldn't changed into her wolf form because she didn't want anything bad to happen to the baby but she wanted to go. She stumbled a few steps before beginning to walk out of the cave. She turned back around to look at Collin. "It's just as hard for me to Collin. Sure, I love James, but my place is with you. I know Natalie took away your pain, I know you love her but why do we have to beat each other up for it? They both left us for each other. Maybe we should start doing the same to them. I don't want to get you more angry." She told him waiting for a reply. If he was too angry she didn't want to put herself and the baby at risk of being killed by Collin but she knew he would never hurt them. She cared about him, she really did!
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"Ah, well nice to meet you Zoku!" She replied with a smile, her cheeks flushing too as they began to dance. She wasn't stepping on his feet or anything, so all was well.
"If you insist" She murmured, a bit shyly. He brought the dance to a stop. For a moment, she wondered if she did something wrong.
"I mean, it looks like you've been through a lot. What happened?" She questioned, voicing her assumptions.
"Again, I don't really mind when you choose to start working.."
After her reply, she noticed Zoku's attention turn to the bartender. She knew Orion awhile and hired him a few days prior. Her cheeks flushed since not only had she felt she did something wrong, but Orion was watching without anyone else to talk too. She must be a sorry excuse for a hostess..
₩inter watches as Collin made his hands bleed. Winter felt a bit scared, she was trembling but then again she couldn't help but feel for Collin. She had feelings for both James and Collin and it made her feel horrible especially since she was having James' baby and she was having second thoughts about taking him back. When he yelled at her again she felt like she had shrunk to the size of a peanut. A couple more tears fell from her purple eyes. She did care. She cared more then he knew. When he approached her her muscles tensed feeling scared but when he ambraced her, she didn't care how much blood he had on him she wrapped her arms around his bare torso burying her head under his chin. She felt responsible for him hurting himself like that. When he spoke to her his words reached to heart, as if trying to pull on it. "Does that mean..." She asked him a little wide eyed. Of course Winter wasn't dumb but she just wanted to make sure she had heard what he said right. When he pulled away she slightly frowned but a small smile formed on her pale face as he wiped her tears away and told her he couldn't lose someone else. "I'll always be here Collin." She told him a bit supportingly as she couldnt take pulling away from him for so long. His body was so warm and comforting. Winter wrapped her arms around his bare torso one more time. She was so confused on what she should do but her place was beta along with Collin. If James wanted to be close to her then she would have no problems but she couldn't kiss him anymore. It killed her inside. She hoped James would come back soon, she needed to talk to him, but it was nice to be here with Collin.
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xxHe chuckled a bit at her reaction, but his eyes didn't hold the light they used to. He held her for what seemed like an eternity, smoothing the long blue hair that draped down her back. He rested his cheek on the top of her head, closing his cerulean eyes and slowing his breathing. It was nice to be held. Natalie... Natalie. He couldn't seem to shake her. Gently, Collin picked up the pale beta in his arms, giving a bit of a grin before taking her back to the back of the cave and setting her on a table-shaped emerald. The grin on his face soon became real as he bowed, kneeling on a single knee and looking up at her. "Your dearest Majesty, I wish to forever guard and protect you. And that little bun in the oven, of course. Make me your knight!" he told her happily, his laugh loud and warm. He didn't care that his hair contained blood, that blood stained his face, chest and arms. He didn't care as long as he was on good terms with both Winter and Natalie. Knowing Natalie, seeing him with Winter would just piss her off. But she was with James- she was probably rejoicing with happiness. A little green monster seemed to creep up onto Collin's shoulder- the evil emotion Jealousy. He'd loved Natalie first, so why couldn't James just back off. A smirk crawled onto the beta male's face. I wonder if I could get away with having 2 girls, he thought to himself- mostly kidding. Mostly.
