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Yea, specially were I know a lot of people who are addicted/O.d.'d on pills.

I would do that, if I could. Unfortunately, I've got asthma, allergies, and other health issues that require medication to keep down. Plus I get migranes, so ibuprofen is sometimes a must.

I live with intense chronic pain and I'm on painkillers. I was addicted to those for a while, that was fun. (except not at all, because I despise taking vicodin, and did then too). I still have to take it, and i had a major pain spike this morning at about 4 AM, so I'm on vicodin as i type this. I really can't stand it. It makes me shale really badly, and if I stay awake long enough to actually feel the effects of it (which i did this morning) i start to shake and the shadows come out and they are obviously malevolent. I'm a bit more sane than I was this morning, because i took it 13 hours ago and it is starting to wear off. The nasty part of vicodin is that when i'm on it I feel as though I am more aware of things going on, and really I'm only half concious. I can't even hold my head up on my own. It was rather nasty.

The best part is, it doesn't get rid of my pain, it just makes me stupid enough to try and sleep anyhow.

I have major problems with chronic pain from a sports injury in my right shoulder that i got three years ago. It continued to get worse because the doctors kept saying i was fine to go back into what i was doing, and it was always too early. The pain was so bad this spring that I thought "If the pain itself doesn't kill me, i surely will..." Vicodin may mess with your head, but so does pain and in the end it came out to "hmm....do i want to be suicidal and in pain, or too drugged to care?" So after three years of misdiagnosis and doctors too stuck in their ways to take their heads out of their asses and help me (Oh, it's just inflamation, take these it'll get better... you're a young girl, what can you possibly know about your body? ) here I am today, reliant on anti-inflamatory pills to get me through the day and vicodin to get me through the night. I've tried everything, chiropractor, orthopedist, massage, accupuncture, reiki, I've had MRI's, i've had X-rays, i've had cortisone injections (which screwed me over more, i have pain at the injection site and that was five months ago), i do healing meditations, etc. I'm contemplating going off all my meds and fasting for a week or two with intense meditation to see if that makes a difference. maybe detox will be good for me... Unfortunately, if i miss even one dose of the antiinflamatory drugs I wind up in intense pain, and i'm in enough even when i'm on the stuff.

I recently had some success with massage, i have range of motion again and have broken the frozen shoulder cycle, but it has left me really tender, swollen, and bruised (like, sitting with my back to something hurts.)

But yeah, 17 and mildly addicted to vicodin because i can't get doctors to listen to me. It sucks major a**. If you have any advice let me know, i'm open to anything. Just don't start thinking i'm wallowing in this pain cycle, I usually don't even like to talk about it, but it is a part of my life and i just have to learn to deal with it. My boyfriend likes to tell me that i'm really strong to be living with this, that I can be in more pain than most people have to experience in their lives and I just smile through it, but what else do i have to do? I can wallow in the pain and make it worse, or I can suck it up and deal. I can't wallow in it any more, i've been feeling bad for myself for far too long.

Thanks! It's the anti-inflamatory that I have to go off of for a while, i only use vicodin as absolute last resort...

Anyhow... *dances* I'm like a monkey!

Hrm. I'm Cassidy, y'all.

My problem? Um, well, I've been called an "uncontrollable empath". Meaning, I can't help but literally feel everyone around me's emotions, and it's nearly always the bad ones. So, yeah...and, I suffer from horrible nightmares and can't stay asleep but for 30 minutes at a time. Rather irritating, as you might imagine. Although, some other people's problems I've read, I feel like a wuss for even worrying about mine eek

I've got multiple problems. gonk

My name's Stacie, by the way.


First of all, I know this is a corny and well-repeated problem ever since the dawn of love, but I'll give it a shot anyways. I have a crush on this one guy, and I can't stop having dreams with him in it. I did have a crush before him (and another) that were in some of my dreams, but those are NOTHING compared to the ones I have with this guy. It always seems to be a weird dream, then a nightmare, then the guy comes and then I wake up. Sometimes I even hear his voice, as though he was talking to one of his friends, then later as I'd walk past him, I hear him saying the same thing to a friend, from when I heard it in my mind earlier. Now for the big part of this problem -- I really do like him, as I eavesdropped on him (not to the actual conversation, just to the tone of voice), and he seems like a really nice guy. For Hallowe'en he was a pirate.
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The second one... well, this may make me look stupid, but heck with it. For the past summer and autumn, I have been unable to create/manipulate any kind of weather to my liking (as I'm a kinetic... mainly atmokinetic). I'm thinking that something that helps generate the energy to create/manipulate the weather is now gone, and I don't know what it is, so I don't know how to get it back. I REALLY miss being able to mess with the weatherpeople's heads.
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With the last one I can remember; I keep getting random premonitions at random times, but mostly in my dreams (of which would happen later that day or something). I get tons of deja vu's, plus I can finish ANYONE's sentences for them. As a matter of fact, I can even see nearly everyone's aura. Any idea how to control this so then I can go to sleep peacefully? o_o;

Don't worry, you're not alone on this one. I'm plagued by my thoughts, also. So much that it takes me forever to calm my mind down and relax it enough to sleep. I think about everything and anything. Things I shouldn't really be thinking about (not things I shouldn't be thinking about as in lewd or perverted thoughts, but things that other people say, "What? Why do you think about that s**t? You're 17, for God's sake. You've got your whole life to think about s**t like that!"). And yes, I constantly predict and plan out a large number of responses to everything I do and say. It gets quite annoying. Usually when I'm called to the office or headmaster's office, or really anywhere, the entire way I'm thinking about what it could be about, what I'd say if it was about this or that, and how they would react to my reaction. So usually by the time I get to wherever I'm going, I'm pissed off and annoyed with myself. It's a pretty bad habit to have. And, like you, this and other factors in my life lead me into that same self-loathing spiral. Not 20 minutes ago I had a conversation with a good friend about how I "fail at being human". To some, it may seem like a good thing, or at least a not-bad thing, but believe me, it can get bad. And it does get bad. And part of this is that lack-of-love-life you also mentioned. (Although that resulted from blocking off parts of me to cope with things...but that goes into something completely different, and probably only vaguely related.) Anyway, you're farther than me with that one. At least you know you have the ability to have any sort of non-platonic affection for others. See? I'm even changing that into some sort of techical, cold-sounding phrase. I'm terrible.

Well, for your sake, I'm hoping this wasn't one of the responses you've predicted. But on the other hand, I am. Because at least my predicted scenarios are pretty idealized and give me a sense of satisfaction that they are carried out. But...oh well. I hope this makes you feel just a little less depressed and..."out there". Good luck with taming your own mind. And you're welcome to PM or IM me if you want to talk out of the forums. I could use a little human interaction every now and again...