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Platinum_Behemoth252 Vice Captain
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 Posted: Mon Dec 19, 2005 12:17 pm
Phanari Platinum_Behemoth252 its a trick that i for one learned at a young age. Emotional detachment. i can detach myself so much from my body that when i do things its not even like im the one doing them....if i had to, though i am not proud of it and the thought that i could do this has kept me up at night, i could emotionaly detach myself to a point where i could kill my own family and not feel a thing...its a gift but in many ways it is more of a curse...if i could unlearn it i would...but its part of me now and i fear it every night i go to bed... I wish I could detatch myself sometimes. My doctor tells me I should learn to be more assertive, and also learn to let go. But I fear that letting go of something I loved will cause it to disappear forever. I don't want that. It scares me. It's weird. I can cut myself until my hair bleeds, and feel nothing until long after the deed is done. But when it comes to anything else........it's hard to seperate. be glad you can hang on....i dont even have like conscious control of it anymore...it jst happens...and yes it leaves you empty....and that emptiness can consume you at night..believe me...your better off....
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Posted: Mon Dec 19, 2005 4:30 pm
*sigh* emptiness.....
A goal sought after by many with emotional problems, but once they have truly achieved it, they realize they have gone too far and are unable to come back...
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Posted: Mon Dec 19, 2005 7:33 pm
Well, that does make sense. But sometimes I feel that the reason I did the things I did before I got help was because I was always dwelling on problems.
Inner Zedd: Think of the solution, not the problem.^_~
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Posted: Mon Dec 19, 2005 8:53 pm
Phanari Well, that does make sense. But sometimes I feel that the reason I did the things I did before I got help was because I was always dwelling on problems. Inner Zedd: Think of the solution, not the problem.^_~ keep your emotions at least at second importance...dont let them lose their importance like i have...you will be a better happier person if you embrace them...
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Platinum_Behemoth252 Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Dec 19, 2005 9:18 pm
This is getting me depressed...
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Posted: Thu Dec 22, 2005 1:56 am
Platinum_Behemoth252 Phanari Well, that does make sense. But sometimes I feel that the reason I did the things I did before I got help was because I was always dwelling on problems. Inner Zedd: Think of the solution, not the problem.^_~ keep your emotions at least at second importance...dont let them lose their importance like i have...you will be a better happier person if you embrace them... Sure thing Yoda. Now show me how to make things float!!!
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Platinum_Behemoth252 Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Dec 22, 2005 6:21 pm
.....i seem to have that affect on some ppl when i talk about my feelings...if anyone needs emotional advice from me jst send it by pm...im tired of sadness....ive had my fill this year...
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Posted: Thu Dec 22, 2005 6:38 pm
Platinum_Behemoth252 .....i seem to have that affect on some ppl when i talk about my feelings...if anyone needs emotional advice from me jst send it by pm...im tired of sadness....ive had my fill this year... I was being sarcastic, hun. ^_^ Thanks for the help with my sister though.
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Platinum_Behemoth252 Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Dec 23, 2005 7:46 am
Phanari Platinum_Behemoth252 .....i seem to have that affect on some ppl when i talk about my feelings...if anyone needs emotional advice from me jst send it by pm...im tired of sadness....ive had my fill this year... I was being sarcastic, hun. ^_^ Thanks for the help with my sister though. np...anytime....i dont have much to do anyways...might as well do something usefull...
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Posted: Sat Dec 24, 2005 8:07 am
Platinum_Behemoth252 Phanari Platinum_Behemoth252 .....i seem to have that affect on some ppl when i talk about my feelings...if anyone needs emotional advice from me jst send it by pm...im tired of sadness....ive had my fill this year... I was being sarcastic, hun. ^_^ Thanks for the help with my sister though. np...anytime....i dont have much to do anyways...might as well do something usefull... Don't have much to..? What do you do with yourself all day?!
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Posted: Sat Dec 24, 2005 11:19 am
chubby_choco Platinum_Behemoth252 Phanari Platinum_Behemoth252 .....i seem to have that affect on some ppl when i talk about my feelings...if anyone needs emotional advice from me jst send it by pm...im tired of sadness....ive had my fill this year... I was being sarcastic, hun. ^_^ Thanks for the help with my sister though. np...anytime....i dont have much to do anyways...might as well do something usefull... Don't have much to..? What do you do with yourself all day?! Don't you know? He's stuck in a tower with no windows or doors. He was placed there after birth by an evil witch named Morganna. He's fed one piece of bread and a glass of ecky Phelan water everyday through a brick that disappears only long enough to feed him. His computer is his only window the the world outside.
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Posted: Sat Dec 24, 2005 9:25 pm
Phanari chubby_choco Platinum_Behemoth252 Phanari Platinum_Behemoth252 .....i seem to have that affect on some ppl when i talk about my feelings...if anyone needs emotional advice from me jst send it by pm...im tired of sadness....ive had my fill this year... I was being sarcastic, hun. ^_^ Thanks for the help with my sister though. np...anytime....i dont have much to do anyways...might as well do something usefull... Don't have much to..? What do you do with yourself all day?! Don't you know? He's stuck in a tower with no windows or doors. He was placed there after birth by an evil witch named Morganna. He's fed one piece of bread and a glass of ecky Phelan water everyday through a brick that disappears only long enough to feed him. His computer is his only window the the world outside. well my days are spent either on gaia...some messenger sitting there waiting for ppl to come on....sitting around doing nothing...random self manipulation....having some company over...and then the occasional video game....
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Platinum_Behemoth252 Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Dec 26, 2005 9:57 pm
Platinum_Behemoth252 Phanari chubby_choco Platinum_Behemoth252 Phanari Platinum_Behemoth252 .....i seem to have that affect on some ppl when i talk about my feelings...if anyone needs emotional advice from me jst send it by pm...im tired of sadness....ive had my fill this year... I was being sarcastic, hun. ^_^ Thanks for the help with my sister though. np...anytime....i dont have much to do anyways...might as well do something usefull... Don't have much to..? What do you do with yourself all day?! Don't you know? He's stuck in a tower with no windows or doors. He was placed there after birth by an evil witch named Morganna. He's fed one piece of bread and a glass of ecky Phelan water everyday through a brick that disappears only long enough to feed him. His computer is his only window the the world outside. well my days are spent either on gaia...some messenger sitting there waiting for ppl to come on....sitting around doing nothing...random self manipulation....having some company over...and then the occasional video game.... THAT'S MY LIFE! If you add cooking, cleaning, work and writing.
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Posted: Tue Dec 27, 2005 10:42 am
'Ecky Phelan water?' Phelan water tastes like ambrosia next to ARIZONA WATER. *gags and dies of the total nastiness of the water there*
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Posted: Tue Dec 27, 2005 4:44 pm
chubby_choco 'Ecky Phelan water?' Phelan water tastes like ambrosia next to ARIZONA WATER. *gags and dies of the total nastiness of the water there* Galt water isn't even good for you. Phelan water makes you glow, but Galt water has sewage in it.
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