₩inter was thankful that Collin kept her in his arms. Sure he was a bit bloody and he was warm and just so cute(okay hot) shirtless. Her eyes drifted closed lightly as she felt his warm cheek on her head. Feeling his warmth for some reason Winter could only think of the warmth James had given her when she had been in his arms not too long ago. Winters heart had no idea where to go as she wondered what would happen if she stayed with Collin but then again she wondered what would happen if she went back with James. Going with James meant disrupting the packs ranks but it also meant James and her would have eternal happiness with their baby. Staying with Collin meant not disrupting the packs ranks and staying with someone she knew she could probably trust with her heart unlike how James had just thrown away her heart after she gave him all of it. Her mind pondered these things but she was quickly snapped back to reality when she felt Collin lifted her up. A small playful smile came across the blue haired fae's face as she felt Collin sit her down an an emerald table and kneel before her. She giggled slightly at his words before putting her hand on his cheek, feeling her own cheeks heat up and turn a light shade of pink. "Forever my knight in shining armor you shall be." She told him but she had hesitated. Everything with James flashed through her head. It wasn't like Collin and Natalie where they hadn't had an intimate relationship like James and Winter had. Winters heart would never stop feeling that way towards James and she would never forget the way his blue eyes stared into hers before they kissed. Now Winters bright purple eyes focused on Collins cerulean ones as she got off the table slowly and grabbed his hands pulling him up again putting a hand on his cheek. She didn't know if this was the right thing to do, her hand that was on his cheek trailed down to rest on his bare chest ignoring the fact that she had touched a little of his blood. She looked away from him for a second. She knew James would be coming back, she knew James wanted her and she had to admit she wanted him to but she had to put her foot down as much as she was crushing her own heart she had to do it. She sighed before knowing she was doing what was right. She lifted her head back up inching her face up to his searching his cerulean eyes for any rejection as their lips lightly brushed. Winters purple eyes drifted shut as she let her lips collide with Collins, wrapping her arms around his neck a little hesitantly. She had to know this was Collin and not James. She felt like it was only yesterday she was doing this with James and now Collin had caught a hold of her heart. Well, some of it. She would always both males on her mind she would never stop loving either of them but she would never get the fact out of her head that she felt she had to let James go. Sure she wanted to stay close to the male and she would let him see the baby but things were different now and she respected the fact that Collin still probably loved Natalie or liked her or something.
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James walked into the mouth of the cave, stopping when he was just a few feet inside. He had to lighten up a bit, he was going to see Winter again. Just the thought brought a smile to his face. He had been a bit unsure about everything before, but that little incident with Natalie helped him come to a bit of a realization. He loved Winter, really truly did. And he was going to tell her now. Sure, they used to tell eachother those three words all the time, but now it felt like it would mean more. He wasn't just in this for the baby, he wanted Winter too. He closed his eyes in happiness and turned his head up to the ceiling, opening his eyes to look at the jagged stones. He put his hands in his pockets and continued into the cave again. Natalie was probably right on his heels right now. He kicked a rock on the ground as he sang a song in his head. Cuz on the street, or under the covers, we're stuck like two pieces of velcro. At the park, in the back of my car, it doesn’t matter what I do, no, I can’t keep my hands off you. The song made his eyes brighten a bit. It matched him and Winter perfectly. He rounded the corner leading to the mines, and his smile instantly faded when he saw Winter...kissing Collin? His heart dropped, and he could almost feel it shatter. Tears were already coming to his eyes. "Wh...why..." He was just speechless. How could she...just do that? Like it was nothing big at all? He felt his hands start to tremble in his pockets, and clenched his hands into fists. He was so angry...so hurt...how could she do that to him? He looked down at the ground, closing his eyes. His midnight hair hung over his closed eyes, covering the tears that were now flowing from them. He wouldn't have been hurt, just pissed, if it looked like Collin had kissed her. But it looked completely the other way around. It looked like she had started it, which tore him apart. His breathing turned shallow, and he couldn't force himself to look up at her. If she didn't care so much as to just do that, then why should he even look at her? He clenched his teeth, taking his hands out of his pockets. He turned to the side, flexing his fingers. He looked up at the emerald covered wall angrily, his right hand curling into and fist again. Without any warning, he slammed it into the wall, shattering the emerald it made contact with. The sound was as loud as a gunshot, if not louder. His anger was taking over, covering up the pain he felt. Why him? Blood oozed slowly from his knuckles as he pulled it away from the wall, turning his back to the two of them now. His entire body trembled and tears slid down his cheeks. He shook his head and fell to his knees, bracing his hands on the ground. He dug his fingers into the ground, resisting the growing need to shift. If he did, everyone would be in danger. He needed to get away, just get away from it all. Maybe run into the vampire territory. Rip everything apart until they finally got him. Then Winter could be with her precious Collin and wouldn't have to worry about him anymore. Then she could just live in peace with her precious child. His whole world was just...falling apart.
