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Now I really got nothing to say..... =\

How I'm drawing on Paint is become very long and hard. >< It looks good at the top, but... bleh. Maybe I won't be able to finish it. xD

=\ That was a rant. There really is no opening to make a serious comment. I'm bad at starting one. xP

I might've said something but *ahem* stare

scream scream scream scream SAHOKO! THAT WAS WAY IRRELAVANT AND NOT NEEDED IN THIS THREAD! -waves sign- NO SPAMMING EITHER!

o.o anyhooo, >> estaaaa, if you didnt finish that picture i would have been saaaad. =3 and lookie nowwww, i have a BEAUTIFaaallll signiturrrrre >=3 i wonder who made that hmmmm

ok, since i have nothing better to do, and since im home alone and sick and blah blah blah, im going to start a topic, and is serious. >_> not about... having to brush your teeth twice and blah stare ahem...

o.o ok, here we go.

>_> this might be mushy or watever. i wouldnt be surprized if a guy doesn't post about it. o_o what do you see in your future, (or what oyu hope to see) and who do you see your future With. >_> that might be lame, but its the best i could come up with right now, PLEASE! post. by reading what oyu people have to say, i might come up with something better. >_> i feel like the manager of this thread XD OBEY! >>;;

I see my huge drawing I have done and it sends me laughter down my spine eek


Hmm... my future? Realistically speaking and not my own desires, dreams, and impossible fantasies? :XP I'm not much about high hopes and that, so I don't think about it much. As for my significant other.... heart domokun Sore wa himitsu desu.

whee Although I wouldn't mind a week full of hugging Sushi sweatdrop Dammit, he's making me get high hopes. xp I'm wondering if he knows... I really do cling in real life... xD Not just poke.

Oh which lets me ask this general question: Who really clings, tugs, grab, or anything that seems like what you would do online do in real life? xp My friend says I have problems, like I kept hugging my friend's backpack so he wouldn't leave, and I was dragged around the hallway, and people gave us supicious looks. I can't actually glomp though, I should start learning =0. The only glomp I actually done on accident was when I was in 8th grade, during P.E., practically jumped the guy I liked and kind of injuryed him xp (it's why school should have grass, not cement playgrounds.)

T___T NOOOOOOOOOO YOU WANT TO GO TO ARMY TOO? My friends does also, but I understand why she wants to >.>... crying BUT YOU'LL LEAVE USSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS..............

Okay, this is a more serious thread so I shall be more serious ><.

I wouldn't mind if you randomly hugged me. It'll make up for all the times I couldn't hug people (I still don't understand why people are like anti-huggish here .. my asian friends, at least. And one of them actually asked the opposite, rhetorical question I asked: Why do girls [not just girls though -_-] like to hug?) Anyways, hug! hug! hug! hug!

I wish I was completely like myself offline as I am online. It's that I need to be around certain people (and make sure I'm comfortable around them XD) because i'm not always this crazy asian person. I mean, I appear more likeable online, in my opinion, but irl, I'm not some respectable human being. >> That and... I'm not sure many people are aware of me XD. Well, I shall hence forth try to be the anime character come to life!

crying I'm dependent. It's due to the lack of ability to self-learn something. I'm also uber sensitive, but why did I have to add that part in? XD

Uh, I think that's pretty much all I can comment. o_o I was going to mention Sushi but..... I think I've been doing that too often. Xx

xd weeeeeeee, -tackles plush gundam- >>

o_o how could you want to understand what and how other people think if you think that your own thought and way of thinking is not comprehendable either? o_o but im the same. X_x

>_> perhaps then, figuring out what and how other people think will help to understand yourself.
o_o is it just me, or other people seem to know me more than i know myself. >_> thats not really true. its more like. they know how i would react to things, or know that im so random they SUSPECT something to happen. stuff like that. good times. good laughs. but no one really knows how i think. what i think of. why i think of it. the mind is a complicating world for even itself. its not out of reach, searchers just get lazy or tired half way through.

>_> so sometimes when saying that your best friend is yourself is not completly false. in a way it is tho. you know yourself, but sometimes you can hate yourself, i have yet to see a friendship based on that. so so so its sorta like, your a stalker for yourself. o_o;;;.....

XD but me not sure i know even myself. im just.. .there. just something that exist but doesnt quite... exist o____O;;;
but, im not complaining. id actually much rather to keep the thing the way they are >_> i have trust issues, reasons to that of course. when people want to know me, go ahead, let them in. its their journey to go inside some one else, in addition to themselves...

O_o i think most of that was pointless and meaningless XD so! dun dun dun,


-=the end=- ((thank gawd eh? ^_~))

My future? I've got no ******** idea. I know I have the intelligence to get just about any job I could want, but I'm lacking in all other areas; most importantly, motivation. I just don't care enough about anything realistic, and when I do, I usually lose interest in it after a while. I'll probably end up in some shitty middle wage job that I dislike, which I only went into in the first place because I had few alternative options.

Now for "who do I see my future with". Someone like me, basically. Maybe I'm just narcissistic, but I really do like myself more than most other people (however, most of the people I have come into contact with were lying, moronic, annoying little ********, so it's not that hard). That was after I stopped being an emo b***h, of course. I really have to update my "List Of Things That Piss Me Off". smile
Anyway, someone like me: same views, similar personality. I don't want them to be exactly like me, but close. More importantly though, someone I can understand, and also someone that I can trust (I guess this is pretty standard in any serious relationship, though). And not just with certain aspects, like my relationships with most of my friends are; someone that I can tell absolutely anything to (and being easy to do so). And, I wouldn't just want a partner in this person; I'd want a best friend, too.

I doubt I'll find anyone like that, though.

I don't see myself getting married, nor do I want children. Of course, it all could change in the future. I'm only seventeen. It's unlikely that I will change my mind, though.

What I do see in my future relationships are a few failed ones, simply because we don't go well together. That's about the only thing I am pretty sure of.

I'm a bit of a drifter, really. I've just been coasting through life, and I'll have to change that if I ever want to make something of myself (obviously).

o_o For some reason, it suddenly seems hard to change this subject. I'm just going to input some thoughts that came out of reading the recent posts that appeared after my last visit.

I wouldn't ever want to know how someone's mind thinks or works. To me, it's just a slight curiousity at times (just to question some of their actions >>), but other then that, it's their own private sanctum. What I do want to know (hence me observing a lot of what people say and do) is to what to label people... or just make out what kind of person they are. Mostly these are my friends though o_O. I mean, most of my friends in real life (which is actually just 3, lol) are due to the fact that I've known them since I was a mere child. Now, it's like, what they say, what their reactions are, their principles and morals... it completely bewilders me at times at how I am still friends with them. Other then they are pretty much nice to me (and we can ongo conversations you don't just speak with strangers about), it's just completely weird.

@_@ Rant mode:

(Edit: Actually... I won't rant. It's compeletely off topic and something the public need not hear, only actual individuals. )