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Kaida managed an apologetic smile, returning her eyes to Aya as she assumed she should. Slowing down her breaths again, she tried to recall the pace that they had both set down from before, a little shakily. Her previous agitation seemed almost like a distant dark whisper of a bad memory. Almost. Her muscles relaxed, little by little.

When Aya stood up and offered a hand, Kaida willed her own limbs to respond. That they did not immediately do so sent frustration stabbing through her. They almost felt like they were twice as heavy, and were impossibly slow in lifting into the air. After what felt like an eternity, she managed to take Aya's offered hand. Even though she herself was not aware of it, her wings tipped forward - in a position to glide, if she were a bird. It certainly helped her balance. As she slowly took her seat on the chair, she was aware of a question being directed at her. Before she could respond, Aya had placed some food and the brew Kaida had made earlier before her.

She stared at it. What in the world would she do with a tart? What did knowing who she was have to do with anything? Confusion showed rather clearly upon her features - she knit her eyebrows together, as though pondering a very difficult puzzle. "I am a human," she answered, taking the Ice Queen's question incorrectly. Hesitantly, she took a tart and took a bite. It was rather delicious to her, and she was rather hungry, even if she hadn't really realized it until now. Chewing on the pastry, she pondered the question a little further. She had actually answered what, not who she was. Kaida swallowed her mouthful of food.

"I am Kaida; we have met," she explained, a little slowly, as though afraid that Aya might have mild amnesia. And then, out of nowhere, a thought invaded her - one that was clearly not her own. It's such a pity. Her wings idly created a soft draft, moving up and down in a slow manner. She didn't have a clue what in the world her inner self was talking about, or why it had stayed so silent up until that moment. She didn't let it bother her.

"I am in the kitchen of a library," she answered after some time, looking somewhat amused at the thought. "I am alright in that I am not in pain, if that's what you mean," Kaida continued. Somewhat unnecessarily careful, she took a slow drink of her brew. A small uncertain smile tugged at the corner of her lips, as she waited for some kind of explanation for the somewhat odd questions. Just then, however, she set down her brew and then her smile faded. Her eyes squeezed closed, tightly, and she leaned over herself, her arms clutching at her sides in clear pain. With a shudder, her wings pulled into her back, causing some more blood to spill as they did. After that process, Kaida slowly returned to her sitting position, somewhat wincing as she did.

How could you hunt down something that had no name?

Kaida decided that had never been the real problem; names did not decide what could or could not be hunted. It was the utter lack of knowing - not just the lack of the name. Pondering the thought a little more, she then realized that Aya had addressed her.

Back? Had she left?

Of course not. She had been here all day. Well, it certainly felt like a long time. That's not what she had meant. It wasn't a physical action that she was referring. Her expression slightly darkened. Her sword? That was incorrect. The link that had been displayed had been fake. Or was it her that had been in denial about it? She could practically feel the confusion doubling upon itself.

"Sanctuary from the others," she agreed, with a slight nod. For now, she would have to wait to ponder her odd thoughts. They were far too numerous to simply allow them to run rampant. Of course, there was the problem with how she was currently part of a conversation and it would simply be rude to drift off into her thoughts. Nonetheless, she wasn't sure what to say in response to the training that Aya had brought up. It would simply not do to recall those memories. Those thoughts had been much too practiced to be recalled now. She did, however, smile at the thought of being a librarian. "Ah, I'm very good with books," she said, choosing to remain silent about the casual way Aya had talked about different 'cultures' and danger.

The others who had the misfortune of coming across similar weapons came back to her mind. They had no reason to target her. They had no way of even knowing where she was. That was her reasoning, even if flawed. She didn't see any need for the protection to work both ways. The distant memory of the one who had a whip that refused to coil again made her exert effort to banish her tendencies to think too much. The silence, however, slightly stretched on. Had she given too much by her own choosing of what she responded on? Or perhaps, Aya had stopped, seeing just how much Kaida had been caught up in her thoughts. She felt a little embarrassed, thinking that she really should figure out a better way to stop memories dredging up along with all sorts of problems. But then, Aya spoke again, saving her from the trouble herself.

She felt overjoyed at the news. "You mean, I can stay?" Daring to hope just that, she wondered for a brief moment where she had disposed of her usual wariness. After all the trouble she had caused, she thought that they surely would have wanted nothing to do with her. There again, came the silent threats that bordered on paranoia. Kaida cleared her throat a bit and tried to sort of start again on a better foot. "I would be honored to join your clan," she said, a smile on her lips that was her best approximation of a shy smile. Certainly, she never would have guessed things would have gone this way.

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Aha, so there it was. Guyy had tried to hide it from her. He had the final say, and that meant he wasn't just some kind of screener. He was the bottom line. Kaida wanted to just give Guyy a punch or two, for trying to trick her earlier. Of course, she wouldn't actually hit him. Still, the idea amused her for a brief moment. Truthfully, she was sure that even if she did, he would not feel pain from it. She wasn't exactly a hand-to-hand combat person.

Aya's offer thoroughly confused her. Kaida had never dealt with seals of any kind. Or, if she had, she never realized it. From what she knew, which was very little, and from what she guessed, it sounded dangerous. Such a risk was not worth it, or so should be obvious. There was, after all, the distinct possibility that it could not only backfire, but also that the progression could actually become so accelerated that it would likely tear Kaida's human form completely apart. She swallowed, feeling a little pale and clammy. "No thanks." Her gaze sunk to her hands and she slowly inched her left hand to her side, holding onto it along with the memory that came with it.

"I'd rather... try to conquer it." Sure, that held risks, too. She couldn't deny that. Or, if she tried to, she'd just be lying to herself. The benefits on the other side were far more appealing, however. If she could do anything like the female with the longbow, she would consider herself successful. It'd be rather limited, but that was only natural. She would never allow it to progress to wings again if she could help it. With that sort of determination, the danger was much, much smaller. Besides, she knew more about this side of the coin. It simply felt more comfortable.