₩inter felt wrong doing this it wasn't her and felt like Collin was James. She heard something in the cave and her eyes shot open pushing Collin away gently before her purple gaze turned to see James. She knew it! She knew he would come right at that point. Her heart skipped a beat before beginning to race feeling the baby inside her shift and kick. Her eyes clouded over. She couldn't believe this was happening. She watched him for a moment watching as his tears hit the cave floor. When had she done? A thought came into her head. He's acting the exact same way as I did when he left me so why does this hurt me so much? I love him that's why. Please god, if you're up there, tell me where to go. Tell me what to do. She thought silently yelping slightly as she watched James punch the emerald wall. She wondered if the hurt, guilt and sorrow she felt now was what James had felt back when he did this to her. She doubted it considering he had never came to talk to her like Collin would go talk to Natalie. He had kept his promise and came back, just at the wrong time. She ran over to him as she watched him fall to the ground her purple eyes let tears fall from them as she knelt beside him. "James... We need to talk... Please don't cry James.. Ple-" She pleaded with him not even making the effort to finish her sentence. Sure, she was dangerously close to him but she couldn't bare to see tears come from his eyes. Why couldn't she ever keep her foot down? She loved James but she was getting attached to Collin. She looked back at the beta male quickly knowing he would want to talk to Natalie before turning back to James as she waited for his response. Please just let him be able to talk to me... Why couldn't I have been taken by vampires or something? Life would be so much easier... She thought to herself knowing Natalie would be coming soon. None of this made any sense to Winter. It broke her heart to be with one male rather then the other and she felt like she couldn't chose. Maybe she should just offer herself up to the vampires. Yea, that's it, that's what she would do. Maybe Collin could find a better mate and James... He... He could be happy with Natalie, which Winter had to admit, she was jealous of the fae a bit but then again all of this was her fault! If she hadn't taken the alpha female position along with James they wouldn't have had such problems! ((I hate you Ray xDD I feel so horrible but then again it is karma against him! xP))
±:.:±:.:±:.:±±:.:±:.:±:.:± Natalie kept her gaze lowered as she fallowed after James into this dreaded place. She hated these stupid caves. They seemed to curse her in some way. First they took away her brother, then there was the incident that happened not to long ago with James and Winter. Winter...just even thinking about her name made her want to tear things apart. This was her fault. If she just taken her position like she was suppose to then this wouldn't happen. It wasn't her fault she became Alpha! She didn't even know James was going after the other spot. How could she? Then again, Natalie wasn't exactly one to talk. She still thought about Collin, and she always compared him to James when he pissed her off. She didn't always voice her thoughts but they were still there. When she heard James stutter her head lifted up, causing her hair to move out of the way of her eyes, and look at he was looking had. She wished she hadn't. There on Collin was was that whore. Her eyes widened as she took a step back before she froze. Her body seemed unable to move, and her eyes couldn't stop staring at the two of them. Collin mostly. What was he doing? Why was he letting her touch him like that? She pushed James away because she thought of him. Was...was he done with her? Were all those nights they spent together not worth it? Now she really wished she kissed James. She had something to through in his face! The sound of James punch made her jump into the air, breaking her out of her trace like state. She looked down at James as he started to lose it, wanting to help him since he had just helped her, but that fea came over. Trying to beg to him. She looked over at Collin both hurt and angry at the male before her attention rounded onto the other female. If she looked at Collin she'd start crying and she didn't want to do that again. She did it once and look were that got her. "One man not enough for you? Have to take the other one who I care deeply for? Or did you spread your legs for him too like you had to James?" she said venomously as she stepped towards her, her eyes holding nothing but pure hate for the girl in front of her. She slipped past James since her mind took no notice of any one but Winter. Her hands flexed, nails starting to curve a bit as she approached. The urge to shift and rip her open was there, growing stronger but she wanted to land a blow before she made her kill. "I hope your pleased with yourself. Not only did you ruin how the pack is run, or part of my life. Your ruining James, and Collins. But what do you care? All you want is them to yourself isn't it?" she spat as she pulled her hand back balling her hand into a fist, before she slammed it down at Winter's face. If she was in her right state of mind she wouldn't of attacked Winter. Said those things, yes. But not attack. But right now her thoughts were clouded with the dark emotion of hate. It was just like when she saw her brother get taken out. She had let her thoughts become like it had now and she tore apart the ones who smelt like him. Did she want to tear apart Winter? God yes. Would she? Well if her hit landed then she'd pounce on the girl and get rid of the problem in her life. She was tired of always being left because of Winter. It just...it wasn't fair. Why did she get both of them? Was she nicer, prettier? Or was she just easier? These thoughts only angered the dark haired girl even more. Making her go blind with rage. "I'm going to tear you to shreds you worthless waste of space." she spat out at the girl as her fist came at her. ±:.:±:.:±:.:±±:.:±:.:±:.:±
