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 Posted: Mon Aug 11, 2008 2:26 pm
journal entery 23
Iferon, Rici
Day/Night of day 8, morning of day 9
I.. Can't believe it... Draconic kidnapped. I need to train. I need to train my soul, too. I CRIED. I Cried and Cried. Never really cried before. I.. needed Nurse Trixie then. She needed me too.
I... Told everyone.
I was surprised. They all responded. I hadn't realised. I'm glad, as glad as I could be with my human, that combination of mother, big sister, and child. I FAILED. I failed to guard her and keep harm away. I can only hope that we won't be too late to save her.
I really don't care about my own life. What use is it anyway? If shes dead, why should I live.
oh. I know why. Nurse Trixie. Shes a human but shes so... pretty, I guess.
so now I'm torn. I want to make sure that I don't lose two humans I... love. I don't want to leave Nurse Trixie alone and vulnerable at the shop. But... I want to save Draconic. She just.. means so much to me...
goddamn emotions. Always making everything into a mess. I don't like it. I'd rather use emotions as fuel. Fuel to burn in a furnace of fury. I dont like being bogged down in this. Thats why I need to train my soul as well as my body so I can USE this pain, fear, worry, and anger.
grrrr... I hate Iferon. Hate him. He spends all this time with draconic, and then lets her out of his sight.. into the hands of the master?! What the f**** was he thinking, the moron?!
hmph. well. We'll be working together. He seems genuinely worried and desperate for her back. I am too.
That master will pay. If draconic is even injured by the time we get there...
grrr.... I need to find a poison horrible enough.
I don't get why there are still naieve people here. Too much has happened, even in the time i have been here. How could anybody be innocent? how could anybody be naieve?
I need to go get herbs. I can't sit and do nothing right now. i am patient. but I dont want to waste time. I need to make a poison soon.
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Posted: Thu Jan 07, 2010 8:36 am
journal entery 24
Draconic
Day ~12 on the road
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Its been quite an experience, and its still going. If I had my notebook, I'd be scribbling down what notes I can.
I hear battle outside. Yeah. Not going out there.
I wonder how it will turn out?
I kinda have an idea of what happened before. It might be some sort of dream-vision. Maybe the artifacts around here helped- and what artifacts these are!
And besides, I know Iferon.
I was kidnapped, and he probably couldnt sit still, and so they all charged on up here to challenge the master.
Y'know, shes not too mad, in my opinion. A bit nuts, stressed, obsessed... But I dont think shes evil.
Then again, I never really believed in evil, anyway.
She may have kidnapped me, but she didn't torture me.
She may have attacked me, but I think I touched a nerve or something. Not her fault.
And she was nice enough to, after I answered her questions and such, to let me go... and even give me a dress.
AND have me put away some remarkable artifacts.
Which is why, sitting in a room that almost resembles my personal idea of a "heaven"- artifacts to investigate, a mystery to explore, I almost find it hard that, just beyond this door is a bloody battle with people dying. Koivu.
And I know that its a bad thing to say, but I'm not too concerned with their deaths.
I care about Iferon, And Rici...
But you know? I just cant bring myself to care about the others.
Well, maybe Trixie. Shes certainly nice. And Anrea, but they're all human or part-human.
And this isn't a human's war. Obviously.
Iferon and Rici have made their choice, and considering the mind roars I've been hearing, Iferon is either going to make it or not.
I'm curious to see the result, and I'm not too concerned one way or another. SOMETHING will happen, I will have witnessed it.
I'll study this event and its consequences and its connections to the past. I'll study the city, its ruins.
I'll be so distracted that it wont really matter what the outcome is. I dont care if the master lives or dies, or if the koivu win or lose. Or are wiped out.
I'll be too busy to think about such things. I'll accept either outcome. I just wont care...
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... Sniffle...
Right?
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Posted: Thu Sep 30, 2010 7:44 pm
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