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Mm, melodrama.

Apologies, Nios, but leaving a message like that is both inconsiderate and attention-seeking.

I do, however, very much hope that you return and I hope that everything is alright.

Okay, I'm just a weird youngster who's bad with words, but I'll try my best here....
Nios, how could you think we'd hate you for this? I, for one, look up to a lot of people in this guild, you being one of them. That hasn't changed. I'm just glad that you at least feel a little better now and hope you're okay.

I'm sorry... I really dunno what to say in a situation like this.

I third that, I would say more but I have to write fast and I tend to be not so great with words when rushed.
~Aubrey

This seems to be happening to a lot of people close to me, oddly enough - I have a feeling that it's not going to be a terribly good year.

I still think your message was inconsiderate, but - I meant it that I hoped everything was alright, and you had every right to leave such a message.

I'm never quite sure what to say in these matters but the generic message - please do make sure that the person is kept away from you, by telling people you're close to, or people who know the person. If it was a stranger, then you should report it to the police immediately - please.

We adore you, Nios, and we always shall do. What some idiotic, ******** up, shitty little t**t does to you because they have no mental stability is no fault of your's, and doesn't change you in the slightest in my eyes. Things like that should never be allowed to happen, especially not to wonderful people such as yourself.

I simply hope that things run more smoothly now and that there's nothing keeping you from being happy aside from the obvious.

Very well said.

I feel ashamed for even worrying about you guys in the first place. I haven't been thinking very rationally, probably for obvious reasons. I meant no offense by thinking you guys would reject me. I hope none of you thought that. If you did, I'm sorry. I am thinking a lot more clearly now.

There's not much I can do about the guy who did this to me. He's my ex and was someone I thought I considered my friend. I've asked him to leave me alone for awhile and for the most part he's been keeping that request. I am going to tell him later that I really just don't want to see him again. I told a friend of mine who is also his friend. He'll protect me.

I'm still quite a mess. Prior to New Year's I was having a pregnancy scare. That scare hasn't ended and it's been a month and a half now. Since the New Year's incident I'm even more worried. So life could possibly be getting very dramatic very soon, again. I'm getting tested again tomorrow.

To limit my depression I dropped out of school today. I'll be going back in the summer, but I need this time off to deal with a lot of things in my life right now. I finally got around to getting my health card. I'm going to call my doctor today and set up an appointment. He will then refer me to a therapist. I can see that therapist for free for awhile and then he can refer me to an actual psychiatrist who can write my letter for testosterone. I'm just trying to find the cheapest way to go about this. I still have to convince my family that testosterone is something I really want to do as well as surgery. I'll have my psychiatrist explain that to them though. Basically these next few weeks are going to be super chaotic.


I do have some good news though. Nova Scotia might be forced to pay for transitioning in the next few months. This excites me greatly.