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xxIIt wasn't supposed to happen. Her cold fingers against his bare chest, his warm lips meeting her soft ones. It wasn't right. Yet somehow if felt vaguely good. Her arms around him, the way her body fit against his. It was all wrong yet so right. When James entered and Winter pulled away, though, he came to. His mind was in a haze. James punched an emerald, just like Collin had. He glanced down at his bloodied hand- it was drying, and he pain finally registered. Damn, did it ever hurt! He winced a bit, staggering back and cradling his injured hand. The handsome beta didn't really say anything as everything went on. He, standing, walked over to Winter and James. He gently took Winter's shoulder, but roughly jerked her away and faced the pissy alpha. "Make up your mind. I smell you all over Natalie," he said very quietly, jaw clenched and fist tight. If James didn't swing at him, he'd be dumbfounded. The redheaded beta would probably end up punching the alpha in the face. He hated how no one asked his opinion- no one cared how he felt in situations. It was all about them. Collin was sick and tired of being the one who listened to others' problems. No one cared about his, so why was he supposed to care about theirs'? The beta turned away from the alpha, his own teal eyes filled to the brim with tears. As a single tear spilled over and dropped down his cheek, he whirled back around, fist outstretched to connect with the alpha's cheek. He didn't care about Natalie punching Winter. He didn't care about Winter's tears. He didn't care about James's bloodied knuckles. He blood covered beta stopped his fist short, staring at the alpha. He didn't touch him. He didn't look at him. He didn't look at the girls. He turned and ran as fast as he could, turning into a bloodied black and brown wolf. ▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃♞ ▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃
I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe.xxxxx
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The emotional wreck of a wolf stood up when Winter came over, keeping his back to her. Only when Natalie stormed in did he turn around, grabbing the black haired fae's wrist, stopping her from hitting Winter. "I have nothing to talk to you about." He shot down at Winter angrily, his once clear blue eyes foggy with hate and rage. He was in so much pain, it was the only way he could think to hide it. As Collin came over and pulled Winter away, he felt a low growl vibrate his chest. How dare he lay a hand on her. He didn't flinch at all, seeing a punch come for his face. He knew the redhead wouldn't follow through with it. And even if he did, James would get him back twice as hard. "My mind was made up. Unlike yours." He snarled as he stalked off. James stepped away from both of the fae's running a bloody hand through his midnight locks. He was so hurt...and anger was the only way to mask it, to hide it from everyone. He didn't realize it, but he still hadn't stopped crying. His hands clenched into fists again and he pressed his head against the cavern wall, both his fists on either side of his head. He couldn't keep his feelings hidden anymore, he had to let it all out before he exploded. "I loved you Winter...I really did...I was going to tell you for sure when I came back..." He spoke softly, his dark hair shadowing his closed eyes. Winter was lucky he was saying anything to her, never mind that he loved her. And you Natalie. You too." He added, hoping the fae would get it. He loved both of them dearly. But Winter was carrying his child, and he was supposed to be with Natalie. That just made it all so much worse. He had a strong reason to be with either one of them. His breathing was shaky as his nails turned into claws, digging into the palms of his hands, drawing more blood. He knew he needed to calm down, but he didn't know how. Winter would usually- no. Not anymore of course. She loves Collin. "Dammit. God dammit." He cursed, repeatedly punching the wall. His punches got weaker each time, getting to the point where it didn't even make much of a sound anymore. He was shaking his head, his tears falling freely now. His entire body was trembling, he wasn't holding in the pain anymore, all the hurt he felt was pouting out. "Dammit. Dammit. Dammit. Dammit." He repeated with each punch, feeling himself get weaker and weaker. He felt so vulnerable right now. So alone.
₩inter watched Natalie come over to her. Winter growled at the fae. Winter was ruining James and Collins lives? How so? "At least I wasn't the one who left anybody. I think the person who screwed up Collin here is you Natalie. I wouldn't be talking." She basically stabbed the fae in the back facing her. When her fist came at her Winter didn't care, let Natalie hit her, it'd be a good excuse to hit her back. Winter turned her head to see Collin walk over to them and put a hand gently on her shoulder as James grabbed Natalie's wrist. She was glad Collin didn't seem mad about the kiss or that she had walked over to James. When he pushed her roughly back, she stumbled, her back hitting the wall but she was fine. When Collin went up to James and said what he said Winter focused everything to to nose sniffing the scents around her. Collin was right. How could she have missed that. She guessed no matter how many times James promised her he couldn't keep them. Tears poured down her face seeing Collin actually shed a tear. She turned her head away from Collin only to hear him swear. What was Winter going to do now? There was no way she was staying here and trying to chose between Collin and James. She knew Natalie would want to talk to Collin so her only choice was James. James was pissed but why? Couldn't he see for himself this was exactly how she felt when he did this to her? When James told her he was going to tell her he loved her she shook her head tears still falling from her clouded purple eyes. "How many times have you said those three words to me James?! How many promises have you made to me?! More then you can keep obviously!" Winter broke down closing her purple eyes tightly. She had to let it all out now and tell him how she felt or this would go on forever. "What you're feeling right now James, is exactly how I felt when you left me. Except you barely made an effort to comfort me like I always try to do. If I didn't start having the pains today and you never found out about this baby I doubt you would have come running back to me! James, every word I ever said to you was true but I feel like your words weren't." She told him her voice cracking as she slowly made her way over to him. It was now or never. "Every day James was like this for me. James I do love you and that feeling will never leave but I can't help but think, no matter how much you say you love me, you're just happy you're going to have a child. I can't be with you anymore James. Natalie is your mate now. As much as I hate her you two... Whatever. I just feel like I never mattered to you James." She told him putting a hand lightly on his shoulder before looking away and removing it hesitantly. She turned to Natalie and growled once more. "No Natalie. I hope you're happy. You took who I cared for most. It didn't seem like you cared whether or not we mated because no, the world revolves around Natalie and her thinking of how attention is on Winter. No Natalie you're wrong. And I want them to myself? I'm pretty sure, if I'm not truly mistaken, so do you. You might think you have me all figured out Natalie, but you don't. So thanks for nothing." She told the fae before putting her hood back on more tears fell from her pale face before looking back. Boy, she hoped Collin was okay. She closed her eyes for a moment praying for him before walking out her belly was churning as she felt the baby kick a few times. None of this was right. She wished she could ju- Oh she was a genius! Maybe she would go somewhere other then here and then go into vampire territory, fight till death or fight until she got capture. Oh wait fighting would be almost impossible unless she shifted. A bad thought entered Winters mind as she thought she didn't care for the baby. It had James' blood in it how could she not care? She took a deep breath. Winter had no idea what to do. ~Exit Winter~
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James was zoned out, just focusing on trying to keep his anger in check. As Winter yelled at him, he turned his head to look at her. "I still mean it! I still do! I'm sorry I screwed up!" He yelled back angrily, turning his entire body around. As she spoke again and walked over to him, he looked at her with angry blue eyes. She thought he was lying? She never mattered? She meant the world to him! When she put a hand on his shoulder, he couldn't keep down the angry growl. "You meant everything to me. I loved you more than I loved myself." He shot back as she took her hand off him. "You were everything I could ever ask for, and I threw it all away. I made a stupid mistake by trying to live by the rules. Rules that apparently imply that I don't care!" He felt himself getting angrier. As Winter put her hood back on and walked away from him, it felt like his heart was breaking all over again. As angry as he was right now, he had to go after her. He wouldn't let her get away from him again. "Go ahead, chase after Collin." He shot at Natalie, turning into a large black wolf again. He shook himself off and took off like a bullet, disappearing from view. He had to get Winter back. ~Exit James~
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